saw this thread in flowerpod

"Is Ur bf In Ns?, how do u all cope wif less meeting ups?"

there are replies like this

"My SO went in last year June. Initially I really can't adapt.. cried almost everyday but luckily it didn't affect my life. Coz not as if I miss him till I can't eat, sleep or study."

"envy those bf can book out everyday..=) i seriously will wait for him.. coz i feel it is worth it.. but i will miss him alot... now if i don see him abt 2 days will miss him alot.. wonder hope i cope when he go NS...but i will be working liao.. so will be busy wif other things... but when married can spend alot time tog liao.. is gd enough i guess=) want to be married so can see him everyday.. if i am not wrong... guys who are married can book out everyday..and lesser job loads.. i heard someone say.. coz the guy can tell his commander or whoever.. he need take care of wife .. haha.. corrrect me if i am wrong"

"yea... feel like getting married lei... although i am pretty young.. but age is not a prob unless i am 16.. ple get married much earlier.. hmm like that he don have to stay in that place.. but how to convince my parents to let me marry... when marry i can also hav freedom liao...want to stay tog wif my SO.. SG law sucks... ple in US volunteers for NS... all the other countries fault.. if they no war.. u guys don need suffer two yrs of torture... and i heard it is easy to die in NS while training coz ur commanders all those are inhuman? correct me if i am wrong. no wonder everyone wants world peace...."

"stupid lor..the commanders there like to torture their men... thats why i so worry for my SO.. cmon la..train so hard for what man,,, useless la... hate NS...gd thing i not a guy...no need go NS...shd just let ple volunteer and make pay extra high sure got ple go one la.. stupid ass
want to see my So everyday or else not happy.. "

i was thinkin .. gettin married cause she can meet him everyday
isnt tat a TOO CHILDISH thinking..
gettin married not because they are prepared to
but because she MUST SEE HIM EVERYDAY, cant LIVE WITHOUT HIM

its only NS wat..
wat happens when he goes out to work?
he cant possible have 24hrs for her..
and what is she to do then? sulk abt it and complain that he shouldnt work?

where is her independence?
she is so RELIANT ON THE GUY

i seriously dun understand

she can actually say she wanna get married young and age is not a prob.

gettin married with wat?
use wat to get married?
still have nothin to their names yet ..
no finances, no housin, no careers

u cant live on a diet of hope
love cannot put bread and butter on the table

maybe to diff ppl
their idea of spendin time is diff..

he's a guy for goodness sake
if he cant handle.. how he cope with difficulties if he should encounter in the future

and my guy is a commander ..
i cant stand the way she ACCUSE THE COMMANDERS.. its not they are psychos or watsoever
its part of procedures..
everyone undergoes the same shit in army ..

i believe in practical love
i dun need to see the person everyday
i believe the heart and mind are more powerful than visual .
u can be with the person but the heart may not be there
u can DUN BE with the person but he's always there..in your mind..

love is a wonderous thing
but it shouldnt hamper your life

"Pop The CHErry"


"ROSE (PINK) - Perfect Happiness, Please Believe Me"


"DIsney dreams"
for my xiao mei

MUSE_INVINCIBLE

Follow through
Make your dreams come true
Don't give up the fight
You will be alright
'Cause there's no one like you in the universe
Don't be afraid
What your mind conceives
You should make a stand
Stand up for what you believe
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible

Do it on your own
It makes no difference to me
What you leave behind
What you choose to be
And whatever they say
Your souls unbreakable

During the struggle
They will pull us down
But please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible
Together we're invincible

During the struggle
They will pull us down
Please, please
Let's use this chance
To turn things around
And tonight
We can truly say
Together we're invincible
Together we're invincible

**************
DO NOT GIVE IN
no matter wat others might say
once u set your heart to do it
do till the end
hang on
the storm will brew down soon ..
believe in yourself
your feelings

if u feel happier followin your feelins than your head
follow it ..
dun deprive yourself

u never know if u never keep tryin

been an interestin night ..
mz and kel came over to play some board games on the suggestions of kel
played GAME OF LIFE..
and MONOPOLY
its a "dog eat dog world" out there LOL

for GAME OF LIFE
i had the job with the least salary BUT had the most expensive house .. is tat hintin anythin to me? that i am overly ambitious? LOL
BUT halfway had a change of luck
"Switch" salary card with kel and my finances increased.. but then i'm the poorest among them at the end LOL

then played monopoly
we are at loggerheads with one another
cause we bought one another's properties LOL
refusin to let anyone build houses and hotels...

its been fun
although i think my mind processor kinda slow last night
shall get more board games to play next time

oh i can get RISK
BATTER OF DOMINATION
anyone interested?
heh

feelin cheery and chirpy and all things optimistic this morning
heh

nothin perks me up with PROPER bus queues and msning with good friends..
by talkin to them perks me up

the ppl at the interchange decided to do somethin abt the snakin queues already i assume
cause i took ten mins to get up the bus ONLY usually its at least double the time
and its 3 buses at once.. so yar
the worse thing to do in the mornin is to wait and wait for the freakin bus

and i got hooked on a new band
MUSE

enjoy one of my favs

Muse - Starlight


parts from the song

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go
If you promised not to fade away
Never fade away

got myself some materials to start on my new hobby
charm jewellery making..

these are the end results


"CHildHood Dream"


"Fairytale"

i have left over charms
if anyone interested ?

comments?

my previous post got erased
damn pissed off ..
i took some time to write that long entry

feelin damn pissed now ..

sat watch LUCKY NUMBER SLEVIN
a triad+assassin kind of show
its R21
but i do not understand why?
its not even violent of bloody enough to me
and there's only one sex scene which i do not think its any big deal

anyway

if u like triad and suspense
WATCH IT

"if u do somethin bad the bad will the done to u
in the least expected way"

luckily he never suggest to watch the snakes or the love wrecked
b-grade and chick flicks
not my type
hahaha i am picky with my shows

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had SUKI SUSHI
with lots of sashimi !

i love my sashimi ~ from diff types of fish to seafood
and even oysters



our plates

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on another note

mum has been "remindin" me to UPGRADE MYSELF
sigh
i dread that
she has been sayin and remind me that
"in the society nowadays, a paper qualification mean more than anythin else"
is tat really the case?
i am feelin damn depressed now

i have a few agendas on hand
-Management deg
-Biotech deg
-ArtsNsocial Sciences

the first two can be acquired part time when i am workin
so its not so tight on finances BUT
Management is gettin too common .. with lots of grads in excess
Bio is too specialised
watever the gov may say abt the biotech sector openin up
loads of bullshit
its for "foreign talents" i believe who have like Masters or PhD under their belt..
there will not be readily availble jobs for the local grads in like 5-10 yrs time

the last one is more for the interest
and its full time
i wouldnt want to depend on my parents if I DO actually study full time

i'm at a fuckin crossroad
sigh
i do not wan to think
but i have to think
SOON ..

its like i see the undergrads in sch

they can have the chance to study
but it seems like some are not makin full use of their place in uni
some are not puttin in the effort, makin full use of the time

i am not bein proud
but at least i can say
i did my best when i decided to go back poly after JC to study
i was abit feelin abit low morale when i had to go back poly after jc
but then i chose this path
i will make the best out of it

and i can say i made the best of it
its not fanatastic results
but at least its all my hard work..

now i have to make up my mind fast
what to study
but then is it WORTHY TO STUDY AT ALL ?
i cant stand ppl who say "can pass can already"
are u really satisfied ?

and another pt

i'm like 24
study 3 yrs
27
finances on hand = NONE cause it will be sucked dry by my studies

fuck
i dun wan to be broke at that age

sigh ..

can i get myself a sponsor ? hahahahhahahahaha

i must be NOT THINKIN STRAIGHT anymore..
pls ignore me

had been doin some catchin up with poly friends..
went out with a grp of 8 last fri for dinner and it was at AZABUSABO, a jap restaurant
the bento sets are good but the main attraction to me are the desserts..
delectable creations of icecream, fruits and red bean paste

but what's the most enjoyable part?
its not the food
its the company i am with ...
the guys came from camp, eunice from uni, jia ting was there too
very sweet gf of ed who made ed looks like a kid lOL (oops!)
she's been takin real good care of ed hahaha
workin professional now

glad tat everyone made the effort to get together
and all thanks to the organiser hahahah although he was half an hr late

too many pics to post so i made a slideshow for the night

taken from tyler's post

"emotional unhappiness stem from unhappy thoughts and it stem from emotional need
and it cant be satisfied with material gains.. "

i think sometimes i'm guilty of doin it ..
but then i dun do it often

what i'll do.. if anyone has been followin my blog closely
is that i like to blog abt it

thrash it out using words
and i will delete the entry once i have cooled down ..

the blog is like my personal "digital memory bank"

the rationale behind my action of deleting those "angst-filled" posts is simple
-i do not want to be reminded of the unpleasant episode
-its' over, i'm happy again

same goes for emotions
i think i am quite a pessimistic person
have been pessimistic for a LONG TIME
those pessimistic thoughts will keep circulating in my head .. occupyin alot of brain space..
so i have to let it out ..
"see" what are the "actual" pessimistic thoughts i have
by writing it out, it's like transferring data from a storage to another storage area
and i will feel better after that..

have been too pessimistic for a long time
thinkin about it
its someone's optimism which kinda rubbed onto me
a few actually
they are ever so encouragin and cheerful

like cecilia said
"life should be filled of happiness to the maximum and keep the negative levels to the minimum"

u can FEEL HAPPY
by THINKIN HAPPY

and its just a matter of adjustin
dun dwell on it
instead find out the alternative plans
or just get out
find some ppl
get some fresh air .. talk to ppl

i like to go esplanade to take in the sights and sound
find some buddies
thrash out my thoughts
their cheerfulness will rub onto me
although initially i may sound harsh or fierce
its not that i want to .. my emotions are controllin my speech or words
but then after thrashin it out
i can divert quite fast

heh
familiar?

this way i can feel the pesimissim slowly fadin away

i am not avoidin the problems
i am just settin up another template to deal with the problem

and to my dear JUN
ITS NOT ALWAYS YOUR FAULT ALRIGHT?
dun listen to ppl who always discourage u ..
being realistic is one thing
givin u pessimistic ideas is another thing

u should sieve those pessimistic words out of your head

its not because of U that U cant find the job
its because of circumstances alright?
yours is a specialised job so needs time to find
and u are doin a good job already
ever so hardworkin and willing to upgrade yourself
and u never stop wantin to find a better job environment
must be PROUD of yourself
make yourself feel better

and your friend who said "CHINESE EASIER TO FIND JOB"
one word : NONSENSE
she is just bein fuckin racist

and wat's with the " should be born in malaysia"

my dear
cause malaysia's popluation is like 90% malays thats why it SEEMS malays easier to find jobs
IF U are BORN THERE
u have to vie with other MALAYS for jobs
isnt it the same?

and i think Spore work enviornment is much better
that's why alot of malaysians are comin over to work

the world's not a pleasant place
its UP TO US to make it a pleasant experience

and i will be there to cheer u up
i'll be your smiley face
heh

*********************


and i seldom do ACTUAL shoppin lol
kinda lazy ... and i do not have ibank
it kinda saved my finances LOL
i cant imagine if i have ibank ..
thats it!!to my savings plan

Bound by emotions

head's spinnin
eyes' squirmin
hands' shaky

i feel i dun have control over myself today
sigh

the machine broke down halfway

havin a bad headache

ignore me if i'm too harsh

just alittle unwell..

who am i kiddin

hmm tryin to be cheerful when i have probs on my own
i just dun wanna let it out ..
i'll be cheerful for u guys to see
cause i dun wanna further damper the mood
just seein u two makes me grin the whole time

i wanna lighten up the mood
i know ..
i should " try harder"
at least i tried..

i am not in your shoes
i wun know
but i try to understand
so ..
i'll be your smiley face for now ..

its gettin depressin
to see my good friends gettin depressed ..
i dun like it ..
but i cant help it..
the only thing i can offer
is my smile
my company
my ears
i'm here

watch "THE BREAKUP"
its not such a bad thing after all
cause its the lessons learned
the experience two ppl went thru
and though there were bumps
at least after the breakup
the two can look at each other
smile and say
"hope to see u again soon"

so today was like this

when i free
i am very free
when i am busy
i am very busy

wats the world comin too ..
felt i'm hardworkin yesterday
stayed till almost 8 .. hahaha i know its very rarely
met jun cause she wanted to pass me some health pdts
heh thanks gal for your concern
i will make myself recover asap ..
cause if i dun create my own limits
who will?

i tink too much inactivity today is really makin my brain incapable of functioning properly

now i rather be busy
when i am busy
i feel i'm of more worth

dun like sittin on my ass the whole day

-brain will collect cobwebs
-middle section will increase in grith
-mind will start to wander
-hands will not control themselves ie online shoppin..

contemplating whether to get digicam for myself ..
any recommendations?

and my head's spinning
sigh .. must be the sudden change in temp....
i am soundin whiny..

i cant wait for fri's class outin and the gals' outin with mz heh

good friends + good food

wat else can u ask for ?

i love his photography skills too ..
esp this ...

taken from kennethwongphotography

for my own admiration ^^ comments on the pic?

OPTIMISM

A clever person turns great troubles into little ones and little ones into none at all. - Chinese proverb

I always try to turn every disaster into an opportunity. - John D. Rockefeller

Drop the three L's. lack, loss, limitation from your vocabulary.

Don't waste your time worrying. Worry is not preparation. Analyze the situation and focus on solutions. There is always an answer. - Wally Amos

Creed for Optimists - Christian D. Larsen
Be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.

Talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet.

Make all your friends feel there is something special in them.

Look at the sunny side of everything.

Think only of the best, work only for the best, and expect only the best.

Be as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own.

Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

Give everyone a smile.

Spend so much time improving yourself that you have no time left to criticize others.

Be too big for worry and too noble for anger.


just SMILE

i am just happy for u ..
the coast has somewhat calmed down ..
it takes time..
at least u have taken the FIRST step forward
out from the shadows of self-disbelief..

pic for u
my dear gal


i'm still waitin for u to be free for makan session ^^ and clarina too
haven met her IN YEARS -_-"

ITS A FREAKIN WARM NIGHT
ITS A FREAKIN WARM NIGHT
ITS A FREAKIN WARM NIGHT
ITS A FREAKIN WARM NIGHT
ITS A FREAKIN WARM NIGHT
ITS A FREAKIN WARM NIGHT

I'M TIRED but i cant sleep
sigh ..
feelin the lethargy .. BUT mind refuse to stop workin .. thinkin
about alot of stuff ..
stuff i talked to jun in the afternoon
wonder if i'm too harsh to her again ..
its seems like our views on some issues clash ..

her pt of view on love
my pt of view on love

wonder wat contributes to a good marriage
jun's worried abt the financial status ..
i worry abt the career and the emotional stability

i believe its the process of earnin the money
u need to earn the money through the proper channels
although it will be slow
at least it will teach ppl the value of money

i chose to believe in career
with career, money can be earned
with career comes a sense of satisfaction, pride with what you do
lastly
wat matters or keep a relationship strong is the emotional stability

even if u have the money
but the minds are not together, it WILL NOT WORK OUT

i wan my guy to have a stable career, build a strong base.
i wanna be proud of his achievements
even if it meant relationship takes a back seat for the time being

i think too much
or should i say ambitious
its always good to be realistic YET ambitious

"my shoulders are for u to lean on"

i hate bein sick

havin the feelin of "lethargicness"
i wanna go out
but i know i better not

should stay home get more rest etc
sigh ..
i feel i'm too weak ..
and he will say " u should go runnin"

argh

and the sickness is causin breakouts on my face ..
due to heatiness i guess
guess i really need to stay home afterall

until the coast is clear

Stone Temple Pilots - Plush

sang by one of the Spore idols ..
i love the vocals.. the way i like it ..
the 80's movement ..

some highlights of the numerous pics i took in Botanic Gardens
will definitely go there again ..
digi cam i am gonna BUY U ~! LOl
for more nature pics
take a look at my FLICKR on the right side of the blog

it will be too tedious to upload in blogger












our national flower~ Miss Vanda Joaquim

then it was to PS for dinner
had dinner at Ichiban Boshi ~


soft shell crab hand roll


my dinner .. i love beef


his dinner
heh beef set too

at joaquim steamboat at suntec convention centre with him and his mum
on a quiet fri's evenin


some of the desserts available..

then went WALA WALA ! at Holland V
heh
the band's good
i like the bassist
they played U2 Songs, COldplay etc ..
then it was to NYDC for supper and some cakies !


he had hot chocolate .. with marshmallows floatin on top .. aint it temptin ?
abit too sweet for my taste though
we had the IRISH CREAM MUDPIE too .. but sadly the lightning's too dim to take a decent pic of it ..

then it was back home ..

officially declare myself sick

flu+sore throat+cough=lethargic feelin

sigh..i hate that
kept sneezing
and got caught in the rain today
feelin worse..
went botanic gardens with him, took lots of pics .. with my hp cam though shall post it soon ... its always good to get away from the urban life .. to take in the sights of nature ..
lookin at some greenery
makes me feel more alive .. more at peace with myself ...and my surroundings
then went PS to find materials for SCRAP BOOKIN !
i wanna learn scrap bookin! its like expressin yourself thru artNdeco.. personlizin photos!
hmm.. but the scrapbookin materials available commercially cost alot .. so decided to design first then get the respective materials, savin time and money that way.

yea~ gonna make myself busy with my new project.. hopefully it wun be a "wu feng zhong re du" LOL

tml gonna rest at home .. pack room ..maybe can pack my stuff for sale .. have quite a lot of stuff which are seldom used,instead of lettin it collect dust in the corner, its better to find new owners for them.

wait for my nature pics!
i love macro shots ~

BUT the low pt of today ..
i lost part of my recent charm necklace.. sigh ..
waited for so long then wore it today then .. realise some charms dropped

structural art

structural art



POINT of CONtact
your life and mine

CAUSE of MY IRRITATIONS

> ppl who keep postphonin appointments
>QUEUE JUMPERS

i dun care who u are, there's no reason to JUMP QUEUE .. esp when the queue is already SO FREAKIN LONG AND IN A SINGLE FILE
U HAPPILY WAIT IN FRONT .. WAIT FOR A SMALL GAP
HAPPILY PLONK YOURSELF INTO THE GAP

just a person away from me
the guy just in front of me WAS TOO GENEROUS AND COURTEOUS NOT TO SAY ANYTHIN TO U
but wat the fuck
i dun care
i will EXCLAIM AS LOUD AS I WAN
"SHE JUST JUMP QUEUE"

the queue's till the mrt station again ..
why cant u queue like everyone else..
everyone else is late too mah ..
dun be such a spoilsport

i freakin left the house like half an hr earlier ..
and still i waited 20 min for the bus
still LATE !
fuck
dun tell me i have to get my ass out of the house at 7.15?

cant stand ..
esp those GU NIANs .. DRESS SO PRETTY.. wait till there's gap in btw guys then PLONK YOURSELF IN THE MIDDLE .. the guys are too smitten i think to show any resistance ..

BLAH !

cant stand such ppl
but its alright
like what cecilia said
we are part of a gracious society
shall not be like them hahahahahah

ok lar
need to make a pt

GU NIANS IS NOT EQUAL TO FEMININE GALS

i have friends who are real feminine .. their attire and behaviour are real dainty,
poised and have lots of etiquette

BUT I FREAKIN CANT STAND GALS WHO ACT DEMURE OR INNOCENT ESP TO GUYS TO GAIN ADVANTAGE, FAVOURS WATSOEVER

have a backbone please
i know most ppl have this idea that guys should give in to gals for most situations
u should assess the situation yourself ..
sometimes guys appreciate gals to be initiative or more independent
or do somethin for them instead ..
there can never be ALL TAKE AND NO GIVE

i aspire to support my guy as well as he can support me

my ramblings ..

******************

Scorpio

Today, the stars will be very generous and will enable you to meet a lot of people. You have a lot of charm and you can seduce your entourage very easily. Your charisma will pave the way to a lot more authenticity and will simplify your relations. You shouldn't rely on your assets, GERALDINE. On the contrary, you should just try to be yourself.


why i dun see anyone around me ? >.< LOL

its like two months away
but i'm plannin how to reward myself for my own birthday ..
sigh
but the one i am eyein for.. NOT SOLD IN SPORE !
WTF

i am SO IN LOVE with the designs .. rugged and with an attitude
oh yea~
i love my accessories ..
though i dress simple
i try to match with more unique pieces of accessories..
earrings, charms, bags..
its an identity
an attitude
and i like it








another Guess?

love blinds all who's involved
there's no right and wrong
love over-rules the head causin us to make decisions in the moment of folly ..
love binds those involved, refusin to be broken unless dealt with a severe force
and that is what happened ..
THAT FORCE has broken your srongest link .. do not need to feel bound to him ..
he dealt it himself..
he broke the chain himself ..
do not blame yourself ..
its just the moment ..

DO try to stand again
everyone's worried ..

i shant ask more
i shant probe more ..
i just wanna let u know ..
when u are ready
i can listen to u
i will lend u my shoulder, my ear
i dun like to probe more UNLESS u are ready to say more..

it needs time ..
IN THE END its the MENTALITY that matters..
DO NOT blame yourself
there's no " it shouldnt have been like this "
everythin happens for a reason
whether for a good reason or not ..
u fell for it cause your heart tells u so ..
now u shouldnt let your heart rule u again ..

what's done IS DONE ..
dun LOOK BACK IN ANGER..DISAPPOINTMENT watsoever..
like wat he said ..
"remove all links to him" ..
will make the FORGETTIN process easier ..
remember u always have us around ..

love shouldnt be sufferin ..it should be a wonderous feelin

take care gal

been on my feet most of the time today
busy and tired but satisfied
felt more alive when i'm doin lots of work LOL
troubleshoot the damn machine
fine tune alot of components with the trainer beside me
she said " you got the toucH!" LOL when i finally can get the stupid thing to work ..

*************

on another note
been "too formaL" with my life
time to ease .. should just say and go

kinda used to havin a structured life
and i get your dift
will do wat it takes

i think i get irritated too easily nowadays LOL
must be the physical condition

hmm sick person=angry person?
maybe

and i am only teasin mah
why take it so seriously
cant take a joke ?
sigh
life aint no fun livin it so seriously
i learned that the hard way

mum's theory too
everythin should be seen with an open heart
be cheerful
be acceptin to all possibilities
it can open up your eyes to more things in life
then life wun be like a dark tunnel .. one way towards a single pt of light
there's time to be serious, times to be in a "relaxed" state
for me
i like my life to be like tat of the sparklers
lots of sparks although short lived
i rather have an interestin short life then a borin long life LOL

i like a humourous guy yet someone who can give intelligent ans
i ask u qn
dun give me somethin i cant comprehend

U ALWAYS SAY "its your choice"
kinda hate the sentence now

i know everythin in life is "what i choose it to be"

but the way u say "its your choice"
sounds like u are givin up on me
sometimes i cant make up my mind
i need someone to rely on .. to weigh the pros and cons before makin the choice
thats why some stuff i'm still undecisive

i need to loosen my grip on reality for awhile
relax my mind .. to see the "big picture" from a third person pt of view ..
i'm too emotional ..

and it aint a good thing

been an eventful weekend again
fri took leave
accompanied him and my mum watch vcd and for lunch then we went off to get pressie for his friend's bd

bought ANna SUi perfume for her hope she likes it

anyway encountered some really nice ppl at RAFFLES SHOPPIN CENTRE
bought pressie + wrappin paper
BUT problem is .. we had no scissors or scotchtape to wrap with
so i went to the CONCIEGE counter and asked "is it possible to borrow some scotchtape and a pair of scissors?"
having spied some at the counter
"what do u need those for?"
"wrap a present"
"i will help u wrap it"
WAH !! so nice and considerate of them right?
i really like their attitude and friendliness to members of the public ..
even to someone who was wearin somethin so casual ..
so NOT all service personnel failed in their service standards..
its clearly HIGH STANDARDS at RAFFLES SHOPPIN CENTRE

anyway met candy and jeff at cineleisure
they were eatin at the foodcourt ..
hm somethin to clarify
sometimes i talked too fast and too direct but what i said are mostly for the fun of it .. as jokes

i hope i never irritate candy or jeff with my words -_-"
this is wat happen when i talk to guys too often LOL

anyway watched "CLICK" LOL as most readers would know by now ..
i love the show ..
and the song "linger"
was practically cryin at the end of the show
too emo i guessed

went bbq at night
LOL
only the 4 of us were there .. around 7+
so we BBQ first
the guys did all the work
we gals just sat there and waited to be fed LOL
tats the way mah ..
who say gals must provide the meals?LOL

then more ppl came in .. elsie,kailin, judy and the guys
talked to them about jobs and career choices and money matters LOL
knew them for a few yrs as his classmates .. then became own friends
thats how things should be
i dun like to categorize ppl as "his/her gf/bf"
ppl have names
i like ppl to rememeber me as MYSELF and not YL's gf LOL
yar so i tried to remember everyone's names too ..

went out to talk to the gals
played sparklers ..
that how the previous pic came about
nice aint it?
its not the fireworks
just sparklers.. i love the effect of the sparks against the darkness of the night

then 10+
gonna collapse soon LOL cause its my usual bedtime .. but i hang on with elsie too .. both of us are fallin asleep ..

went supper at CHangi Village at 12+ for satay ! with the grp
heh
fun havin such big grp again ...
then its time to head back home
and sat we went back to chalet again for awhile

jeff drove us to watch the fireworks
wasnt talkin much cause was havin a headache .. hm.. maybe i looked glum .. its not the mood its my physical condition -_-"

but then thanks to jeff
we still managed to catch some parts of the fireworks..
then again
i seriously think for convenience sake next time either we get there very early or take public transport..
dun wanna make jeff waste his petrol, time and effort to find a parkin lot
he's bein very patient too
candy's lucky to have him heh

anyway
wishin u two the best ..

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met mum at city hall after tat
the train's too crowded so brought her to raffles shoppin centre.. to the newly opened extension to try to BEN N JERRY's ice-cream
sadly the place was full
so went to find some juice place
bought a waffle cone for xiao mei ..
then mum was tempted and said she will buy a tub the next day LOL

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gotta work now ..
not feelin too good hmm.. nose's stuffy cant feel much then head's wobbly
think gonna fall sick soon hai
gotta sleep more i guess LOL

an old song which i managed to dig out from my songs collection ..

enjoy ..



With every waking breath I breathe
I see what life has dealt to me
With every sadness I deny
I feel a chance inside me die

Give me a taste of something new
To touch to hold to pull me through
Send me a guiding light that shines
Across this darkened life of mine

Breathe some soul in me
Breathe your gift of love to me
Breathe life to lay 'fore me
Breathe to make me breathe

For every man who built a home
A paper promise for his own
He fights against an open flow
Of lies and failures, we all know

To those who have and who have not
How can you live with what you've got?
Give me a touch of something sure
I could be happy evermore

Breathe some soul in me
Breathe your gift of love to me
Breathe life to lay 'fore me
To see to make me breathe

Breathe your honesty
Breathe your innocence to me
Breathe your word and set me free
Breathe to make me breathe

This life prepares the strangest things
The dreams we dream of what life brings
The highest highs can turn around
To sow love's seeds on stony ground

Breathe
Breathe

Breathe some soul in me
Breathe your gift of love to me
Breathe life to lay 'fore me
To see to make me breathe

Breathe your honesty
Breathe your innocence to me
Breathe your word and set me free
Breathe to make me breathe

glint of light in the darkness..

been goin for birthday celebrations this year
hahaha
makes me tempted to organise a birthday celebration for myself too

any suggestions?
for small grps of around 10 ppl heh

i wanna a mini celebration too
dun wan to let it past quietly

aint no fun tat way

aftermath of "CLICK"

watched CLICK today..
very emotional show
domestic show which is heart warmin, touchin and hilarious at the same time
shows how ppl wanna escape from troubles or things that they do not wan to hear or experience ..
in the process, missin out on the "Good times" of their lives..

in life
one cant always take the easy way out
if u face the problems directly
"hold it by the Horns"
u might discover the rainbow at the other end..

he wanted to escape from the "mundaness" and the "pressures" of his work..
wanted to fast forward to the end result
in the process he missed out on affection for the family
his kids growin up

love too... aint always a bed of roses ..
it got its ups and downs..
when its up ... u wan to savour the moment, to "CLICK" on slow mode
but then when the quarrels arise, u wan to skip the moment, to "CLICK" on fast forward..

but life aint like a drama serial
always treasure every moment
regardless the good or bad
the past or present
cause u will have to live with the memories
since memories cant be erase,
why not keep the good memories..
for reminiscing
wat is done is done
wat shouldnt be done is done
so .. instead of feelin the guilt ..
try to find the glint of light in the darkness

conclusion is
treasure all those around u

and i love the song "LINGER"
and i know how it feels too now..

to make everyone happy
i should stop being so harsh with my words LOL

guess i'm too cranky

not generalisin
no offence

splash of colours

lazy day lazy feelings lazy mood

mum prepared steamboat heh
cause the whole family's around

then went for a stroll after dinner
talked to mum alot
abt relationships
career choices
future plans ..
its up to me wat i wan to do wat i plan to do wat i aspire to do ..

somethin to lighten up the mood


heh
mum suggested it

u are responsible for your actions
seize the opportunities..
u answer to no one but yourself .

I've Learned

I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it may be better tomorrow.

I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles a rainy day and lost luggage.

I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life.

I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a "life."

I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back.

I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision.

I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one.

I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone.

People love that human touch - holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.

Third yr anniversary

we came a long way
through the good and bad times
it had been a rough journey