Alot of things had happened within this week, with or without me knowing, whether i like it or not.
Knowing doesnt make me feel better cause knowing doesnt ease the situation or knowing it yet i'm helpless to ease the burden of the one who said it, and i feel kinda bad

i do hope things get better, and the situations that have been bothering ppl i hold dear.
i do hope that it will not have to resort to third parties intervention.
Cause in the end, only the parties involved can redeem their own actions or untangle the situations they are in.

Myself

must ditch that opinionated side of me, not becoming weak, becoming blendable and it will cause me less mental anguish
cause since i cant change the way how the OTHER party do or say or handle things, i can only suggest and advice or things fail, have to find a way to get around it then
i can only readjust myself
i can only reflect upon my own actions
and i do not have to resent the surroundings i am faced with
cause if resentment rears its ugly head, my emotional side will lead while logical side will take a backseat and it aint be very nice

yet i do not have to resort to wearing masks to face the world
i am still me.
i can still face myself and i still answerable for myself

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gerry will be home alone again tsk tsk
what to do what to do?