The Police - Every Breath You Take

i am so in love with this song..
thanks to jun dear
rekindled my passion for it hahahahah
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maybe i should start listenin to chinese songs or somethin
very outdated and out of touch .. i dun even rememeber when i started listenin eng songs..
so happen MUM likes Class 95 and Perfect 10 so kinda influenced by them
and had an eng speakin ex doesnt help in cultivatin my interest in chinese music

not tat i dun wan to listen to chinese songs..
hmm maybe i am not accomodatin enough..
or else kinda brainwashed

was readin Candy's blog abt her havin a few sons and daughters in AUDITION
reminded me of my past
hmm
have a few brothers.. they called me BIG SIS out of respect and due to me being older i guess

i just remembered my ex used to play this "FAMILY TREE" game
whereby everyone will be link to one another ..
and he's the "GRANDFATHER" and his good friend is the "GRANDMOTHER"

at first i just laugh when he told me tat
its only i met his "FAMILY" then i know how alienated i was and how serious they took it

HIS "WIFE" was GODAMN JEALOUS AND NOT HAPPY to see me appear beside him when he brought me to attend his NEW YEAR's EVE gatherin
at first he contemplated to bring me or not
as he was worried whether he will neglect me or his friends will not accept me
it took him a year to bring me along to meet his friends
i do not know why he's so worried for?
am i such a disgrace?
his ans?
"they knew my ex"
i was so fuckin pissed off
"so what? they thought of me as the third party who broke up your perfect relationship is it"
he kept quiet
I HATE BEIN KEPT IN THE DARK
if i wan a relationship
i will be VERY OPEN ABT IT
i will let mum know
i am quite a mummy's gal
i take her advice seriously

he was right and wrong..
i could talk to everyone BESIDE HIS "WIFE"
she saw me then she turned around and commented to another "family member" in a voice loud enough for me to hear
"i wan to divorce him"
"why?"
"He's havin an affair outside, the mistress came along"

.......

HUH? WAT THE FUCK?

i wasnt even part of his FAMILY TREE GAME
wat right has she to talk like tat?
i let him be
let him do whatever he wanted
and this was what i get

so she ignored me for the whole day.. and i busied myself talkin to others..
my ex wasnt around as he had to attend some ceremony for a few hours..

HA
and a JC STUDENT TO BOOT
i wonder wats her EQ

she's just a friend
and she got so critical of me
and i dun even know her well
i dun even talk to her

then after the whole event
i just told my ex wat i felt
"your friend is in love with you"
simple as tat
cause she got so godamn jealous of me

but i cant ask him to leave her or stop contactin as they had been friends for years.. MUCH MORE LONGER THAN HE KNEW ME

oh well..
rantin abt the "family" thingy
cause i wasnt part of any
and i wouldnt wan to be part of any
i prefer my BROS AND SIS
simple and nice
and "NO STRINGS ATTACHED"
i am glad for all my BROS...
there's 4 and counting..

i am not critisin anyone who's playin it
i just do not like it personally