today NOT feelin tired or anythin wahahhaha
maybe i had enough sleep last night
slept at 10 i tink .. hahahha..

tats why need to train myself physically
toughen myself up so i can "ton" later wahahhaha
today gonna meet jun for some bondin again .. cant wait to see her ..
i hope she's not too stress with work and can just chill out with me .. forget her worries for the time behind.. regardless whether its work related or relationship..

we have somethin to talk abt in common ... so its easy to lay the facts bare to talk it out .. discuss and review .. -_-" i sound like doin some business negotiations ..

anyway .. jun has been the dominant one in her relationship .. the initiator..

sometimes i feel tat guys nowadays are takin gfs for granted .. esp when in NS
wan the gf to plan the weekends to devote time etc etc etc .. then they always come up with excuse tat they are too tired no time..
we too free ..
then they just sit back and enjoy the fruits of OUR LABOUR

i really need to plan things to do .. NEW THINGS
i guess we arent doin much things productively .. last weekend went out then i gave a few suggestions on wat to do cause when i asked him wat did he want to do beside shoppin he said "dunno"
i was,"................."
BUT my suggestions were all rejected by him ...

i guess maybe when in a relationship too long
datin life gets too mudane..
too "clockwork"
eat movies shoppin ..

..........
damn bored ..
i wanna find ppl chill out with me ..

almost 3 yrs ..
i need some excitement in my life
hahahhhahaha

its rekindlin of the sparks ...
i hope we can go on tour or somethin again
he promise to bring me go sentosa ..
durin his block leave.. i dun wanna do nothin..
its not demandin of me right ?
i hope he can do the initiation sometimes .. not me ..
although i like to lead but sometimes it feels good to be led by the guy too
:P
i am an authoritarian remember ? wahhahaha
but for now i can self entertain myself

on another note, i found some more new friends thru forum in sch
hee
its always good to make more new friends
at least some will stick thru with u even throughout your tough times..
i am not sayin to exploit friends .. or say they are to curb loneliness or anythin
friends are like an emotional support ..
they listen, advice, motivate, encourage, gossip
i feel relieve when i talk to them .. relieve of the mental burden i have been carryin
of course friendship cant be one-sided
i try to play my part too
try to keep myself updated with them .. well tryin to be .. pls be patient .. i promise not to neglect anyone ..

i will be a good friend too ^^
i'm always there to be your listenin ear

i guess i can be "too loud" at times or else "too passive"
hhmm.. tryin to balance ^^

like wat a colleague said ..
ehm if i can rememeber correctly
its not the quantity of time but the quality
its not the situation but the mentality
we are responsible for how we are feelin
so no pt bein grouchy or blamin others..

thinkin ..
should i just be happy in my current situation or try to spice things up wahahahah