THE HOST..

abt genetic mutation
the ignored pleas of an ordinary family for help
the inefficiency of the government in listenin to pleas of NORMAL FOLKS
the arrogance of the government
presumption of the government
a tragedy which bonded an ordinary family
a father's love for a child
a child's bravery for another
the MISTAKE due to MISINFORMATION..
tryin to find a CAUSE FOR THE TROUBLE CAUSED
without lookin to THEMSELVES ..
tryin to PIN the BLAME on somethin that doesnt exist..

i am guilty of one of the above
tryin to PIN the BLAME on somethin that doesnt exist..

when somethin bad happen to me .. i always have this thinkin that SOMETHIN MUST HAVE CAUSED IT ..
thus the neverendin search for the cause .. of my unhappiness, my boredom .. my dissatisfaction with alot of things in life..
but in reality its just MEand my thinking
there's a kind of emptiness borin into me ..makin its presence know now and then..
some might say i am lucky to have lots of things in life already .. should be content with the life i have now .. BUT i am not
too simple ..
too predictable..
too ordinary..
i like surprises
i like challenges..
BUT i do not know if i can handle challenges if i really face it
but then again if i never try i will never know
so HIT ME
hahahahah greedy aint i
the problem as u would point out is i am not takin up the challenges
not bein initiative
not challenging myself
not settin enough goals for myself ..
not being ambitious..
..
i will
i'll prove it

he was talkin abt his campmates and how they envy him for havin older gf etc ..
i said "usually gals wun go for younger guys i must be mad to make such a choice"
he was silent
oops
bruised his ego ..

hahah
i must be mad..

now thinkin .. been exposed to more stuff.. gettin greedy..
i will try my best not to pull u down..
and i hope u give me the support i wan to climb higher ...