what had been done and to be done and could be done and should be done
recap from LAST YR
Monday, January 01, 2007
A Time for reflection
LAST yr had been a bittersweet yr for me ...
i know i get emotional very easily but LAST yr i realised the extent my emotions can wary
BUT anyway
some stuff worthy of mention
-met new friends,interestin ones.. capable of intelligent conversations hahahah
taught me alot, showed me alot ( i did not make more friends but became closer to ppl around me.)
-became more independent without him..over reliance aint a good thing
( this year's a testing year for us with both of us having our own set of friends and having to divide "US" time into alot of other sectors, to put it bluntly, i'm forced to learn, but its better for the long run, i never had to share my guy in such manner, not even with all your other friends.. i know the extend of my jealously,skeptism, negativity and also paranoid, i am not goin all out to make u "friendless" i just want you to be truthful, i thought its always good to know one another, at least have a peace of mind then we can still go about having our own cliche..but some things cannot be shared some experience cannot be replicated like 2 person movie date which i feel is a very intimate experience, i hope u understand, i dont want to seem like i am fighting for your attention with another person, i believe everyone will need time and space for friends, its a matter of what u do and how u do it )
-struggled for trust( now its the other way round, i trust u, i am just skeptical of the environment, temptations abound, willpower weakens unconsciously, now its testing of MY willpower and my degree of trust in u)
-first trip to US alone .. its an experience worth to remember except for the "ever-friendly" customs (first family trip to KL in like 10+ yrs? )
-became closer to my dears.. wasnt as anticipating when i was in poly realised i had missed out on quite alot.. and now i shall keep myself updated ( i realised i am not alone when i always seem alone, be quiet, be still )
-became more aware of dressin? lol due to some encouragements or suggestions made
( i think i became better at it )
-realised i am too righteous for my own good hahahah as leo puts it being too much of a "bigot" ( still trying not to voice all my comments lest i come across as arrogant )
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aspirations and resolutions for the new yr
-i still cannot make up my mind whether i want to take up business or sciences or management or go into teachin
can someone shake me awake?
( am saving up for a business deg, though dear dont want me to suffer, its short term suffering for a cert that has longterm achievement, dear is going studying i shant lose! and i will prove myself )
-lose more weight and tone myself up, my fitness had been long forsaken ever since i left JC hahahah i know how it felt to be fat to be labelled with all the mean names
( i am on target 50 kg LOL maybe toning instead?)
-save more money
i think i had been indulging in alot of fine dining this yr and online retail therapy .. thanks to HIM and some close friends of mine
not that i am regretting.. but now need to restrain abit if now my account aint gonna get fat..
less shoppin online? i think i bought more clothes online than from shops here hahaha i just dun like the idea of wearin like everybody else
( i think i shopped less than last year :) )
-be less arrogant
sometimes i think i sound arrogant to ppl who are clueless
sorry for that, its me being over enthusiastic to tell u abt the things i know or things u have been missing out on ..
-to learn financial planning hahahah
i do not aspire to be a housewife
i aspire to have my own cash and spend it
( i got myself insurance, financial planner for cpf investment and also prepared short term savings plan )
still reviewing.. still thinking.. shall blog about it soon..
and to end it off.. our new year's eve celebrations for the past 2 years.
this year we will celebrate together with all our wishes
At Jack's Place 2005
At Honjin 2006
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