Friendship can be a form of "useful" love

love-feeling to describe our feelings towards marriage-partners, children, friend, and even foods and pastimes.

by the words of Aristotle

friendship is a kind of love and there are 3 corresponding kinds.
-based on UTILITY
-based on pleasure
-based on themselves.

UTILITY
-where we love people due to their usefulness.

PLEASURE
-where we enjoy the company

PERFECT
-just loving the people for themselves, because we perceive them to be good.

how do YOU see your friendship?

"those who love each other for their utility do not love each other for themselves but in virtue of some good which they can get from each other"

i realise i have a friend just like that.
to make use, get back and getting gains

makes me wonder if i am being used like all her other friends.

i'm incomparable to her "upper class" of friends whom are richer smarter and more accomplished, not like me who has to "ask back for money", who has to be calculative

anyway, i think i've seen enough. though i wanted to see her as she is. to believe that she doesnt think of me this way. but the way she treated others made me hesistant and reconsider.
if she can do to others, i'm just a matter of time once i'm not of any use.

i cant stop her.
i can only distance myself.
till i feel better about it.

anyway she doesnt bother.
she is always out seeking new pastures who are "of top management"

its better to be in the background.