its so calm and peaceful that sometimes it worries me..
will my peace be shattered suddenly? abruptly? will i be thrown into despair again?
i rather not take the chance. i hope the peace last and my tense emotions can be released finally..

the human heart.
can be determined at times yet there will be times it will give way to temptation..subconsciously.. feelings that were not there.. or when one was feeling down.. the extra attention's always welcome.. but where will it lead from there? from friend to confidant to something more?
why allow oneself to have the chance to falter more?
why allow oneself to let others in?
will others see it as a chance to do something else? to their benefit?
i strongly believe in nipping the problem in the bud now..

"just as long as i know what i am doing and i did not betray you"
will you still be firm if you are really presented with an opportunity right before your eyes or when your feelings and visions are blurred?

and i still HATE HER.
Till the time when i can finally put it all behind me..
i hope it comes soon to me too..