Review part 2

i need to

-curb my jealousy
-curb my sensitivity
-curb my mood swings
-curb my procrastination
-curb my sarcasm
-curb my inactivity
-curb my spending (again)

i wish to believe again.
i am not blaming u nor anyone.
circumstances have changed, situations have changed. ppl ?
i am not sure
maybe i shouldnt impose my thinking and ideals on u
but i cant help it.
i'll try to control.
your set of morals and ideals and expectations are all different from mine.
i hope we can reach an equilibrium.

your friend is getting too close for MY comfort.
regardless day, time and whom u are with
i am telling u
not imposing on you.
i cant help it to feel the way i do.
u cant stop it either.
i am not angry
i am just puzzled.
i am curious
i will respect your friend and your decisions
i will be open-minded about it
i will accept your friend
i will accept whatever u do between yourselves
but i have a limit to things that can be done. and i will abide by it myself.
if not what's the difference between your friend and me?
we will reach a consensus
u give me my personal space?
i think u are the one who is craving for it.
space .. of course i have.
i am open to u too.
personal space is not equal to close communication.

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life is full of choices, its how u choose it
life is about life itself, u dont treasure your own, how u treasure others?
life is about learning from mistakes, re-evaluating and moving on.
life is about standing up again from failures and proving yourself again.
life is about self-reliant, u gain your own worth you gain your confidence

i am still learning.