feeling of being alive.

watched HEROES and there's this episode whereby an influential lady shoplifted and her reason for doing so?
"Makes me feel alive"

over lunch, colleagues and i were talking about some of us having exams yet in that way its being "alive"
sure its tough, yet the satisfaction is immense after that.

that sets me thinking..
what makes me feel energetic and alive?
"that's why i have so many hobbies"
i dont think that helps alot.

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the 7pm show also sets me thinking.
the second brother has been doing everything that his family see as "the right things"
fell in love with the gal "they all like and accept"
ask him anything and he will repy,"as you like", "you happy can already"
the wife asked "do you remember when we fall in love?"
"do you remember how we just fell in love like a blur, been together like a blur, then became married like a blur"
and she has been so dependent on the husband for everything. so if he's gone.
what is she?
how does she derive her identity from?

Are you sure you have been doing the things OTHERS "think that should be done"
or YOU "think that should be done"