had been sittin in front of the com for some time.. surfin...thinkin..

i think i'm sufferin from a "quarter life" crisis now.. aimless.. no proper direction in life ..
i'm like driftin on the wide endless ocean with nothin to anchor me ..

life gets borin too easily for me.. too mundane ..
too ordinary ..
its like a rountine.. and i dun like it ..
i dun like keepin to "fixed timetable"
there's no "life" in life..
its like a movie being replayed over and over again ..
u know wat's the beginnin .. the process and the endin of the events..

i feel at a loss sometimes..
should i do this ?
should i do that?
should i follow suit?

why am i workin for ?
wat am i workin for ?
wat kind of future do i want ?

do i wanna study ?
do i wanna stay or switch jobs ?

am i savin enough ?
am i spendin too much ?

WAT am i savin for ?
studies ?
my own future ?
wat kind of future do i want?

sometimes i think too much for my own good..
plan outside my means..
hopefully i can see all my financial plans mature and grow..
and be a rich retiree LOL
for now ..
have to spend less..
diverted my finances to another avenue today .. so less spendin money already ..
it will be tough..

maybe i should stick to the policy of hard work now enjoy later like dear's dad..
livin off his investments..
oh yea~

but for now ..thinkin wat i should do with my life ..

until i can find a PROPER AND REALISTIC AIM for the immediate future

fuah .. makes my head big ..