My Chemical Romance - Famous Last Words

and ON IT LOUD !


I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay
I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I’m out here
On the other side
Of a jet black
Hotel mirror
And I’m so weak
is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak ..

suggestions?

which is nice?

life's lesson 1

a quote i LOVE~

"Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned."

teachin my friend how to get back at her EX.. argh

irritating fools
why he doesnt take the effort when there's still chance
why doesnt he GET IT when its all futile now
why he DOESNT redeem himself when given the change
and so its all too late now
takin her for granted.. and so he SHALL SUFFER

vengeance is thy name

Shoppin day FINALE

today went shoppin with mum again heh
at FAR EAST Plaza.. for CNY clothes

and MY HAUL was good heh
wait for my pics for CNY LOL

should be all that i need for CNY LOl
i am SO ANTICIPATIN IT
not for the ang pow but for the ppl .. its been awhile since i've seen my relatives and cousins on my mum's side.
for dad's side, its already a monthly affair that we have gatherings LOL

hmm went to this "RAMEN TEN" at the basement of FAR EAST PLAZA.. wasnt too good
the noodles too tough in comparison to AJISEN.. but soup base is still alright..



then went to shop around LOL squeezin with the people etc
after that went to ISETAN supermarket to stock up on SOBA SAUCE..
hey i can make some decent japanese food alright LOL



and then brought MUM to TCC for some "High tea" LOL
its good once in awhile..



then dinner was at FOOD REPUBLIC..luckily it was not TAT crowded..



my MUM
my shoppin and food buddy LOL

and her cheesecakie~


My AzuKi COffe.. its red bean paste at the bottom if u're wondering..
reco by HS.. heh

new fav~

CHOYA is addictive..

just bought a mini one from the mart..

shh..

now .. anyone kind enough to give me mini vodka bottles too ?

me heart them so much ..

and the actual size?

highly reco~

i wonder if my pig will be like that...

*ponders*

oh yea~ he's capable hahahhaha

been a LONG DAY, bloggin from office .. and that @!$#@@ machine's givin me loads of trouble again
argh
and my boss wants ans that i cant ans

have to consult the specialist..
i wish they send me for further trainin or related seminars etc at least i will know more and can ans her qns..
i will not feel so frustrated then..
not knowin somethin makes me irritable.. sigh..

luckily there's somethin sittin pretty to calm myself down ..

white
Loyalty, penetrating and platonic love. Able to captivate secret thought, love stronger than death. In England there is a saying about the white rose referring to the sub rosa, death to him who under my secrecy betrays his oath. In Scotland when the white rose bloomed in autumn it was seen as a token of early marriage. The rose of confession, the bridal rose, the rose of servitude. Can be otherworldly.

OR to put it simply
Purity, Innocence, Silence, Secrecy, Reverence, Humility, Youthfulness, I am worthy of you, Heavenly





:)

new works !

and more paper cutting.. and more broken nails and paper cuts too

for my scrapbooking project..
materials for scrapbookin kinda expensive so have to resort to cutting borders and frames myself~
now lackin in BASE

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nowadays reading STOMP's FOrum
at stomp.com.sg

Wat do guys mean went dey say u are cUte?

so wat's your views?

i seriously HOPE NO ONE CALLS ME CUTE..
i dun wish to fall into that category ..

not being arrogant
cause i cant see myself as one LOL

and to me cute=naive or childish
or having cutie pie looks which i do not have hahahah

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and i LOVE THE NEW DOvE COMMERCIAL
campaignforrealbeauty.com.sg

to learn to accept yourself the way u are..

must try to stop comparing myself to thin gals around me or petite gals around me..

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new song i heard on tv



hey i DO listen to BOYBANDS.. the older ones that is when the quality was still better

accomplishment for the day

my first CNY DECORATION~!

now my back and shoulders are achin .. from bendin over too long to scrutinize and cut

hmm what else should i do next?

ponder ponder..

a hobby doesnt need to cost much
its just findin the right stuff and materials to do

:)

interpretation...

anyone? WALA WALA?

morning ramblings part 2

a fren told me this line

"love the person for being who he/she is
not how he/she can do for you"

was talkin to a colleague
she's kinda worried about the future if she's to study as this will create an educational difference between herself and her bf which will translate into different in earnin power next time

she sounds ambitious and expects the guy to be ABOVE
in terms of financial stability and earnin power

its true and its common knowledge and its expected by alot of women

BUT WHAT IF THAT SCENARIOR CANNOT BE ACHIEVED?

do you drop that person and find someone better?

its up to individuals already .. and how they are to cope
and i applaud my colleague for plannin so far ahead..
heh
they already laid out the various possibilities and the diff solutions to possible hiccups

being greedy is good in this sense
to be able to tackle
studies, relationship and finance matters
and wantin the best of everything

i think i am still laggin very far behind.. mentality-wise

i say i do not mind difference in educational qualifications..
yet the future is uncertain
i might say otherwise in the future

i do not want to think too far into the future
i rather cherish the present
and work problems out WHEN i DO encounter them..

if not
i have too many IFS to handle already

HOWEVER..
its always better to plan ahead.. IN CASE I AM RENDERED HELPLESS when i do face such problems in life later

to me
even if its my bf
he cannot stop me from achievin what i want
even it meant he cannot be on par..
he will have to catch up then..
or i will make him catch up

u will have to set your own priorities

as the sayin goes

you cannot survive on love alone
you still need to put bread on the table
and its always good to have someone to share the financial burden with
and NOT BE the financial burden

Beauty in the eye of other beholders, says study

Beauty may be in the eye of the beholder but other people's opinions matter too when it comes to the attraction between men and women, according to researchers

read THIS

"We tend to think about things like attraction as reflecting a private decision or a personal choice but our work shows that people's attractiveness judgements can be influenced in pronounced ways by what other people appear to think of those individuals," said psychologist Dr Ben Jones.

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and that's why i care about how i present to others
its for my own benefit too :P

shoppin with mum

went out with MY MUM on sunday

first stop, breakfast! brought mum to Bukit Panjang Plaza for toast at WANG JIAO coffeehouse, had some kaya toast and my kopi-O
simple indulgences.. :)

secondly, went grandpa's house to visit him BUT he was out, an aunt had brought him out shopping LOL
handed my gift to a cousin to help me hand over to him(a red pig i bought from Singapore Mint)
i know elderly folks will like decorative stuff heh

thirdly, we went to visit another aunt who had recently fractured her elbow..
she seems fine and thats good to know

and then the main purpose of our outing
SHOPPIN AT ORCHARD

had been wantin to buy some intimates for ages LOL
brought MUM to CK TANG
the brands i wanted are found in almost every shoppin centre and the prices are fixed everywhere

the reason why we had to travel so far.. for the SERVICE and the COMFORT
CK TANG has one of the best SERVICE and place for us to try our stuff in COMFORT
i do not like queuein up for the changin room with a LONG QUEUE behind me
it makes me irritable and uncomfortable and also hasty in choices

so i like to find niche places BUT with the same brands and prices

make my money worth it

and MEN will not get it
why tat little piece of cloth cost so much
hmm
simple reason
for the COMFORT and support
cause its stickin so close to me

i wouldnt wan mine to look older before its time hahahahaha

and definitely NO PUSH-UPS for me
its too bulky and too stiff

and in the end
the few we bought
can buy me another watch LOL
but its all worth it
cause it wouldnt go out of shape for a long time to come :)
and when i feel good inside
i feel good outside
"ting xiong zhuo ren"
:P

and last stop
dinner at PS
Dear came to join us for dinner and to accompany us home and to book in on Mon mornin

i'm just glad that he took the effort to spend time with me again

its always important to me that we always try to maintain that lovin feelin ~
i live for it
cause
i am not the one who can stand routines
and i know he likes that feelin too

do we look like sisters?

my mummy's gal




my king laksa~ kinda too thick for my taste but fragrant and good nonetheless
He loves it though

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now i left shoes for CNY
more heels pls ^^

its eat and eat weekends again~
whada ya expect from me? :P

ended practical late around 630 on fri and met HIM at HOLLAND VILLAGE for dinner
was just strollin along skimmin thru the various restaurants and dainty eateries and also small shops that sells knick knacks to accessories and clothing..

kinda INTO Holland V now..
just feel that the crowds' better and there's more variety..

went SUshi Tei for dinner.. its good~ though i feel that the branch at VIVOCITY is still the best ..

too full to do or eat anythin else..
and he aint a dessert fan.. so .. headed home early.. kinda disappointed though and tried not to show it..

i'm not the one to laze at home whenever possible ..

today went CAFE CARTEL~
the menu's changed
there are more varieties now~
the Oxtail stew is good ! shall post pics soon
i'll give 3.5/5 heh
the lambstew at SECRET RECIPE is still the best so far.. among the stews i had..

HE had his usual ST LOUIS RIBS hahaha well i'm not surprised
i had the Black Pepper Chicken Drumstick

and yes..
we CAN finish the food
with his MUM of course heh







thats how i usally spend my weekends
a day with him and his family
and another day he's with me and my family
bonds us closer..

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how to define "quality time" together?

is being with the person physically all the time = quality time?

or the precious few moments spent FRUITFULLY with the person = quality time?

i just wanna have those PRECIOUS moments

and whats the pt of being together but doin different things?

and i am still on the quest of find common things or new things to do

i like my life to be colorful~

what is love?

some quotes to share..

"Attention is the most basic form of love; through it we bless and are blessed." - John Tarrant

"We love because it's the only true adventure." - Nikki Giovanni

"Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it darts away." - Dorothy Parker

"Love is friendship set on fire." - unknown

"Love stretches your heart and makes you big inside." - Margaret Walker

"Love has no awareness of merit or demerit; it has no scale... Love loves; this is its nature." - Howard Thurman

"Loves makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place." - Zora Neale Hurston

"Love is the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired." - Mark Twain

"To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven." - Karen Sunde

"Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit." - Peter Ustinov

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so what is your definition of love?

to tell the person in the eye that u love him
no matter how many times and u still mean it

its not seein the person but in your heart he's always there

its not takin him for granted

its to give your attention and care willingly without expectin any back

its to be initiative, strokin it now and then to keep the fire going

its to forgive and forget

its your soulmate, leavin no secrets unrevealed

its being proud of him and havin him by your side and to call him yours

:)

AYAKA_i believe

a song that caught my attention ..
a female voice.. soothin and with depth
the way i like it
pls listen ~

its different from the usual love songs that most female singers are churnin out
i cant stand cutesy songs too or those with just lots of dance steps and not much else ..

this song is about findin yourself ..

live each day to the fullest
cause .. u only need to answer to yourself

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I believe
Lyrics: Ayaka Translation: Jonathan Wu

Hidden inside my heart, is a
whirlpool of uncertainty
If I have to walk on, which way
do I go?
As the streets overflow with people
I say “Goodbye” to that uncertain me
I believe myself, I know that if I believe
everything and anything can begin
I believe myself, and as the sunshine warms me
I walk on without failing myself because
I believe

Small lies begin to surface from the
falsehoods that people create in life
As a young girl I saw the lies pile up
up sighed to myself
And I swore to myself to color
the lies in “black”
I believe myself, I know that if I believe
everything and anything can begin
I believe myself, and as the sunshine warms me
I walk on without failing myself because
I believe

Right now as the wide sky is reflected in my eyes
I feel like I’m living while staying true to myself
I believe myself, I know that if I believe
everything and anything can begin
I believe myself, and as the sunshine warms me
I walk on without failing myself because
I believe...

round 1 complete!

a sense of achievement overwhelmed me after the first session today

throat was hurtin terribly due to the constant talking

i tried my best to explain the different paraments and settings and even demostrated to them
pity room is too small to hold a bigger audience

in the end
i had 20 grps!

hahahaha

well i can only do so much
i tried my best
shall improve tml with diagrams for easy reference

now i am LOVIN~ my job

hmm but feedback aint encouragin ..
wonderin how to tell my boss abt it ..

ponder ponder ponder..
shall have to "suggest" gently to her

tsk tsk

students nowdays have no respect for the lecturers and guest speakers..

today went to listen to a talk given by my trainer..

i just felt sad for her..

SOME were strollin in half an hr late?
SOME were eating ..mashed potatoes and coffee?
SOME were usin laptops to chat?
SOME were just laughin at her accent..

ARGH

not interested, just keep your bloody mouth shut .. show some due respect...

i feel that my poly lectures were better..more attentive and SERIOUS

my trainer is such a warm and lively person

pity she had to face such audience that aint appreciative...

ramblings

just updated some songs from my past .. the way i like it ..

not many ppl will appreciate the way i like things to be ..
i think i sound arrogant to ppl not in the know

i think i am over-enthusiastic abt stuff again ..
regardless whether its over food or musical taste or shoppin matters ..

its hard to find someone who click as well .. who has the same or similar taste in things..
see things the way i see
not that i am hard to please
i just like the "not so ordinary" things in life
even ordinary things i will make it interesting

another reason why i do not talk much unless necessary
i do not wan to offend ppl
stupid reason i know ..
but its just me..

well unless u know me well enough
or should i change myself to fit into the society's conventional mould?

or maybe i should just create different profiles for the diff groups of ppl i am with
so i can adapt to all situations

ITS YOUR DAY~
abit early but nonetheless
with all my best wishes for u

thanks for your presence and so much more

wishin u again

May u fulfill your new hopes for the new yr~

golden pig!

mum bought these mini pears..
i say they're GOOD STUFF!
very fragant and sweet!


Radiance of Prosperity
The radiant Boar sits peacefully on a meaningfully designed octagonal acrylic display, with wishes for a year of peace, harmony and prosperity

dear got this for our family for CNY
so i decided to wrap my own hamper for his family
not good to just receive .. its always nicer to return the favour
esp when his family had been so good to me over the yr
bought some CNY goodstuff and birdnest for his mummy~ good for complexion woh~
ran out of ideas on what to make for his family
made lots of decorative stuff for them.. dun think have much space for new stuff -_-"



some gifts i received over the weekend
gifts from Taiwan! thanks! and i simple adore dark chocs~

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the way i prefer her to be

cuteness galore

its in the genes... female being the dominant gender :P

cat nap

world's smallest dog ~6inches



blur mother duck..

been spendin .. but not on myself -_-" ah
i think i'm good at shoppin for guy's stuff more than my own stuff hahahahaha
CNY doesnt mean i need to buy new clothes
i think i bought enough red clothes last yr to last thru CNY
and it looks good anyway so why not?
and mum bought more clothes than me already LOL
and her clothes are .. wow..young not that she cannot pull it off heh
i shall not lose out .. must dress younger than her -_-"


hmm and my boss asked me to help her give lessons to her undergrad class on thu and fri ..
stress... but nonetheless CHALLENGIN
shall give it my best shot heh
never try never know never learn

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and one of my fav (and mum's fav) song
heh she listens to what i listen what heh


BLUR SONG 2

GIRLS OUT LOUD

a typical proposal of a typical sporean guy
"will u buy a hdb flat with me?"

hahahah..oops

i hope MINE WILL NOT DO THAT
i know its practical but it SHOULDNT BE the reason

enjoy the show~

saw a VERY RUDE PRIMARY SCH BOY on the bus today

i clearly remembered his sch uniform
FROM JURONG PRIMARY SCHOOL
it had been raining the whole day thus alot of ppl were takin the bus
there was an uncle standin in front of this pri sch boy who was sittin down ..
when he wanted to alight
he just SHOUTED "EXCUSE ME LAR EXCUSE ME!"
not just saying .. he was SHOUTING IN AN UNFRIENDLY TONE TOO
wanna tell him off but its unsightly to do so
anyway he squeezed his way and alighted in a matter of minutes too

sigh
what happened to kids nowadays?
where did their manners go too?

and another irritation occurin on FRIENDSTER
its for me TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH PPL I KNOw

if someone msg me and first sentence goes along the line like " u are cute can i get to know u ?" etc
pls GET A LIFE

i do not need such compliments
NOR do i need such ppl who wan to know me because of looks
ha
i can make do WITHOUT SUCH PPL
i have 17 -28 yrs old guys writing the same kind of msgs
if u can show me u are more than being "superficial" i might consider being your friend

i need SINCERE compliments hahahah
why~
cause i think we all need some praisin now and then
to make us feel better
to be more confident
i have no idea why sporean guys are so stingy with compliments
if u think she is looking good
GIVE HER SOME COMPLIMENTS THEN
the POWER OF WORDS heh

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hmm
i'm still deciding what to get

found a few choices .. thinking whether its suitable anot

to buy or not to buy .. sigh ..

i wanna get somethin special.. different yet practical
yes i am fussy
cause its for someone fussy too hahahahahah

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in case u are as Outdated as me

i just read this in STOMP

Meet the Inter-JC King and Queen
http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/viewPost1248.aspx

The winners of the night are Colin Ang Qin Zhi, 18 from Hwa Chong Institution and Phua Shih Wen, 18 from Jurong Junior Colleage.
heh

hmm wanted to go out today
wore my red top ... then last min feel the laziness creepin into me agai
so U-TURNED and went back home

i know

laziness is creepin into me again
well at least its helpin me to save money

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and why i like celebratin birthdays
not just for me

i like celebrating for friends too

cause .. its THEIR DAY
not just ANY day

to me
if no one remembers, i'll feel really worthless
it doesnt need to involve material gains
even if its just a msg i'll be content
to know that i am being remembered

ITS THE THOUGHTS

yip


used to organise birthdays for friends heh or i like attendin birthdays
cause i like to immerse myself in the happy occasion
the joy and laughter and grinnin of the birthday person makes my heart so warm ..
full of joy

and i do not like quiet birthdays if u ask me
cause i will think

"whats the difference with any other day then"

my take

and for U
a perfect SMILEY for u

heh

my first impression of u was that of arrogance or such "heck care attitude" but i'm proved otherwise

beneath the tough exterior

i get the see the other side

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John MAYER

John Mayer- I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You)
somethin slow
to sooth my tired being or calm my over-active emotions

And THIS IS GOOD


john mayer - your body is a wonderland
sensual lyrics
sensual mood
lackin that sensual touch ..
of u

Swenson at VIVO

recap from weekends
before we watched the "CURSE OF THE GOLDEN FLOWER"
we went to try "SWENSONS"
not your typical family outlet though, the branch at VIVO is much better with a much sophisticated crowd
well the menu offers more expensive set meals too but the sets comes with unlimited servin of the salad bar so considerin the factors, it aint too bad

i asked for "Medium Rare"
they gave me almost fully cooked ARGH .. the meat is tough


his seafood platter


the seafood was alright only
FISH N CO is better
which the two of us can eat the "SEAFOOD PLATTER FOR TWO" by ourselves LOL

our 41mth anni celebration in advance..

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and when i was BORED yesterday
i did this

a FERRIS WHEEL
now lackin in paint

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life. You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities. You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself. Your near future is likely to be filled with great successes and accomplishments. You just need to figure out how to get there. For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

maybe that's why i'm always lost for a heading

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Feeling

You are: Able to make everyone feel comfortable and special Someone with a large social circle from all walks of life Supportive, encouraging, and truly happy when people around you succeed A great leader who gains loyalty and respect easily

What's Your Personality Cluster?

curse of the golden flower review

AINT TOTAllY worth the hype ...
to me

only watch it for the graphics and cinematography
you'll be surprised that ancient china has such fashion sense heh
all the more for eye candy

the storyplot is kinda shallow and over-used

i'll give 3.5/5

to date
BLOOD DIAMOND STILL reign in my list

in the mood

will u still love me in the morning?

angry post

my take on things

i have no freakin idea why some guys like to make comments abt gals they see on the streets
not just any comments but superficial and sometimes degrading comments
or comments that sound like the guys are being horny

i DO NOT FIND IT FUNNY
i find it as an INSULT TO GALS

By making those remarks
the guys are just viewin them as OBJECTS worse SEX OBJECTS with no regards to their feelings

i know gals make remarks but from what i heard most of the time they make POSITIVE remarks abt guys they see on the streets

hah

let me give an eg
"ooh that gal is wearin such short skirt later at escalator must stand underneath confirm can see what she's wearing"

WAT THE FUCK

cheap thrill of seein upskirt?
u have a psychological problem there
pls see a doc ASAP

if u say it some of the times or meant as a joke i can close an eye etc
u keep sayin in front of me
u fire the feminist trait in me

and i do not tolerate it
u are degradin the gals and TATS THAT

and I DO NOT LIKE TO WEAR SKIRTS
whats wrong with that?
cause i can wear my tops with skirts
and i do not want to wear tshirts with skirts
its SO FREAKIN BORING

tshirts and denim skirts are everywhere
i tried to buy something different even flew them from the states to make sure i stand out
and do i get any appreciation?

i "act class"
hah
at least i think i can carry it off
i try to dress more classy u say i act class
fine
i shall wear tshirts when out
and dress up for other occassions instead
others will appreciate it

u are the one WHO DOESNT BOTHER TO DRESS UP
dun dare say anythin abt me

and why do i have to call all the time to show i care? cant it be a quiet, "behind the scene" type of support?

i do not need u to call me all the time anyway
i am happy to recieve an sms or two per day
the rest of day i can find own things to do although most of the time i complain of boredom cause i am LIKE TAT
i get bored easily

aint it good?
we have time to persue our own stuff
we are together But we do NOT NEED TO STICK TO EACH OTHER ALL THE TIME

simple as that

i need space

a new friend is flyin off to BOSTON for studies again

hmm though not very familiar with him yet he's every friendly and helpful and kaki to talk to ..

and for u



its funny how things turn out again
but bon voyage nonetheless
enjoy your trip~

its been a lazy and relazin day .. just stayed home and watched drama with mum and sis and did some self pampering..

its not really me to do nothin yet sometimes its good to slow down the pace and indulge in some "free" time whereby i do nothing at all

shall have to rev up my engine for the new work year ahead!
bonus and recognitions always spurs me on heh

have to start my monthly budgeting again if not i will never save enough for anythin LOL

recap of NYE

pics from NYE
weekends was spent shopping and eatin
realised PLAITED skirts and cuff shorts are the IN thing now.. but kinda not suitable for it .. look too cutesy on me LOL

shall look around again .. need to get myself some CNY clothes soon

and pics from the weekends

went to this dainty jap restaurant
HONJIN
HIGHLY recommended .. no frills place yet its fresh and the staff are friendly and the portions are generous
i LOVE the sashimi~











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then mon went out with his sis for lunch at XIN WANG HONG KONG CAFE
for the famed hk snacks etc
to me
only the snacks are worthy the rest of the "creations" do not sit well with me or else they seem kinda bland
MUST try the "BO LOU BAO" and the "french toast"