feelin confuse..

am i doin the right thing

am i too soft hearted

am i too demandin

am i askin too much

the prob doesnt seem to go away
even if we sit and talk abt it
its still the same old prob
and it happened over and over again

i dun think i am too demandin

i only request to have more personal space
to be able to do watever i like
to go out with whoever i wan
and for u to TRUST ME

BUT
i still have u in my heart

why then the prob surface in the first place? and the few times after

insecurities ?
lack of confidence?
lack of trust?
over reliance?
overly dependent?
over possessiveness?
ego?

i cant possible keep to myself all the time u are not there
i cant possible have a NON_existence social life
i will standby for u .. BUT not all the time
i need my own life
i am not the perfect gf
no one can
life IS NOT A FAIRYTALE
there wun be any princess or prince
bullshit
i dun believe in such love
i believe in practical love
i try to be the best i can
to give the best i can
but do i receive as much as i give
or do u even know how much i give at all
are u takin me for granted

i am not just YOUR GF
i am MYSELF
and i do not have just a single role
i have various roles to play
i lost a lot of things
i just wanna pick them up again

i know your life there is diff
i listen
i encourage
i push u on

BUT i cant do anythin abt it

i can only be your supportin pillar


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it needs two hands to clap
it takes two to start a relationship
it takes trust to keep a relationship