my dear

i am not being sarcastic
i am not "pouring cold water" on u

but its the truth

u are too sensitive
u mistake ppl's little teasing for somethin else
u like to tease ppl yet thinks that there's nothin wrong
but when ppl teases u back
u think there's ulterior motive

u sway too easily
u are not easily contended

u are exposed more
your expectations are higher than before
YET ask yourself
"do u know wat u wan"

u cannot have the best of everythin
u can influence someone BUT
u cannot change someone
then
why did u fall in love with the person in the first place
two individuals when they are together
are to GROW TOGETHER
emotionally and all
yet if one is laggin behind
u feel that person is a hindrance
u are hangin him by the thread
u like it u pull him back
u dun like it or think there's a better catch u cast him far away

i have told u various times
U CANNOT DO TAT
DUN GIVE ME BULLSHIT
"WAT IF I AM LONELY"
everyone will have some lonely times now and then
u just have to replace that feelin with somethin else
Being ALONE and LONELY is different
do u question yourself whether wat u have been doing is right or wrong

if u feel no love
pls dun hold on
its not cruel
if u hold on
its more cruel to the other party
cause his feelings for u might deepen and the impact to him will be worse if u two really end it

pls
spare him the agony

sure
u can have a second chance, a second shot at patchin this relationship up
BUT IT CANNOT BE A ONE-SIDED AFFAIR
HE GIVES U TAKE AND LEAVES IT AT TAT
both must put in the effort

guys need all the security and assurance too and your trust

u cannot ASSUME
"oh i go out with guys he sure will not mind"
all guys will have some jealously streak in them
its a matter of HOW DEEP their jealously is or how well they conceal

so now u wan another shot at this relationship
pls talk to him
tell him wat are the problems and try to resolve it
if not he wouldnt know how to cope or adapt to u

two ppl can grow together
just have to adjust the pace
if not
u have to find someone else with the pace u desire

u should know in the first place
when u got together with him
u will have to wait longer than other ordinary couples

and no more CRAP ABT BEING LONELY

then wat about other singles?
despair like u?

isnt it such a waste of youth to keep despairin or envyin others?
u envy others who have this have that
its either u give him more time to achieve those qualities
or u find someone who's readily equipped with what u wan


i will wait for mine
cause
i love my man :)