i was readin this thread on FP forum yesterday ..
kinda discriminating ..
but well well tats just me
cause i like fleshier guys
and hmm
as mz will say
her ideal man and mine is like MILES apart
wat ...
fleshier guys good mah
cuddly and gives me a better sense of security
i wan a guy who can lift me off my feet ...literally
heh
and NEVER thin guys for me
cause i aint thin anyway ..
hahaha dun have to stress myself lookin "appropriate" beside him
hmm..
not referrin to anyone in particular dun worry ~ hee
anyway
love and relationship is not just abt physical appearance
and i despise guys who go for gals cause of their looks
so superficial ..
(can feel arrows shootin at me already )
i just feel sad for those deemed "fat" and the negative traits associated with being "fat"
and gals turnin up their noses towards such ppl
its a combination of alot of factors to substain a relationship
i know first impression counts alot
BUT it shouldnt be the deciding factor ..
get to know the person better
beyond skin-deep
u can unravel alot of good pts
..
well well
wat can i say
i will be tellin my friends
fat can lose weight
short cannot grow taller >.<
eg
my ex was plump BUT he takes the effort to dress well for occassions and always smell good ..
although i know he still kinda hates me for breakin up but my anger has simmered ..
hmm
but anyway tats an eg ..
http://www.flowerpod.com.sg/forums/index.php?showtopic=24082
worth a read
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Women And Their Zodiac Characteristics
By Pankaj Khanna
SCORPIO - WOMEN
If your date of birth falls between 24th October and 21st November, you are a Scorpio woman.
Physical Appearance
• You have a broad face ( so very true), a commanding appearance, normally short and curly hair and a muscular body.
• Hands are generally long and the stature is above average( put it simly bigger built). The body is well proportioned and overall personality is impressive.
• You have a special look in your eyes and a glow in your skin which makes you stand apart.
Mental Attitude
• You have a logical bent of mind and you possess a strong willpower , determination and self-reliant nature. You have the capacity to do original research work and tend to get deep into the mysteries of nature. ( tat should help in my research career)
• Mentally, you can face any situation and tackle it to your own best advantage.
General Nature
• Scorpion woman is a determined one. She is at her best when the going is tough. Added to this is her capacity to remove obstacles and hinderances . She never surrenders but work hards to win.
• You have very good imagination and intelligence but you are not quite aware of your ability. But once aware , you can exploit its full potential and do well in any field that you choose.
• There is all likelihood that you will have a lot of positive development in your life time. The exceptionally strong vibrations of Scorpio coupled with your ability of self control - gives you an extra-ordinary capacity to attain supreme results.
• Negatively speaking - you tend to become compulsive pleasure seeker. (ah really?) You can use a lot of determination only for the purpose of seeking pleasure. You may have a lot of influence on others but can not reform your own self.
• You can do very will in the matters relating to business and finance. You are faithful and reliable and you have the capacity to help others even beyond limit. However If your harm anybody it will also be substantial. You also do not give much attention to the feelings of your subordinates.
• Scorpion woman is dynamic and thinks very fast - she can out wit her opponents . With her capacity of making right connections she can rise very high in life. You will like a very high quality life and will be able to achieve it.
( i hope..)
Health
• You will have a strong constitution and good health. You will rarely have health problems but if they occur , they will take time to cure. The generative organs and the bladder are your weak spots.
• You may also have problems like insomnia, inflammations and disorders related to excessive heat in the body.
Money
• You shall have plenty of it and shall be able to manage your finances very well. You will also have a strong tendency towards speculation and shall stand to gain a lot through it.
• Though the earning part is good - the savings are not substantial. Thus, at the time of need you will face difficulties.
Romance And Sex Life
• You are quite attractive and draw the attention of all males. You may face a problem in choosing the right man for yourself .
• You shall be drawn towards slow story book romance. You will enjoy the love life to a great extent but may feel not completely satisfied always.
• A scorpio woman is very true towards her lover and expects the same from him that is - total devotion. You will want to have romance in the best of the surroundings and in the most classical way. You have the capacity to seduce your man by a single glance, your power of eyes have a lot to do in romance.
• It is not for you to openly declare about being in love. You say it well through your gestures and glances.You do not need any special clothes for the occasion but shall have the capacity to achieve your ends in most ordinary clothes.
• You have the capacity of making your voice sweet and magnetic and shall be able to control the man with few words and few glances.
• It is not very easy to get you. Every part of the body is a hot spot for you.
Marriage
• You shall have a desire to marry early. Once married you can care and love your husband the way no other woman can do. You will try to improve his position and power so that you can be proud of him.
• On the negative side , A scorpio woman can have frequent rages of fury and is well capable of destroying her married life . Controlling such rage will work out well for you.
• However it has been seen that marriage of Scorpion women is generally stable and the marriage improves the lot of a scorpion woman as well as her husband.
Ideal Match
• Those born in Pisces, Scorpio and Leo are ideal match for you.
Caution
• You are extremely optimistic and see the world through pink glasses.
• You will rise in life due to this nature of yours but it can lead to falls also. You may take risky decisions in all your optimism without seeing the negative possibilities attached to them.
Lucky Days, Numbers And Colours
• Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and Thursday are lucky days.
• 1, 2, 3, 4, 7, & 9 are lucky numbers.
• Yellow, Red & Orange are lucky colours.
Recommended Gemstones
• Red Coral and Yellow Sapphire are the recommended gemstones for you. The gemstones should be of a clear vibrant Aura, the weight of the gem shall be decided as per your body weight and age.
if any gals wan the other horoscope traits leave me a msg
i'll send email to u ^^
By Pankaj Khanna
SCORPIO - WOMEN
If your date of birth falls between 24th October and 21st November, you are a Scorpio woman.
Physical Appearance
• You have a broad face ( so very true), a commanding appearance, normally short and curly hair and a muscular body.
• Hands are generally long and the stature is above average( put it simly bigger built). The body is well proportioned and overall personality is impressive.
• You have a special look in your eyes and a glow in your skin which makes you stand apart.
Mental Attitude
• You have a logical bent of mind and you possess a strong willpower , determination and self-reliant nature. You have the capacity to do original research work and tend to get deep into the mysteries of nature. ( tat should help in my research career)
• Mentally, you can face any situation and tackle it to your own best advantage.
General Nature
• Scorpion woman is a determined one. She is at her best when the going is tough. Added to this is her capacity to remove obstacles and hinderances . She never surrenders but work hards to win.
• You have very good imagination and intelligence but you are not quite aware of your ability. But once aware , you can exploit its full potential and do well in any field that you choose.
• There is all likelihood that you will have a lot of positive development in your life time. The exceptionally strong vibrations of Scorpio coupled with your ability of self control - gives you an extra-ordinary capacity to attain supreme results.
• Negatively speaking - you tend to become compulsive pleasure seeker. (ah really?) You can use a lot of determination only for the purpose of seeking pleasure. You may have a lot of influence on others but can not reform your own self.
• You can do very will in the matters relating to business and finance. You are faithful and reliable and you have the capacity to help others even beyond limit. However If your harm anybody it will also be substantial. You also do not give much attention to the feelings of your subordinates.
• Scorpion woman is dynamic and thinks very fast - she can out wit her opponents . With her capacity of making right connections she can rise very high in life. You will like a very high quality life and will be able to achieve it.
( i hope..)
Health
• You will have a strong constitution and good health. You will rarely have health problems but if they occur , they will take time to cure. The generative organs and the bladder are your weak spots.
• You may also have problems like insomnia, inflammations and disorders related to excessive heat in the body.
Money
• You shall have plenty of it and shall be able to manage your finances very well. You will also have a strong tendency towards speculation and shall stand to gain a lot through it.
• Though the earning part is good - the savings are not substantial. Thus, at the time of need you will face difficulties.
Romance And Sex Life
• You are quite attractive and draw the attention of all males. You may face a problem in choosing the right man for yourself .
• You shall be drawn towards slow story book romance. You will enjoy the love life to a great extent but may feel not completely satisfied always.
• A scorpio woman is very true towards her lover and expects the same from him that is - total devotion. You will want to have romance in the best of the surroundings and in the most classical way. You have the capacity to seduce your man by a single glance, your power of eyes have a lot to do in romance.
• It is not for you to openly declare about being in love. You say it well through your gestures and glances.You do not need any special clothes for the occasion but shall have the capacity to achieve your ends in most ordinary clothes.
• You have the capacity of making your voice sweet and magnetic and shall be able to control the man with few words and few glances.
• It is not very easy to get you. Every part of the body is a hot spot for you.
Marriage
• You shall have a desire to marry early. Once married you can care and love your husband the way no other woman can do. You will try to improve his position and power so that you can be proud of him.
• On the negative side , A scorpio woman can have frequent rages of fury and is well capable of destroying her married life . Controlling such rage will work out well for you.
• However it has been seen that marriage of Scorpion women is generally stable and the marriage improves the lot of a scorpion woman as well as her husband.
Ideal Match
• Those born in Pisces, Scorpio and Leo are ideal match for you.
Caution
• You are extremely optimistic and see the world through pink glasses.
• You will rise in life due to this nature of yours but it can lead to falls also. You may take risky decisions in all your optimism without seeing the negative possibilities attached to them.
Lucky Days, Numbers And Colours
• Sunday, Monday, Tuesday and Thursday are lucky days.
• 1, 2, 3, 4, 7, & 9 are lucky numbers.
• Yellow, Red & Orange are lucky colours.
Recommended Gemstones
• Red Coral and Yellow Sapphire are the recommended gemstones for you. The gemstones should be of a clear vibrant Aura, the weight of the gem shall be decided as per your body weight and age.
if any gals wan the other horoscope traits leave me a msg
i'll send email to u ^^
and i just joined ASOS spree and goin to buy myself 2 necklaces and a pair of earrings hmm.. gosh.. i tink i better curb my spendin -_-" and the damn machine was not workin well so in the end had biscuits for lunch cause lazy to walk out to buy had to walk down often to "fiX" the machine.. and i feel like drinkin wat .... i face three bottles of vodka everyday leh .. temptin.. -_-"
and
lamentin for these bags now ..
just realise i saw it in the DFS IN US !!
WHY DIN I BUY IT ?
ARGH!!
now regrettin
anyway an uncle of mine is goin back to US ...
(thinkin)
maybe get him to buy and trouble him bring over next time he come back to spore
hee
(ponders)
i tink i'm becomin a sucker for US brands -_-"
and
lamentin for these bags now ..
just realise i saw it in the DFS IN US !!
WHY DIN I BUY IT ?
ARGH!!
now regrettin
anyway an uncle of mine is goin back to US ...
(thinkin)
maybe get him to buy and trouble him bring over next time he come back to spore
hee
(ponders)
i tink i'm becomin a sucker for US brands -_-"
Monday, May 29, 2006
slackin away at home now
had a late breakfast with mum
and mornin till afternoon was spent chattin with her
updatin her with my life and her .. on her various gossips or happenings she heard
i like tat aspect of my mum
not afraid to tell me anythin
even if its somethin i dun like
its for my own good she will say ..
BUT she will get angry woh
hahahah
and i WILL SENSE it when she is displeased with somethin
she WUN TALK to me if she's angry
-_-"
but this is wat i call open communication
and i tink this is wat alot of parent-child are lackin in now ..
when have u heard of youngsters nowadays talkin to their parents abt anythin?
sch ? friends? relationship?
i tell my mum everythin ( to a large extend) LOL
there's nothin to hide
and i dun see the need to ..
she's the one that will always be there to listen to me ..
i feel most comfortable talkin to her
and NO she's not those traditional auntie .. which i am glad of ..
she's open to alot of things
maybe due to her work which allows her to interact with alot of ppl
from all walks of life
she will always say
life is ours
not the parents
they do watever they wan
parents can only guide .. bring them calm or let them have a retreat if in times of need
parents instill in them the proper values ..
if they stray its their responsibilities to rein them in
and she's very hospitable
to my friends tat is .. heh
and if u ever come over to meet her
u know wat i mean?
right ?
i have disappoint her with my studies last time
i wun disappoint her again
she done so much for me
so its only good i repay her back t
bit by bit
anythin within my means ..
food hunt is wat i suggest cause she loves food
and her upcomin trip to JAPAN
( looks at bankbook)
its time to set aside some money ...
hahaha
i can proudly say
I LOVE U
my mum
heh
kopi anyone?
had a late breakfast with mum
and mornin till afternoon was spent chattin with her
updatin her with my life and her .. on her various gossips or happenings she heard
i like tat aspect of my mum
not afraid to tell me anythin
even if its somethin i dun like
its for my own good she will say ..
BUT she will get angry woh
hahahah
and i WILL SENSE it when she is displeased with somethin
she WUN TALK to me if she's angry
-_-"
but this is wat i call open communication
and i tink this is wat alot of parent-child are lackin in now ..
when have u heard of youngsters nowadays talkin to their parents abt anythin?
sch ? friends? relationship?
i tell my mum everythin ( to a large extend) LOL
there's nothin to hide
and i dun see the need to ..
she's the one that will always be there to listen to me ..
i feel most comfortable talkin to her
and NO she's not those traditional auntie .. which i am glad of ..
she's open to alot of things
maybe due to her work which allows her to interact with alot of ppl
from all walks of life
she will always say
life is ours
not the parents
they do watever they wan
parents can only guide .. bring them calm or let them have a retreat if in times of need
parents instill in them the proper values ..
if they stray its their responsibilities to rein them in
and she's very hospitable
to my friends tat is .. heh
and if u ever come over to meet her
u know wat i mean?
right ?
i have disappoint her with my studies last time
i wun disappoint her again
she done so much for me
so its only good i repay her back t
bit by bit
anythin within my means ..
food hunt is wat i suggest cause she loves food
and her upcomin trip to JAPAN
( looks at bankbook)
its time to set aside some money ...
hahaha
i can proudly say
I LOVE U
my mum
heh
kopi anyone?
Sunday, May 28, 2006
its been a FULLFILLIN week
for my stomach and my social life heh
sat brought mum to eat at this chinese restaurant at west mall
cant remember the name but its red and black logo
its good and the portions are small
and lots of varities
and mum loves it
heh
i am so glad tat she likes my new food huntin place i got for her
and then happily ordered away
and in the end the three of us had 12 dishes
LOL
but prices wise still very affordable
highly RECOMMEND
sis with desserts
mum posin happily
some of the food we had ..
sis ordered the noodles
and it was REAL GOOD
spicy and strong in spices ..
oh beef and pork ribs were real nice.. the sauces .. rich and not too salty ..
and we had the chicken wings too ..
and durian tarts and mango puddin
real solid ..
with real mango and puddin's thick not watery like some others...
then i went over to dear's place cause he had bbq at night
army friend
so accompanied him
was there and listened to them talkin abt army stuff
so listened
haha gained some knowledge too
then after the birthday cake we went supper at bedok ...
then it was back home..
to dear's place hahahah
then SUN was my dear colleague's rom heh
dear's mum fetched me there in the rain ..
it was a wonderful exp for me ..
so see the whole process
and the bride's BEAUTIFUL
heh
sexy ..
then after went to watch Xmen ..
abit disappointin ..
too short
too little action scenes
just find it ended too abruptly
well well
cause i remembered in the cartoon it was more than tat was shown ...
maybe budget restriction
overall was alright ..
maybe 3.5 stars out of 5
^^
now feelin tired and lethargic
but its alright cause i'm on leave tml heh
night
and to end the day
me and the bride today ..
gosh..
they always say a woman look the best in her weddin gown
though u're in "ROM" gown
u still look gorgeous
heh MRS TAN
thanks for listenin to my probs
givin me advice
just talkin to me
bein there for me
though din know u long enough
or talk to u much
still appreciate watever u did
wish u happiness and blissful marriage
for my stomach and my social life heh
sat brought mum to eat at this chinese restaurant at west mall
cant remember the name but its red and black logo
its good and the portions are small
and lots of varities
and mum loves it
heh
i am so glad tat she likes my new food huntin place i got for her
and then happily ordered away
and in the end the three of us had 12 dishes
LOL
but prices wise still very affordable
highly RECOMMEND
sis with desserts
mum posin happily
some of the food we had ..
sis ordered the noodles
and it was REAL GOOD
spicy and strong in spices ..
oh beef and pork ribs were real nice.. the sauces .. rich and not too salty ..
and we had the chicken wings too ..
and durian tarts and mango puddin
real solid ..
with real mango and puddin's thick not watery like some others...
then i went over to dear's place cause he had bbq at night
army friend
so accompanied him
was there and listened to them talkin abt army stuff
so listened
haha gained some knowledge too
then after the birthday cake we went supper at bedok ...
then it was back home..
to dear's place hahahah
then SUN was my dear colleague's rom heh
dear's mum fetched me there in the rain ..
it was a wonderful exp for me ..
so see the whole process
and the bride's BEAUTIFUL
heh
sexy ..
then after went to watch Xmen ..
abit disappointin ..
too short
too little action scenes
just find it ended too abruptly
well well
cause i remembered in the cartoon it was more than tat was shown ...
maybe budget restriction
overall was alright ..
maybe 3.5 stars out of 5
^^
now feelin tired and lethargic
but its alright cause i'm on leave tml heh
night
and to end the day
me and the bride today ..
gosh..
they always say a woman look the best in her weddin gown
though u're in "ROM" gown
u still look gorgeous
heh MRS TAN
thanks for listenin to my probs
givin me advice
just talkin to me
bein there for me
though din know u long enough
or talk to u much
still appreciate watever u did
wish u happiness and blissful marriage
Friday, May 26, 2006
was lookin thru the FP forum and was lookin at the discussion on US brands and taiwan auction sites
hmm..
oh gosh .. i realise shoppin in spore sucks .. for me tat is ..
regretted not buyin more from US ..
hmm.. J .. if u are readin if u go back taiwan can buy me accessories ? LOL
then no need undergo so much hassle of orderin onlin payin thru paypal etc hahahah
and even though spore sells "authentic" US brands its way to ex for me
after lookin at the prices over there ..
hmm
stuff from aber and aeropostale
my new fav brand AEROPOSTALE!!
gosh the graphic tees real nice and the material's soft and stretchy and its long .. the way i like
and its slim cut .. meanin it hugs your body
hahah gave me more motivation to work out lose the fats
and best thing of all?
its CLEARANCE SALE when i went there
heh
so its 10-15usd for tshirts
i bought like 9 shirts for 2nd sis
me and 3rd sis sharin 5 shirts
dad 2
mum 1
bf 2
friends 3
and i am hungering for more ..
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
was there with his mum ..
weather was nice .. not too sunny
parade was short ..
speech was short ..
finally passed out from ASLC ..
and dear got posted to 1st SIR ..
and we went dinner at Inter_Continental Hotel at night
and MAN FU LOU
hongkong chef ..
not bad ... we had shark's fin too .
this is really good
its looks plain but the asparagus is simmered in chicken soup! not chicken stock
and is wrapped in fish maw .. thing and spongy
very fragrant .. and abit crunchy..
nice .. reminds me of XO sauce
solid ! really have mango fruits and in mango sauce ..
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
i'm back at work today heh
after a day's of lazin at home yesterday
did practically NOTHIN
hahah just nuain readin listenin music and sleepin
slept before 9 hahaha dear called at 10+ then went back to sleep again
feelin excited ..
tml's my dear gonna pass out from his course!
its goodbye to ASLC
dunno where he will be posted to .. hopefully not changi or tekong again ..
me dun wanna travel so far again .. rememeber the bmt days whereby i practically fetch and send him off at pasir ris everyweek
hahahhaah -_-" i must be mad ..
anyway .. its been good .. dear did his best showed his best and i am proud of it ..
so tml's postin will be another level up ..
hmm..
hope it works out well for him ..
i dun understand why some gals wan their bfs to be clerks so that the bfs can have more time for them ..
for me
i wan my guy to aim high
do his best
if no time for me i'll understand cause he will have more responsibilites or tougher trainin but at least he's not wastin his time there .. makin full use of it..
well well i am not in his shoes i wun know wat he's thinkin or wat he wants or whether he wans to aim high or take a back seat for now
but tats just me ..
oh yar i watched poseidon on sun with dear ..w anted to watch the da vinci code
but no time slots
poseidon .. quite ok to me..
the shipwreckin scenes are alright to me
sometimes even too fake
the storyline is too simple and short
its just those rescue and sinkin scenes that saved the movie .. hmm ..
i wouldnt recommend the movie ..
reminds me of titanic expt its doesnt revolve around the couple
dunno wats the big deal abt titanic show
its just alright to me ..
i dun find the story very touchin to me
well well ... never into romance shows hahahha
but hey i can be romantic ... hahhaha no need to watch shows to teach me wat to do
i am so thick-skinned
hahahhah
after a day's of lazin at home yesterday
did practically NOTHIN
hahah just nuain readin listenin music and sleepin
slept before 9 hahaha dear called at 10+ then went back to sleep again
feelin excited ..
tml's my dear gonna pass out from his course!
its goodbye to ASLC
dunno where he will be posted to .. hopefully not changi or tekong again ..
me dun wanna travel so far again .. rememeber the bmt days whereby i practically fetch and send him off at pasir ris everyweek
hahahhaah -_-" i must be mad ..
anyway .. its been good .. dear did his best showed his best and i am proud of it ..
so tml's postin will be another level up ..
hmm..
hope it works out well for him ..
i dun understand why some gals wan their bfs to be clerks so that the bfs can have more time for them ..
for me
i wan my guy to aim high
do his best
if no time for me i'll understand cause he will have more responsibilites or tougher trainin but at least he's not wastin his time there .. makin full use of it..
well well i am not in his shoes i wun know wat he's thinkin or wat he wants or whether he wans to aim high or take a back seat for now
but tats just me ..
oh yar i watched poseidon on sun with dear ..w anted to watch the da vinci code
but no time slots
poseidon .. quite ok to me..
the shipwreckin scenes are alright to me
sometimes even too fake
the storyline is too simple and short
its just those rescue and sinkin scenes that saved the movie .. hmm ..
i wouldnt recommend the movie ..
reminds me of titanic expt its doesnt revolve around the couple
dunno wats the big deal abt titanic show
its just alright to me ..
i dun find the story very touchin to me
well well ... never into romance shows hahahha
but hey i can be romantic ... hahhaha no need to watch shows to teach me wat to do
i am so thick-skinned
hahahhah
Monday, May 22, 2006
hey hey i'm back busy sortin photos now
not alot though cause most time was spent in trainin and the area around my hotel was quite isolated so the only thing i indulge most of the time was shoppin !!
and there's no supermarket or drugstore
argh was havin headache due to time diff and cant get myself panadol! wth
then wanna get some local foodstuff to buy back also cant find hai hai
its really shoppin and shoppin
here are some pics i took when we went sight seein in san fran and at the REDWOOD nature park
argh .. blogger uploadin too slow
i upload in my FLICKR
any comments leave in this post ^^
not alot though cause most time was spent in trainin and the area around my hotel was quite isolated so the only thing i indulge most of the time was shoppin !!
and there's no supermarket or drugstore
argh was havin headache due to time diff and cant get myself panadol! wth
then wanna get some local foodstuff to buy back also cant find hai hai
its really shoppin and shoppin
here are some pics i took when we went sight seein in san fran and at the REDWOOD nature park
argh .. blogger uploadin too slow
i upload in my FLICKR
any comments leave in this post ^^
Friday, May 19, 2006
its 7.35 am and the last day i'll be in san jose .. California
i'll be takin the 1 am flight home~
its been really enjoyable.. been shoppin almost everyday after i'm back at the hotel ..
wed there was a group dinner plus sight seeing at SAN FRAnsico!
its was so COLD !!
i had to layer myself with my sweater and my jacket .. luckily i brought both ..
underestimated the weather here -_-"
its been nice .. oh
we rode a stretch limo .. for 10
oh yea~ its a once in a lifetime ride ..
then we went to pier 39.. saw the famed prison .. alcatrez..
and sea lions~ man .. the only time i see sea lions are in the zoo ..
its vast amt of land and sea around here .. not to mention mountains..
not hills like others..
breathtakin scenery ..
we always take nature for granted .. unless u see it in its full glory then u learn how to appreciate it ..
i cant imagine myself back in spore.. concrete jungle wherever u go ..
oh wed night .. we ate at this fine restaurant by the bay .. really beautiful scenery ..
and i saw the golden gate bridge... pity its was shrouded in fog ..
its unlike the fog in genting..
the fog over there was MOVIN .. fast ! hahah
its really windy ..
its worth bein in the cold for all these breathtakin scenery ...
last night ..
which was thu ..
someone from the trainin grp drove us to santa cruz to see the REDWOOD park ..
its really nice.. coolin and fresh .. its abt an hr ride from the hotel ..
the trees there are really old ..
goin by the thousands..
i have to wear my sweater when walkin along the trail .. i wonder how ppl can jog in shorts and singlets..
hai hai
low tolerance to the cold .. but its alright ..
wun get to layer myself when back ..
then we went to this santa cruz restaurant .. MALABAR .. to have dinner .. its vegeterian.. BUT it doesnt taste like it ..
it was even better than the dinner from yesterday ..
the taste and sauces really interestin ..
interestin combi ..
and lots of weird names.. hahaha
i am gonna miss this place ..
will do last min shoppin again ..
sis had a long list for me to buy
oh and i love shoppin here !!
the sizes and lengths are good for me..
the t shirts in spore are always so short..
above my jeans ..
and the mall is HUGE ..
haven finish walkin thru the whole mall yet .. after 2 days..
maybe tats why it is called the GREAT MALL ..
wait for my pics woh ~
i'll be comin home soon ..
must still miss me yea~
i'll be takin the 1 am flight home~
its been really enjoyable.. been shoppin almost everyday after i'm back at the hotel ..
wed there was a group dinner plus sight seeing at SAN FRAnsico!
its was so COLD !!
i had to layer myself with my sweater and my jacket .. luckily i brought both ..
underestimated the weather here -_-"
its been nice .. oh
we rode a stretch limo .. for 10
oh yea~ its a once in a lifetime ride ..
then we went to pier 39.. saw the famed prison .. alcatrez..
and sea lions~ man .. the only time i see sea lions are in the zoo ..
its vast amt of land and sea around here .. not to mention mountains..
not hills like others..
breathtakin scenery ..
we always take nature for granted .. unless u see it in its full glory then u learn how to appreciate it ..
i cant imagine myself back in spore.. concrete jungle wherever u go ..
oh wed night .. we ate at this fine restaurant by the bay .. really beautiful scenery ..
and i saw the golden gate bridge... pity its was shrouded in fog ..
its unlike the fog in genting..
the fog over there was MOVIN .. fast ! hahah
its really windy ..
its worth bein in the cold for all these breathtakin scenery ...
last night ..
which was thu ..
someone from the trainin grp drove us to santa cruz to see the REDWOOD park ..
its really nice.. coolin and fresh .. its abt an hr ride from the hotel ..
the trees there are really old ..
goin by the thousands..
i have to wear my sweater when walkin along the trail .. i wonder how ppl can jog in shorts and singlets..
hai hai
low tolerance to the cold .. but its alright ..
wun get to layer myself when back ..
then we went to this santa cruz restaurant .. MALABAR .. to have dinner .. its vegeterian.. BUT it doesnt taste like it ..
it was even better than the dinner from yesterday ..
the taste and sauces really interestin ..
interestin combi ..
and lots of weird names.. hahaha
i am gonna miss this place ..
will do last min shoppin again ..
sis had a long list for me to buy
oh and i love shoppin here !!
the sizes and lengths are good for me..
the t shirts in spore are always so short..
above my jeans ..
and the mall is HUGE ..
haven finish walkin thru the whole mall yet .. after 2 days..
maybe tats why it is called the GREAT MALL ..
wait for my pics woh ~
i'll be comin home soon ..
must still miss me yea~
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
its morning 816 here .. just had breakfast and waitin got the transport to the trainin area...
although its the third day .. i'm still sufferin from serious jet lag...
my body clock still not adjusted ..
afternoon i'll be damn tired but night time i cant sleep well..
been wakin up at several intervals.. damn ..
how to survive the rest of the week ?
hmm
there's ten of us .. 6 in my class
all americans and 1 from aussie .. me the only asian hahahhah
the ppl here are friendly some brought their families
most are locals there's an australian ...
hmm mostly guys so did not really grp up with them ..
maybe shall suggest formin a bigger grp to go sightseein...
the only place i've been to is the mall beside the hotel
oh did i say i love shoppin here?
hhahahaha
there's
aber
american eagle
gap
old navy
guess
nike
aeropostale
and others
heh..
and i finally bought my black leather GUESS bag
the palm beach series .. if u scroll back to one of my old post...
its very worth it ...
have to force myself to sleep at night haiz
and lack of sleep is givin me headaches ..
i hope i dun have to restort to usin sleepin pills
miserable not able to sleep when i am so damn tired...
although its the third day .. i'm still sufferin from serious jet lag...
my body clock still not adjusted ..
afternoon i'll be damn tired but night time i cant sleep well..
been wakin up at several intervals.. damn ..
how to survive the rest of the week ?
hmm
there's ten of us .. 6 in my class
all americans and 1 from aussie .. me the only asian hahahhah
the ppl here are friendly some brought their families
most are locals there's an australian ...
hmm mostly guys so did not really grp up with them ..
maybe shall suggest formin a bigger grp to go sightseein...
the only place i've been to is the mall beside the hotel
oh did i say i love shoppin here?
hhahahaha
there's
aber
american eagle
gap
old navy
guess
nike
aeropostale
and others
heh..
and i finally bought my black leather GUESS bag
the palm beach series .. if u scroll back to one of my old post...
its very worth it ...
have to force myself to sleep at night haiz
and lack of sleep is givin me headaches ..
i hope i dun have to restort to usin sleepin pills
miserable not able to sleep when i am so damn tired...
Monday, May 15, 2006
good evening!!
its had been a beautiful day
i survived the 18 hrs flight .. got 3 hrs of sleep
got a stiff back
my car pickup was late by an hr ..
BUT i survived all (for now) and now bloggin using the hotel's com ..
heh ..
reached here alone .. feelin abit panicky now thinkin of where to go for dinner
hmm..
oh for most of my flight time ..
watched
memoirs of a geisha
Underworld Evolution 2
listen to whole albums of
countless times of jason mraz
Larc Awake
James Blunt
U2- how to dismantle an atomic bomb
i cant seem to call back home
BUT u can call me or msg me ..
ehm .. but its at 50cents per min
so .. dun waste hahahah
its had been a beautiful day
i survived the 18 hrs flight .. got 3 hrs of sleep
got a stiff back
my car pickup was late by an hr ..
BUT i survived all (for now) and now bloggin using the hotel's com ..
heh ..
reached here alone .. feelin abit panicky now thinkin of where to go for dinner
hmm..
oh for most of my flight time ..
watched
memoirs of a geisha
Underworld Evolution 2
listen to whole albums of
countless times of jason mraz
Larc Awake
James Blunt
U2- how to dismantle an atomic bomb
i cant seem to call back home
BUT u can call me or msg me ..
ehm .. but its at 50cents per min
so .. dun waste hahahah
Sunday, May 14, 2006
wonder why i cant seem to sleep ..
was in bed at 12 but still ... now i am sittin in front of the com ..thinkin wat i should do next ..
oh had an early Mother's day celebration
bought this for MUM issit it cute ?
its angie choice durian cake ..
my mum..
the joker
the multi-tasker
my pillar of strength
my gossip buddy
my encouragement
my moral mentor
my authoritian
my unpaid secretary
my food hunt kaki
my unpaid maid >.<
my everything
......................
i should be leavin the house at 615 reach 7 then be in the sky by 10
^^
and ... its 18 hrs flight ~!! argh
again ..
went europe durin sec sch took 19 hrs flight
i wonder how to survive the trip
excited .. worried
anticipation
i know its only a week
but then i will still miss alot of ppl
bye bye guys .. see whether can blog over there heh i'll update u guys again ..
must miss me k?
was in bed at 12 but still ... now i am sittin in front of the com ..thinkin wat i should do next ..
oh had an early Mother's day celebration
bought this for MUM issit it cute ?
its angie choice durian cake ..
my mum..
the joker
the multi-tasker
my pillar of strength
my gossip buddy
my encouragement
my moral mentor
my authoritian
my unpaid secretary
my food hunt kaki
my unpaid maid >.<
my everything
......................
i should be leavin the house at 615 reach 7 then be in the sky by 10
^^
and ... its 18 hrs flight ~!! argh
again ..
went europe durin sec sch took 19 hrs flight
i wonder how to survive the trip
excited .. worried
anticipation
i know its only a week
but then i will still miss alot of ppl
bye bye guys .. see whether can blog over there heh i'll update u guys again ..
must miss me k?
Friday, May 12, 2006
hee went out my fren last night and ate and SIAM KITCHEN
not bad woh just that the service abit slow
maybe cause there was a big grp eatin there so
we ordered tom yam soup and beef noodles and chicken wings !
highly reco the chicken wings heh
lemongrass chicken wings
and then we went coffee and MAC CAFE
for two iced mocha
talked abt alot of things
laugh hysterically until the auntie beside us were givin us the "look"
and i saw this cat this mornin
look like the white tiger i saw in the zoo..
not bad woh just that the service abit slow
maybe cause there was a big grp eatin there so
we ordered tom yam soup and beef noodles and chicken wings !
highly reco the chicken wings heh
lemongrass chicken wings
and then we went coffee and MAC CAFE
for two iced mocha
talked abt alot of things
laugh hysterically until the auntie beside us were givin us the "look"
and i saw this cat this mornin
look like the white tiger i saw in the zoo..
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
my guy .. not as bad as i made up to be .. maybe i was frustrated and angry .. in a fit of anger say so many things abt him
my guy .. isnt expressive with words ... but he showed with actions ..
he's caring .. alot .. and he takes care of me .. totally hahah
although for now i tink i do most of the caring ..
hmm.. he's devoted and lovin heh sticky to me too ..
hai hai
my guy .. isnt expressive with words ... but he showed with actions ..
he's caring .. alot .. and he takes care of me .. totally hahah
although for now i tink i do most of the caring ..
hmm.. he's devoted and lovin heh sticky to me too ..
hai hai
| You Are a Fierce Femme |
 You have a wild side, and you aren't afraid to bring it out when the time is right. But you also know when to hang back and keep your "crazy chick" persona in check. In fact, some of your friends may be surprised to find out how far you can take it... You may look mild mannered, but it's all an act! |
am i such a wild person to u ? heh
i am mostly mild mannered i tink
| Your Power Color Is Gold |
 You're dependable and hard working. You never miss a deadline - and you're never late. You have a clear sense of right and wrong. You're very detail oriented. You get frustrated when your friends are sloppy - or when they don't follow through. You're on top of things, and you wish that everyone else was! |
hmm.. i wun get frustrated wat ... i will push everyone to work towards the goal though..those who work with me before will know
right lionel?
not tat aloof hahahah
Liberia sex-for-aid 'widespread'
a friend brought to my attention abt this piece of news..
so disheartenin to read abt it .. the "peace-keepers", UN aid workers and even businessmen are exploitin the ppl in dire needs
askin for sexual favours in exchange with food, first aid etc..
they are not doin wat they preach .. gals as young as 5 -8 are being raped .. willingly as they deem it as a method of survival ..
survival is such a strong word..
really makes me depressed to read such articles ..
for more info ..
taken form BBC
.........................
Liberia sex-for-aid 'widespread'
Young girls are the most vulnerable
Young girls in Liberia are still being sexually exploited by aid workers and peacekeepers despite pledges to stamp out such abuse, Save the Children says.
Girls as young as eight are being forced to have sex in exchange for food by workers for local and international agencies, according to its report.
The agency says such abuse is continuing as people displaced by the civil war return to their villages.
The UN in Liberia said it would investigate specific allegations.
The United Nations promised to put safeguards in place after sexual abuse in the refugee camps of West Africa was first revealed four years ago.
But a study by Save the Children, which involved speaking to more than 300 people in camps for people displaced by the war, found that abuse was still widespread.
The report said that all of the respondents clearly stated that more than half of the girls in their locations were affected.
Girls from the age of eight to 18 years were being sold for sex, "commonly referred to as 'man business'," the report noted.
'Clear priority'
One 20-year-old woman told the BBC that she had been forced to have sex with a worker for the World Food Programme (WFP).
"This young man had been doing it to most of my friends. And the children too don't have strong minds. They will have sex with him to get the food," Konah Brown said.
The image of UN peacekeepers in West Africa has suffered
But government officials and teachers are also contributing to the abuse, Save the Children says.
Teachers have demanded sex in lieu of school fees, or even just to give good grades, the report found.
"This cannot continue. It must be tackled," said Jasmine Whitbread, Save the Children's UK Chief Executive.
"Men who use positions of power to take advantage of vulnerable children must be reported and fired.
"More must be done to support children and their families to make a living without turning to this kind of desperation."
The WFP's Greg Barrow said the organisation would be taking the latest allegations with "the greatest seriousness" and was already taking steps to investigate them.
"The key here is to find what link in this chain of delivering food, and getting it to the people who need it, is perhaps abusing this position," he told the BBC.
The UN's Humanitarian Co-ordinator in Liberia, Jordan Ryan, also said specific allegations would be investigated.
"Unfortunately not all international NGOs have taken it seriously. But it is a clear priority," he said.
"We have never done enough until there's a zero case load. Has enough been done? Not yet. Are we working on it? You bet we are."
a friend brought to my attention abt this piece of news..
so disheartenin to read abt it .. the "peace-keepers", UN aid workers and even businessmen are exploitin the ppl in dire needs
askin for sexual favours in exchange with food, first aid etc..
they are not doin wat they preach .. gals as young as 5 -8 are being raped .. willingly as they deem it as a method of survival ..
survival is such a strong word..
really makes me depressed to read such articles ..
for more info ..
taken form BBC
.........................
Liberia sex-for-aid 'widespread'
Young girls are the most vulnerable
Young girls in Liberia are still being sexually exploited by aid workers and peacekeepers despite pledges to stamp out such abuse, Save the Children says.
Girls as young as eight are being forced to have sex in exchange for food by workers for local and international agencies, according to its report.
The agency says such abuse is continuing as people displaced by the civil war return to their villages.
The UN in Liberia said it would investigate specific allegations.
The United Nations promised to put safeguards in place after sexual abuse in the refugee camps of West Africa was first revealed four years ago.
But a study by Save the Children, which involved speaking to more than 300 people in camps for people displaced by the war, found that abuse was still widespread.
The report said that all of the respondents clearly stated that more than half of the girls in their locations were affected.
Girls from the age of eight to 18 years were being sold for sex, "commonly referred to as 'man business'," the report noted.
'Clear priority'
One 20-year-old woman told the BBC that she had been forced to have sex with a worker for the World Food Programme (WFP).
"This young man had been doing it to most of my friends. And the children too don't have strong minds. They will have sex with him to get the food," Konah Brown said.
The image of UN peacekeepers in West Africa has suffered
But government officials and teachers are also contributing to the abuse, Save the Children says.
Teachers have demanded sex in lieu of school fees, or even just to give good grades, the report found.
"This cannot continue. It must be tackled," said Jasmine Whitbread, Save the Children's UK Chief Executive.
"Men who use positions of power to take advantage of vulnerable children must be reported and fired.
"More must be done to support children and their families to make a living without turning to this kind of desperation."
The WFP's Greg Barrow said the organisation would be taking the latest allegations with "the greatest seriousness" and was already taking steps to investigate them.
"The key here is to find what link in this chain of delivering food, and getting it to the people who need it, is perhaps abusing this position," he told the BBC.
The UN's Humanitarian Co-ordinator in Liberia, Jordan Ryan, also said specific allegations would be investigated.
"Unfortunately not all international NGOs have taken it seriously. But it is a clear priority," he said.
"We have never done enough until there's a zero case load. Has enough been done? Not yet. Are we working on it? You bet we are."
fell asleep at 9 then woke up at 1am
feelin bloody warm and perspirin .. somethin wrong with the aircon again ..and feelin wide awake ..sigh..
there's no one out here to accompany me..
been thinkin ..again .. abt his words
i tot i understand him but he always say i dun
he always say i am selfish in thinking...always never put him in consideration ..
do i ?
i always place him first .. as though my world revolves around him.. till the extend mum and close friends were complainin so i learned to let go a little.. bit by bit..
he doesnt take it .. he kinda not used to it ..
he wants the whole piece of me ..
should i feel happy abt it ?
tat he's so devoted ?
he toned down alot for me .. changed his bad habits ...
but still that possessiveness streak is alive and kickin..
he said this before
"care and control comes together"
its a drastic change for me
i tink i changed alot for him too
i was so carefree and independent with my ex
my ex trust me
gave me the freedom i wan .. even till the extend i was ponderin " does he even care?"
he let me go out with whoever i wan .. whenever i wan
i just need to inform him .. and be home before midnight
regardless grp or one-one outings.. and yar .. with guy alone .
his theory " if she belongs to u, even when u let her out she will still come back to u "
well well .. tat's the past.. no pt keep referrin right ? hahah
mind too jumbled up
with the recent incidents tat happened.. he is the one who will give up first while i am the one tryin to revert it ..
he will always be the one to say "lost all trust", " u are not the same anymore" and yar ...even "breakup"..
he can say such things so easily makes me wonder the extend of his stronghold in this relationship
once a relationship is broken .. i dun believe in patchin back already .. it wun be the same anymore ... it's with flaws and rough edges .. and if not careful, u will be cut easily again .
i dun think i have changed .. and i am defiant abt it ..
i am just exposin the real me .. the one who likes hangin out ..the outspoken one..
he doesnt like me to talk too much .. and always say i talk too loud..
he should know i am like tat from the beginnin why complain abt my traits now
i think i can talk quite well .. converse with his friends or just create some small intelligent talk..
i dun think i disgraced him before
but why he aint proud of tat aspect of me?
i made the effort to know his friends
he doesnt
makes me wonder.. wat's left for me to hold on?
his devotion?
my stubborness?
the time spent together..?
been solemn this week
dun feel like talkin
except to those who knows my situation
its kinda complicated ..
absence makes the heart ponder .. and will make me realise how much i wan him
his absence makes the heart fonder .. but i am not certain what will happen when he's back
maybe i try pickin up my feelins and see where it leads me to
sometimes i wonder why there are so many probs surfacin now?
friends will say "accumulative pent-up frustrations"
issit really the case? or i am bein too greedy
sigh..
he's still in taiwan field trainin
i need some comforting
i think i am lamentin too much abt him here
hahahahah
but well well
he doesnt read it
and i think i function better with written words..
feelin bloody warm and perspirin .. somethin wrong with the aircon again ..and feelin wide awake ..sigh..
there's no one out here to accompany me..
been thinkin ..again .. abt his words
i tot i understand him but he always say i dun
he always say i am selfish in thinking...always never put him in consideration ..
do i ?
i always place him first .. as though my world revolves around him.. till the extend mum and close friends were complainin so i learned to let go a little.. bit by bit..
he doesnt take it .. he kinda not used to it ..
he wants the whole piece of me ..
should i feel happy abt it ?
tat he's so devoted ?
he toned down alot for me .. changed his bad habits ...
but still that possessiveness streak is alive and kickin..
he said this before
"care and control comes together"
its a drastic change for me
i tink i changed alot for him too
i was so carefree and independent with my ex
my ex trust me
gave me the freedom i wan .. even till the extend i was ponderin " does he even care?"
he let me go out with whoever i wan .. whenever i wan
i just need to inform him .. and be home before midnight
regardless grp or one-one outings.. and yar .. with guy alone .
his theory " if she belongs to u, even when u let her out she will still come back to u "
well well .. tat's the past.. no pt keep referrin right ? hahah
mind too jumbled up
with the recent incidents tat happened.. he is the one who will give up first while i am the one tryin to revert it ..
he will always be the one to say "lost all trust", " u are not the same anymore" and yar ...even "breakup"..
he can say such things so easily makes me wonder the extend of his stronghold in this relationship
once a relationship is broken .. i dun believe in patchin back already .. it wun be the same anymore ... it's with flaws and rough edges .. and if not careful, u will be cut easily again .
i dun think i have changed .. and i am defiant abt it ..
i am just exposin the real me .. the one who likes hangin out ..the outspoken one..
he doesnt like me to talk too much .. and always say i talk too loud..
he should know i am like tat from the beginnin why complain abt my traits now
i think i can talk quite well .. converse with his friends or just create some small intelligent talk..
i dun think i disgraced him before
but why he aint proud of tat aspect of me?
i made the effort to know his friends
he doesnt
makes me wonder.. wat's left for me to hold on?
his devotion?
my stubborness?
the time spent together..?
been solemn this week
dun feel like talkin
except to those who knows my situation
its kinda complicated ..
absence makes the heart ponder .. and will make me realise how much i wan him
his absence makes the heart fonder .. but i am not certain what will happen when he's back
maybe i try pickin up my feelins and see where it leads me to
sometimes i wonder why there are so many probs surfacin now?
friends will say "accumulative pent-up frustrations"
issit really the case? or i am bein too greedy
sigh..
he's still in taiwan field trainin
i need some comforting
i think i am lamentin too much abt him here
hahahahah
but well well
he doesnt read it
and i think i function better with written words..
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
was readin the papers this mornin when i came upon this article
interestin info.. investigation by teens to find out if teens can check into hotels, buy beer and attend adult-only nightclub
mockery of under-age laws..
today's article abt SEX
UPWARD TREND:CASES INVOLVIN SEX WITH MINORS ON THE RISE.. LAST YR WAS 183
u must be really naive to belive tat teens nowsdays know nothin abt sex or wun try to experiment with it .. i tink with newer generations their knowledge of such topics surpass the older ones
the reporter polled those two grps
"non-sexually active"
"sexually active"
most under 16s are happy to abstain.. due to moral obligations..
then those who do not
"flippant, misinformed" abt the laws.. thinkin they will never be caught ..
curiousity? oversurge of hormones? pressure?
most are aware of the laws but they chose to ignore it ..
i was thinkin .. if cannot abstain at least protect ..
and they DID NOT EVEN DO TAT
not bothered to, "no time", waste money
i am shocked by some of the stuff the ppl polled said
" as long as the guy ejaculated outside the gal its safe"
"after the deed, just go toilet, urinate to force everythin out"
WAT THE HELL
where got such logic
they know wats SEX, how to do it
but they KNOW NUTS abt the consequences..
tats why i said before
the authorities cannot be only one-sided in teachin teens abt such thing
its no use teachin abt abstience as the more its deem forbidden or taboo the more the teens will try to experiment
its human nature to be curious..
and teens nowadays are havin more of a mind on their own ..
its too difficult to rein in wayward teens now.. they will try to challenge authority .. or defy it on purpose
so second best option is to teach more abt safe sex..
maybe have videos like those of abortions.. show the penalty of havin underage sex.. etc
must instill fear in them ..
and the environment is not helpin ..
like the hotels the reporters went to ..
they can just check in with one "legal aged" adult
hmm even if they cant check it
there's always alternatives like a partner's house, staircase, public toilets..
wow.. hmm adventurous i must say ..
again
THE MAX JAIL SENTENCE FOR A MALE WHO HAS SEX WITH AN UNDERAGED FEMALE IS A JAIL TERM FOR UP TO 5 YRS AND A FINE OF UP TO $10000
why go for xiao mei mei in the first place ?
LOL
interestin info.. investigation by teens to find out if teens can check into hotels, buy beer and attend adult-only nightclub
mockery of under-age laws..
today's article abt SEX
UPWARD TREND:CASES INVOLVIN SEX WITH MINORS ON THE RISE.. LAST YR WAS 183
u must be really naive to belive tat teens nowsdays know nothin abt sex or wun try to experiment with it .. i tink with newer generations their knowledge of such topics surpass the older ones
the reporter polled those two grps
"non-sexually active"
"sexually active"
most under 16s are happy to abstain.. due to moral obligations..
then those who do not
"flippant, misinformed" abt the laws.. thinkin they will never be caught ..
curiousity? oversurge of hormones? pressure?
most are aware of the laws but they chose to ignore it ..
i was thinkin .. if cannot abstain at least protect ..
and they DID NOT EVEN DO TAT
not bothered to, "no time", waste money
i am shocked by some of the stuff the ppl polled said
" as long as the guy ejaculated outside the gal its safe"
"after the deed, just go toilet, urinate to force everythin out"
WAT THE HELL
where got such logic
they know wats SEX, how to do it
but they KNOW NUTS abt the consequences..
tats why i said before
the authorities cannot be only one-sided in teachin teens abt such thing
its no use teachin abt abstience as the more its deem forbidden or taboo the more the teens will try to experiment
its human nature to be curious..
and teens nowadays are havin more of a mind on their own ..
its too difficult to rein in wayward teens now.. they will try to challenge authority .. or defy it on purpose
so second best option is to teach more abt safe sex..
maybe have videos like those of abortions.. show the penalty of havin underage sex.. etc
must instill fear in them ..
and the environment is not helpin ..
like the hotels the reporters went to ..
they can just check in with one "legal aged" adult
hmm even if they cant check it
there's always alternatives like a partner's house, staircase, public toilets..
wow.. hmm adventurous i must say ..
again
THE MAX JAIL SENTENCE FOR A MALE WHO HAS SEX WITH AN UNDERAGED FEMALE IS A JAIL TERM FOR UP TO 5 YRS AND A FINE OF UP TO $10000
why go for xiao mei mei in the first place ?
LOL
Monday, May 08, 2006
retail therapy never fails to perk me up from my sombre mood
i love earrings.. they are the only accessories that i will wear everyday ..
used to like wearin silver or metallic earrings
but now dun have interest in it anymore.. too common.. too "young" i find
i prefer somethin more exotic now heh
latest pair of leather heels
heh
metallic copper .. and 2 inches
i like feelin tall hahahha
i love earrings.. they are the only accessories that i will wear everyday ..
used to like wearin silver or metallic earrings
but now dun have interest in it anymore.. too common.. too "young" i find
i prefer somethin more exotic now heh
latest pair of leather heels
heh
metallic copper .. and 2 inches
i like feelin tall hahahha
.. makes me think..
alot ..
wonderin wat should be my next step
my decision ..
i do not know wat i wan anymore
wat i desire anymore ..
its like a blur these few weeks
i cant always pretend the probs are not there..
if it surfaced before
it will surface again
i cant always face it with a smilin face
its too tiring..
to hate and to forgive and the cycle starts again
am i too ambitious? too greedy?
.. i wan the best
but is it for me to decide?
time..will tell ..i hope
................
on another note, my parents are more panicky than me abt the trip..
mum forbade me to go out this week, to rest more, get the essentials and pack my stuff..
she keep sayin "you're weak.. must rest more .."
hai hai .. i admit i tire easily another reason for me sleepin so damn early ...
well she's just worried i get sick over there and there's no one to take care of me ask me eat med or make sure i get enough rest
dad's also givin me so many instructions esp when passin thru customs or when over there dun follow strangers etc hahah scared i get lost there... hai hai
i travelled before .. no worries... although its my first time ALONE now ..
should be alright .. maybe make me more independent after this?
alot ..
wonderin wat should be my next step
my decision ..
i do not know wat i wan anymore
wat i desire anymore ..
its like a blur these few weeks
i cant always pretend the probs are not there..
if it surfaced before
it will surface again
i cant always face it with a smilin face
its too tiring..
to hate and to forgive and the cycle starts again
am i too ambitious? too greedy?
.. i wan the best
but is it for me to decide?
time..will tell ..i hope
................
on another note, my parents are more panicky than me abt the trip..
mum forbade me to go out this week, to rest more, get the essentials and pack my stuff..
she keep sayin "you're weak.. must rest more .."
hai hai .. i admit i tire easily another reason for me sleepin so damn early ...
well she's just worried i get sick over there and there's no one to take care of me ask me eat med or make sure i get enough rest
dad's also givin me so many instructions esp when passin thru customs or when over there dun follow strangers etc hahah scared i get lost there... hai hai
i travelled before .. no worries... although its my first time ALONE now ..
should be alright .. maybe make me more independent after this?
Sunday, May 07, 2006
took family to Marina Square for early Mother's day celebration cause i wun be here next sun ..
went CAFE CARTEL .. one of the best places for ribs.. beside TONY RAMA's ..
heh .. it feels good to be eatin good food .. nvm abt the money spent
it gives me great satisfaction to see my family enjoyin themselves..
esp my mum .. a foodie like me ..
the couple..
heh.. rara opportunity ..dad seldom with us on our food hunt .. luckily sat was a PH .. and my place no need to vote ..
i always tell ppl
jurong no one wans .. no need to contest and thus no polling ..
its old residential.. plus a lot of industries..
cute anot? she purposely cut her fringe short like mine hahahha
there's the St louis ribs
grilled chicken
sirlion steak
seafood pasta
and finally me
HIGHLY RECOMMEND
THE ST LOUIS RIBS
then at night went AMK to try BOTAK JONES..
its American Food at a coffeeshop
u'll be amazed .. there's two stalls.. quite a no. of helpers in uniforms..
the portion really big and good.. true american style .. and its really meat..
the double patty burger..
u have to use a fork and knife to eat it .. too big to stuff it in your mouth..
mine .. ehm.. too much onion though although the guys seem to love it ..
and that's the food pics of the week ~~
ehm.. how to lose weight like tat ? LOL
went CAFE CARTEL .. one of the best places for ribs.. beside TONY RAMA's ..
heh .. it feels good to be eatin good food .. nvm abt the money spent
it gives me great satisfaction to see my family enjoyin themselves..
esp my mum .. a foodie like me ..
the couple..
heh.. rara opportunity ..dad seldom with us on our food hunt .. luckily sat was a PH .. and my place no need to vote ..
i always tell ppl
jurong no one wans .. no need to contest and thus no polling ..
its old residential.. plus a lot of industries..
cute anot? she purposely cut her fringe short like mine hahahha
there's the St louis ribs
grilled chicken
sirlion steak
seafood pasta
and finally me
HIGHLY RECOMMEND
THE ST LOUIS RIBS
then at night went AMK to try BOTAK JONES..
its American Food at a coffeeshop
u'll be amazed .. there's two stalls.. quite a no. of helpers in uniforms..
the portion really big and good.. true american style .. and its really meat..
the double patty burger..
u have to use a fork and knife to eat it .. too big to stuff it in your mouth..
mine .. ehm.. too much onion though although the guys seem to love it ..
and that's the food pics of the week ~~
ehm.. how to lose weight like tat ? LOL
started alright till at night dinner
he called
he asked who i am with .. i said 4 guys
then he asked for the names
i was "huh but u dun know them.."
anyway i just said their names ...
then talked awhile
then he keep msgin me .. abt him feelin miserable.. not payin enough attention to him
keep avoidin.. sayin friends more impt issit ..
i dunno wat to say to him ..
i NEVER neglect him or his msgs..
i feel embarassed to be typin on my hp so often in front of my friends
they were like "so busy ah"
but he doesnt understand..
he say he lost everything..
i say he had not
then this mornin still sleepin he say i dun wan to pick up his calls ..or reply his msgs..
he say he lost all trust in me ..
i'm still cluessless over wat matter ..
he say its up to me whether i still wan to continue anot ..
i dunno abt tat already ......
i dunno how to pull myself up already
was just thrown in a bottomless pit ..
his assumptions.. i dunno wat its based on .. insecurities? mistrust ? or he aint bothered with me now ..
its only a week since he's in taiwan ..
i dunno how it will turn out already ..
he's goin field camp 9 days .. no contact ..
maybe its a good coolin off period
to re evaluate this whole thing .. he made it sound i'm at fault while he's there sufferin or the one holdin this relationship up while i am havin fun ..
i tried my best to comfort him, encourage him already .. i do not know any other methods already ..
now he tell me to cheer up and hope i feel better ..
there's a glimmer of hope .. for now
hopefully its just a moment of frustration tat he said such things..
i am still holdin on..
i am amazed by my own stubborness and persistence too as ppl around me cant seem to stand him ..
suddenly tot of a song...
I WILL SURVIVE.. world still goes on revolvin .. i still have my life ..
i still have the trip ahead ..
hmm.. anyone wanna come fetch me when i come back? i'll give u more details..
feels better to have ppl around me..
he called
he asked who i am with .. i said 4 guys
then he asked for the names
i was "huh but u dun know them.."
anyway i just said their names ...
then talked awhile
then he keep msgin me .. abt him feelin miserable.. not payin enough attention to him
keep avoidin.. sayin friends more impt issit ..
i dunno wat to say to him ..
i NEVER neglect him or his msgs..
i feel embarassed to be typin on my hp so often in front of my friends
they were like "so busy ah"
but he doesnt understand..
he say he lost everything..
i say he had not
then this mornin still sleepin he say i dun wan to pick up his calls ..or reply his msgs..
he say he lost all trust in me ..
i'm still cluessless over wat matter ..
he say its up to me whether i still wan to continue anot ..
i dunno abt tat already ......
i dunno how to pull myself up already
was just thrown in a bottomless pit ..
his assumptions.. i dunno wat its based on .. insecurities? mistrust ? or he aint bothered with me now ..
its only a week since he's in taiwan ..
i dunno how it will turn out already ..
he's goin field camp 9 days .. no contact ..
maybe its a good coolin off period
to re evaluate this whole thing .. he made it sound i'm at fault while he's there sufferin or the one holdin this relationship up while i am havin fun ..
i tried my best to comfort him, encourage him already .. i do not know any other methods already ..
now he tell me to cheer up and hope i feel better ..
there's a glimmer of hope .. for now
hopefully its just a moment of frustration tat he said such things..
i am still holdin on..
i am amazed by my own stubborness and persistence too as ppl around me cant seem to stand him ..
suddenly tot of a song...
I WILL SURVIVE.. world still goes on revolvin .. i still have my life ..
i still have the trip ahead ..
hmm.. anyone wanna come fetch me when i come back? i'll give u more details..
feels better to have ppl around me..
Saturday, May 06, 2006
i think i am calm by nature ..unless somethin really big pissed me off if not if i can bear with it i will .. close one ear .. pretend .. endure.. watever to appease the situation .. hope the matter die down ..
BUT if someone really pissed me off..
i am no more a calm wind
FEEL MY FURY
fuck ..
again such a post
maybe i shant delete after it let all to see ..
i have been too kind.. been deletin posts abt him after i vented my frustrations..
BUT THIS MORNING really make me unleash a typhoon..
ITS NOT MY BLOODY FAULT THAT U CANT RECEIVE MY MSGS
I SENT SO MANY TO U ..
I RECEIVED YOURS THOUGH .. TOLD U WAN TO CHANGE HP ALREADY
YOUR HP SOMETIMES WENT NUTS CANT RECEIVE SEE WAT I MEAN ?
IF NOT ITS THE BLOODY RECEPTION OR NETWORK OVER AT YOUR PLACE TAT U CANT RECEIVE ..
WAT ARE U TRYIN TO SAY
NO MSG= NO CONCERN NOT WORRIED NOT WATEVER ..
I SENT SO MANY MSGS OVER ALREAYD AH
THEN I SAID I AM GOIN OUT
HP LOW BATT.. MIGHT NOT MSG
I REACHED HOME FORGOT TO CHARGE MY HP
THEN I SLEPT
THEN U BLOODY HELL CALLED ME IN THE MORNIN TO CHIDE ME OFF..
SAYIN THINGS LIKE
"WHY U SWITCH OFF YOUR HP ... " DEN KEEP REPEATIN THE SENTENCE OVER AND OVER AGAIN..
I TOLD U FLAT WAT ..
THEN U JUST CUT MY PHONE..
THEN U MSG ME STUFF TAT U WAN TO TELL ME ABT YOUR STUFF
I SAID OK JUST SEND ME MSGS OR SOMETHIN..
THEN U KEEP GOIN ON AND ON .. ABT ME FINDIN SOMEONE NEW .. ME NOT CONCERNED AND ME NOT LOVIN U ANYMORE ..
FUCK CAN U DUN ASSUME ANOT ?
ITS JUST BECAUSE U CANT GET THRU ME THEN ASSUME SO MUCH THINGS
I BLOODY TIRED LISTEN TO YOUR NONSENSE
U DUN CARE HOW I FEEL OVER HERE
U SEEM TO THINK FOR YOURSELF ONLY
ABT U BEING TIRED OVER THERE .. STRESS .. ABT ALL THE DANGEROUS STUFF U DO
I TRIED TO SUPPORT U MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY, ALL THE TIME GIVE ENCOURAGMENT ..
BUT I CANT DO MUCH ABT IT ...
MY FRIENDS ALSO WENT THRU TAT WAT
STOP WIMPING
I SAID U ARE NOT THINKIN ABT ME OVER HERE .. NOT PUTTIN MY FEELINS INTO CONSIDERATION ..
EVERYTHIN IS U AND MORE U
U SPARED A TOT FOR ME ANOT
WHEN U BLOODY SAY THOSE THINGS TO ME..
I FUCK CARE WHETHER U MEAN IT ANOT
SAY MEANS SAY ALREADY ..
IT HURTS ALL THE SAME
USE YOUR BLOODY HEAD AND THINK LAR
I HAVE MY EGO AND PRIDE ..
I DUNNO IF I CAN CONTINUE BEING THE "PERFECT GF" ANOT
I DUN NEED U TO MAINTAIN ME, I DUN NEED U TO DRIVE ME AROUND, I CAN VERY WELL TAKE CARE OF MYSELF
SINCE WATEVER I DO ALSO CANT SATISFY U ..
I AM NOT SOME GUILLIBLE GF LOR
U CANT GET AWAY WITH IT WITH A WORD OF APOLOGY ..
I WILL MAKE U FEEL REMORSE FOR ALL THE THINGS U SAID ..
CALL ME STUBBORN OR WATEVER..
THIS IS "AN EYE FOR AN EYE"
BUT if someone really pissed me off..
i am no more a calm wind
FEEL MY FURY
fuck ..
again such a post
maybe i shant delete after it let all to see ..
i have been too kind.. been deletin posts abt him after i vented my frustrations..
BUT THIS MORNING really make me unleash a typhoon..
ITS NOT MY BLOODY FAULT THAT U CANT RECEIVE MY MSGS
I SENT SO MANY TO U ..
I RECEIVED YOURS THOUGH .. TOLD U WAN TO CHANGE HP ALREADY
YOUR HP SOMETIMES WENT NUTS CANT RECEIVE SEE WAT I MEAN ?
IF NOT ITS THE BLOODY RECEPTION OR NETWORK OVER AT YOUR PLACE TAT U CANT RECEIVE ..
WAT ARE U TRYIN TO SAY
NO MSG= NO CONCERN NOT WORRIED NOT WATEVER ..
I SENT SO MANY MSGS OVER ALREAYD AH
THEN I SAID I AM GOIN OUT
HP LOW BATT.. MIGHT NOT MSG
I REACHED HOME FORGOT TO CHARGE MY HP
THEN I SLEPT
THEN U BLOODY HELL CALLED ME IN THE MORNIN TO CHIDE ME OFF..
SAYIN THINGS LIKE
"WHY U SWITCH OFF YOUR HP ... " DEN KEEP REPEATIN THE SENTENCE OVER AND OVER AGAIN..
I TOLD U FLAT WAT ..
THEN U JUST CUT MY PHONE..
THEN U MSG ME STUFF TAT U WAN TO TELL ME ABT YOUR STUFF
I SAID OK JUST SEND ME MSGS OR SOMETHIN..
THEN U KEEP GOIN ON AND ON .. ABT ME FINDIN SOMEONE NEW .. ME NOT CONCERNED AND ME NOT LOVIN U ANYMORE ..
FUCK CAN U DUN ASSUME ANOT ?
ITS JUST BECAUSE U CANT GET THRU ME THEN ASSUME SO MUCH THINGS
I BLOODY TIRED LISTEN TO YOUR NONSENSE
U DUN CARE HOW I FEEL OVER HERE
U SEEM TO THINK FOR YOURSELF ONLY
ABT U BEING TIRED OVER THERE .. STRESS .. ABT ALL THE DANGEROUS STUFF U DO
I TRIED TO SUPPORT U MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY, ALL THE TIME GIVE ENCOURAGMENT ..
BUT I CANT DO MUCH ABT IT ...
MY FRIENDS ALSO WENT THRU TAT WAT
STOP WIMPING
I SAID U ARE NOT THINKIN ABT ME OVER HERE .. NOT PUTTIN MY FEELINS INTO CONSIDERATION ..
EVERYTHIN IS U AND MORE U
U SPARED A TOT FOR ME ANOT
WHEN U BLOODY SAY THOSE THINGS TO ME..
I FUCK CARE WHETHER U MEAN IT ANOT
SAY MEANS SAY ALREADY ..
IT HURTS ALL THE SAME
USE YOUR BLOODY HEAD AND THINK LAR
I HAVE MY EGO AND PRIDE ..
I DUNNO IF I CAN CONTINUE BEING THE "PERFECT GF" ANOT
I DUN NEED U TO MAINTAIN ME, I DUN NEED U TO DRIVE ME AROUND, I CAN VERY WELL TAKE CARE OF MYSELF
SINCE WATEVER I DO ALSO CANT SATISFY U ..
I AM NOT SOME GUILLIBLE GF LOR
U CANT GET AWAY WITH IT WITH A WORD OF APOLOGY ..
I WILL MAKE U FEEL REMORSE FOR ALL THE THINGS U SAID ..
CALL ME STUBBORN OR WATEVER..
THIS IS "AN EYE FOR AN EYE"
Friday, May 05, 2006
For blood type O, their diet profile is high protein foods - meat eaters.
Food that help with Weight loss: seafood, salt, liver, red meat, spinach, broccoli.
Food to avoid for Weight loss purpose: wheat, corn, lentils, cabbage, cauliflower.
For blood type A, their dief profile should be more vegetarian style
Food that help with Weight loss: soy foods, vegetables, pineapples
Food to avoid for Weight loss purpose: meat, dairy, kidney beans, lima beans, wheat
For blood type B, their diet profile is balanced omnivore
Food that help with Weight loss: greens, eggs, venison, liver, licorice, tea.
Food to avoid for Weight loss purpose: corn, lentil, peanuts, seeds, buckwheat.
(yeah, for blood type B, they can eat meat, but avoid chicken)
For blood type AB, their diet profile is mixed diet in moderation
Food that help with Weight loss: tofu, seafood, dairy, greens, kelp, pineapple
Food to avoid for Weight loss purpose: red meat, kidney beans, seeds, corn, buckwheat.
wonder if it works..
lackin the motivation to run ..
hmm .. have to need ppl to drag me out to run already ..
or else the next best thing..
diet ..
oh i am AB
universal receiver but a selfish donor
anyway i cant donate blood.. so yar ..
Food that help with Weight loss: seafood, salt, liver, red meat, spinach, broccoli.
Food to avoid for Weight loss purpose: wheat, corn, lentils, cabbage, cauliflower.
For blood type A, their dief profile should be more vegetarian style
Food that help with Weight loss: soy foods, vegetables, pineapples
Food to avoid for Weight loss purpose: meat, dairy, kidney beans, lima beans, wheat
For blood type B, their diet profile is balanced omnivore
Food that help with Weight loss: greens, eggs, venison, liver, licorice, tea.
Food to avoid for Weight loss purpose: corn, lentil, peanuts, seeds, buckwheat.
(yeah, for blood type B, they can eat meat, but avoid chicken)
For blood type AB, their diet profile is mixed diet in moderation
Food that help with Weight loss: tofu, seafood, dairy, greens, kelp, pineapple
Food to avoid for Weight loss purpose: red meat, kidney beans, seeds, corn, buckwheat.
wonder if it works..
lackin the motivation to run ..
hmm .. have to need ppl to drag me out to run already ..
or else the next best thing..
diet ..
oh i am AB
universal receiver but a selfish donor
anyway i cant donate blood.. so yar ..
Thursday, May 04, 2006
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