taken from tyler's post

"emotional unhappiness stem from unhappy thoughts and it stem from emotional need
and it cant be satisfied with material gains.. "

i think sometimes i'm guilty of doin it ..
but then i dun do it often

what i'll do.. if anyone has been followin my blog closely
is that i like to blog abt it

thrash it out using words
and i will delete the entry once i have cooled down ..

the blog is like my personal "digital memory bank"

the rationale behind my action of deleting those "angst-filled" posts is simple
-i do not want to be reminded of the unpleasant episode
-its' over, i'm happy again

same goes for emotions
i think i am quite a pessimistic person
have been pessimistic for a LONG TIME
those pessimistic thoughts will keep circulating in my head .. occupyin alot of brain space..
so i have to let it out ..
"see" what are the "actual" pessimistic thoughts i have
by writing it out, it's like transferring data from a storage to another storage area
and i will feel better after that..

have been too pessimistic for a long time
thinkin about it
its someone's optimism which kinda rubbed onto me
a few actually
they are ever so encouragin and cheerful

like cecilia said
"life should be filled of happiness to the maximum and keep the negative levels to the minimum"

u can FEEL HAPPY
by THINKIN HAPPY

and its just a matter of adjustin
dun dwell on it
instead find out the alternative plans
or just get out
find some ppl
get some fresh air .. talk to ppl

i like to go esplanade to take in the sights and sound
find some buddies
thrash out my thoughts
their cheerfulness will rub onto me
although initially i may sound harsh or fierce
its not that i want to .. my emotions are controllin my speech or words
but then after thrashin it out
i can divert quite fast

heh
familiar?

this way i can feel the pesimissim slowly fadin away

i am not avoidin the problems
i am just settin up another template to deal with the problem

and to my dear JUN
ITS NOT ALWAYS YOUR FAULT ALRIGHT?
dun listen to ppl who always discourage u ..
being realistic is one thing
givin u pessimistic ideas is another thing

u should sieve those pessimistic words out of your head

its not because of U that U cant find the job
its because of circumstances alright?
yours is a specialised job so needs time to find
and u are doin a good job already
ever so hardworkin and willing to upgrade yourself
and u never stop wantin to find a better job environment
must be PROUD of yourself
make yourself feel better

and your friend who said "CHINESE EASIER TO FIND JOB"
one word : NONSENSE
she is just bein fuckin racist

and wat's with the " should be born in malaysia"

my dear
cause malaysia's popluation is like 90% malays thats why it SEEMS malays easier to find jobs
IF U are BORN THERE
u have to vie with other MALAYS for jobs
isnt it the same?

and i think Spore work enviornment is much better
that's why alot of malaysians are comin over to work

the world's not a pleasant place
its UP TO US to make it a pleasant experience

and i will be there to cheer u up
i'll be your smiley face
heh

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and i seldom do ACTUAL shoppin lol
kinda lazy ... and i do not have ibank
it kinda saved my finances LOL
i cant imagine if i have ibank ..
thats it!!to my savings plan