my dear

i am not being sarcastic
i am not "pouring cold water" on u

but its the truth

u are too sensitive
u mistake ppl's little teasing for somethin else
u like to tease ppl yet thinks that there's nothin wrong
but when ppl teases u back
u think there's ulterior motive

u sway too easily
u are not easily contended

u are exposed more
your expectations are higher than before
YET ask yourself
"do u know wat u wan"

u cannot have the best of everythin
u can influence someone BUT
u cannot change someone
then
why did u fall in love with the person in the first place
two individuals when they are together
are to GROW TOGETHER
emotionally and all
yet if one is laggin behind
u feel that person is a hindrance
u are hangin him by the thread
u like it u pull him back
u dun like it or think there's a better catch u cast him far away

i have told u various times
U CANNOT DO TAT
DUN GIVE ME BULLSHIT
"WAT IF I AM LONELY"
everyone will have some lonely times now and then
u just have to replace that feelin with somethin else
Being ALONE and LONELY is different
do u question yourself whether wat u have been doing is right or wrong

if u feel no love
pls dun hold on
its not cruel
if u hold on
its more cruel to the other party
cause his feelings for u might deepen and the impact to him will be worse if u two really end it

pls
spare him the agony

sure
u can have a second chance, a second shot at patchin this relationship up
BUT IT CANNOT BE A ONE-SIDED AFFAIR
HE GIVES U TAKE AND LEAVES IT AT TAT
both must put in the effort

guys need all the security and assurance too and your trust

u cannot ASSUME
"oh i go out with guys he sure will not mind"
all guys will have some jealously streak in them
its a matter of HOW DEEP their jealously is or how well they conceal

so now u wan another shot at this relationship
pls talk to him
tell him wat are the problems and try to resolve it
if not he wouldnt know how to cope or adapt to u

two ppl can grow together
just have to adjust the pace
if not
u have to find someone else with the pace u desire

u should know in the first place
when u got together with him
u will have to wait longer than other ordinary couples

and no more CRAP ABT BEING LONELY

then wat about other singles?
despair like u?

isnt it such a waste of youth to keep despairin or envyin others?
u envy others who have this have that
its either u give him more time to achieve those qualities
or u find someone who's readily equipped with what u wan


i will wait for mine
cause
i love my man :)

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some gossips

gossipin abt navy regulars over lunch LOL

i have colleagues who have navy regulars as bfs and husbands
and honest ones too

navy ppl are "notorious" in a sense
by mentionin the word "navy regulars"
the word "flirtatious" comes to mind

not to me
but to many others around me who felt that way

cause they can find ALOT of reasons N excuses to do ALOT of things behind your back

better to be save than sorry
not condemnin them .. if they have nothin to hide
no matter what u ask, they have nothin to fear

ignorance is NOT bliss in this sense

:)

so far my colleagues have been copin very well
i admire their determination and independence
even if it meant irregular hours, less meetups etc
but it meant alot of time management and TRUST

guys will be guys
they will always talk abt gals
look at gals
talk about sex
wat matter most
at the end of the day
their heart must not WAVER
and they must not be TEMPTED
and they are ours

and i am possessive of my guy :P

fancy rainbows? 3 in stocks only ~

fancy some puffy heart earrings?
handmade with love
$2 per pair choose the colours u wan ~

some articles

came across this article in HER WORLD

DARE TO DATE AGAIN

a sentence i found particularly useful

how do u know u're ready?
U have to love yourself before others can love you
U have to learn to be totally comfortable with being on your own

Learn to be alone so U will never be lonely
ENjoy your own space

Keepin an open mind

FInALLY

The bigger goal is not to find a mate but to reclaim your life and to Enjoy it

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and another

Dont outlive your savings

Blunders not to be made

-YOUR man is your financial plan
no man is an island
u have to know what policy plans u intend to take up as a couple or individual
In case if your relationship breaks down or owe huge amounts of debt

-Startin too late
should start when u nail that first job

-Thinkin that property is liquid
it cannot be readily converted into cash
unless u do mortage

-Not keepin check on policies
u need to revisit at various stages of your life

-Relyin on employers for health coverage
need to plan for worse case scenario

and so .. its better to depend on ownself for own financial well-being

:)

new week new start

Big Money

Life is gradually calming down, GERALDINE, whether you want it to or not, although the presence of Mars in Scorpio is still firing you up with intensity and passion. The chase isn't over yet if you happen to be hot in pursuit of a goal or a person. The gleam in your eyes can still mesmerize and hypnotize the best of them, so enjoy playing the game while you can. Meanwhile, Jupiter has moved into your personal financial zone, as have the Sun and Venus, which is bound to interest and affect you. You will probably find that the golden financial opportunities you have been dreaming of over the past year will gradually begin to come to fruition. You will have more faith in your ability to make money and probably more reasons to spend it. You may also want to use any financial gains you do reap to invest in learning and travel so that you can experience life from new perspectives. But you will have to make a concerted effort to save money, as it won't come naturally. Take it easy on Tuesday, as pressures associated with your job and misunderstandings at home may scuttle your plans for the day. Don't go on a spending frenzy on Sunday.

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how i wish its true..
but anyway
i will LOOK FORWARD TO IT
lol

RECAP weekends

recap

went BIRDPARK ON FRI LOL
yea
i seem silly
took a day off
but its alright
cause i dun like weekend crowds
and there's nothin much else to do around in spore

BUT it rained and rained
so cut short our expedition LOL

then had seoul garden buffet .. :P
and did i say we can eat ALOT?
we had like 4-6 plates of meat LOL
and the table beside us?
they shared around a plate of vege and a plate of meat
hmm...
so wats the pt of havin buffet when u're only gonna eat a plate?

then went back home
emotionally and physically satistified
i meant my stomach LOL

and SAT was grandpa's 83 birthday!
dear accompanied me back home and laze around till dinner then went Bukit batok to have dinner with relatives
dear and i bought a cake for grandpa LOL luckily we bought a big one
cause it was barely enough for 26 of us

well as usual
the USUAL questions
"when are u gonna get married?"

"havent earn enough" will be my ans
LOL

heh

sun went out with dear and his mum
went chinatown to queue for that famous yong tao hu..
gosh took us half an hr to order

then walk around people's park to shop
quite a happenin place now hahahah

night was FISH steamboat at kovan
GOOD! and cheap too hee
20 for a steamboat
the chilli crabs are good too

and so my day's full of food again

i really need to diet this week -_-"

new tinkerbell update(Both pendin~)

and more earrings updates!

UPDATES!

new tinkerbells! and RAINBOWS !

pls visit

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update of carebear pendants PRE_ORDER

Big Care Bear Charm(loop at back, 1.1inch tall)
Grumpy,GoodLuck and Cheer bear~
plus 16inch chain
$20


Small Care Bear Charm (loop at top, 0.9inch)
Cheer, Love-alot and WIsh bears~
plus 16inch chain
$16

anyone interested pls place order with me NOW
leave a comment statin which bears u are interested in
for the BIG CARE BEARS
its temporary out of stock, shall have to wait for restock

Civil servants to get 2.2 months year-end bonus

no more christmas presents for myself this yr

must control..

good things worth the wait

i received a singing bear today
from my ANGEL

thats so sweet and warm ^^ brightened up my day amid the gloomy weather

Rainbows~

get your very own rainbow here~

$10 for pendant
$14 for necklace~

its 4X1 cm

not feelin so good

lethargic and my tots are messed up..
hmm ..

yet i wan to go out

feeling

BORED

nothin seems to excite or arouse my interest nowadays
findin new things to do ..
such mundane life..
should be content
yet its becomin routine
and i dun like it

christmas gift ideas!

tinkerbells~ $16 each

length of chain




clear version!
$13 each!

version 1 is sold!
version 2 is $15
heart is around 1.5 inches
big couple charm is 3cm high


short chain LOVE necklace
$12
ONE only~

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help me promote too will ya?

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a classic

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and i cant help to comment on my friends
i dunno
i'm concern and this is how i show concern
to talk it out

i like to comment
and i wan to comment and i cannot keep my mouth shut
i know
i shouldnt be bothered abt so many things

maybe i should take such an approach
i see i hear i understand can already
but it doesnt work this way

for me that is

at least i bothered to say somethin
then keepin quiet and let u sink into oblivion

and maybe i am have no stand in sayin such things

so u cant stand my sarcasm
dun be my friend

cause for my friends whom i care
they will know

MAJOR IRRITATIONS

i think i got irritated easily again

pls
save yourself future troubles
stop all contacts
till u SURE U CAN SEE HIM AS A FRIEND
or he's without that GAL IN HIS MIND

u know the situation
and u are lettin yourself to sink into it

WE SHOULD NOT LET GUYS MANIPULATE US

we are CREATORS OF OUR OWN DESTINY
AND ITS NOT FIXED
DUN GIVE ME BULLSHIT

Poor so?
cannot be rich one day?

dun have deg?
cannot have deg one day?

who bloody despise others will be despised.

and u shant bother abt tat
but
if others SAY BAD THINGS ABT U
i dun believe in KARMA
I BELIEVE IN SCOLDIN TAT BLOODY BASTARD

MOVE ALONG

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along


i am gonna say it again
U DESERVE BETTER

some angry words are best kept to myself

UNWILLINGLY

new works 19/11

heart is 1.5 inches





mutli-strand earrings
with intricate detailed heart, lock and key
and a crystal



Multi-strand bracelet
with white moonbeads
simple yet attention grabbin


gold key earrings


Clear crystal heart charm
refer to previous PINK crystal heart charm
with rhodium chain, does not tarnish easily
for the simple YET statement piece


LOVE necklace
short silver chain
with heart clasp~
$12

interested pls leave a comment~
cheers

its been a rainy and lazy day..

hope u all had a good weekend
over and out

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SINFUL

Buy of the week

one the the best chocolate cake i ever tried
not too creamy not too sweet
and its chocolate FUDGE not cream

choc cakes i like

-COffeeCLub Express
-NYDC
-TCC

the rest too creamy for me

anyone wanna go coffeeclub express with me?

self made rainbow

there's the thing called
SEEDIN THE CLOUDS FOR RAIN and after THE RAIN
u can see further across the horizons
and u will get
YOUR VERY OWN RAINBOw

DO NOT just sit and WAIT AND BE CONTENT WITH WATEVER IS THROWn AT U

u deserve better

New works
new treasures

heart me~

i have it in pink and clear ^^
$13 each plus heart clasp
heart is 1.5 inches tall length of chain falls just below bust
chain is rhodium.. will not tarnish easily too

2 each hurry hurry ~

ramblings

there's NOTHIN TO DO today
argh

not that i dun wan to do things..
now i miss my hectic schedule

i must be silly ..

today's freezin cold, layered myself still not enough luckily it stopped rainin

gonna meet sharon later to bring her see stuff
heh

i feel like makin more things

i just need TAT BIT of inspiration



***************
hmm was readin abt some young mummys' blogs
and they are YOUNG
around 18-20

my gosh.. i chanced upon them in a forum ..
not that i have anythin against them

just that they always write their baby is everythin or content being a housewife

i can NEVER imagine myself as a housewife
and other reasons?

1)i will be bored
2)i dun have own finances ..
3)i like being busied and being with ppl

so.. yar i know how big a sacrifice my mum made when she gave up her full time job to look after us..

she was sayin she's happier after workin even if its just part-time..
more interaction and her temper became better ^^ and her thinking became more "updated" too LOL

and its like after hitting my twenties
feels i'm closer to mum
i know she likes company and she gets bored like me
so ...
i made a monthly agenda to entertain my MUM :P

she will not say she wants to go out but if i suggest to her
she will agree readily LOL

like yesterday night
she came back with the flowers and said alot of ppl commented on the flowers
can see she's grinnin LOL
like me
she likes attention
like mother like daughter

and she's at her happiest when she eats :D

oh if u see me not replyin on msn .. it's because workload's increasin ..
not tat i am arrogant or ignorin u

BUT i am not complainin
hahahha
i am WORKIN for my money
its true my hrs are flexi but i dun feel good if i have nothin to do ..

so .. been on my feet these few days.. made me missed a lunch or two.. but i am satisfied ..

contentment comes from helpin ppl achieve wat they wan with my BABIES

so i have 4 BABIES now
shall divert all my TLC to them

and i'm feelin restless again..
i wanna go wala .. i wanna go mount faber
i wanna go take cable car take in the night view
i wanna go TOP of the M see the city view
i wanna go sip coffee
i wanna go snorkellin again
i wanna go travellin
i wanna learn new crafts

i wanna someone to talk to me ..

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and i wanna my friends to stand up again on their own feet
on their own accord

its ok to fall
wat matters is u can pick yourself up

Mum's birthday

these few days were ordinary
nothin fanciful
nothin worth to talk abt

yesterday went shoppin for mummy's present
she wanted earrings

so i searched.. and scrutinized and fianlly got her a pair of butterflies

i know .. she will say dun spend too much on her ..
but SHE'S THE MUM
dun spend on her spend on who else?
everyone likes to be pampered
i like too
u give i take
and i will thank u
i will not be so hypocritical and say "ah u shouldnt have " and try to return to U LOL

wat matters most is u accept it sincerely and say your thanks
dun refuse gifts

then today
wanted to consolidate with dad whether to get her a cake, so i called home
mum pick up phone first
i said i wanna talk to dad
first word came out " dun buy cake ah"
and so .. she knows my masterplan LOL

well she said no cake..
so i went and saw and bought roses~
and i hand delivered it to her workplace hahahhahaha
i must have look so silly to hold the flowers and walked right in

she had a good laugh and asked why bring it there
why never leave at home

but that's the pt of havin roses
to be seen
and be appreciated

wat matters is she likes it

no distance too far for me
and i took an hr to deliver oops stupid bus made me wait



oh and mummy's back heh

carryin her flowers

first tarot card

though i tell myself not to belive
but this is the first card i picked up

THE EMPRESS

LOL

GST to be raised to 7%: PM Lee

for u

thanks



i told u its good stuff :)

to my gal

i do not know wat to say to u

wat's said is said and all had been said

we will wait for u to pick yourself up

i think i get irritated easily
i am sorry
not that i dun care

i just see yourself gettin withdrawn further into yourself
and blamin yourself etc

u already know wat the outcome "might" be
so its up to u

and i dun think i wanna go tarot reading

someone said

WE ARE IN CHARGE OF OUR OWN DESTINY
and by NOT knowin the destiny
its open to MORE POSSIBLITIES

and u said destiny can be changed
so if it HAS to be changed
change it for the BETTER

i'm not good at consolin ppl
i am good at scoldin ppl

MUST get it out of my mind

not directing at anyone

its just some ramblings on my own

we have our self worth
and havin a guy should INCREASE OUR SELF WORTH
not to put ourselves down ..
NOT TO DEPRECIATE OUR WORTH

and MUM was encouraing me to
HOLD MY STAND
BE FIRM with my guy LOL

cause mum dun believe being a xiao nu ren herself
she holds her own beside my dad
and never BEHIND

a new week a new start

a blank page

waitin for me to fill up

new works 12/11

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I am THINKING abt it

Siying's BD

celebrated my club's friend's birthday yesterday .. all the way at changi ..

met up some old friends.. and we talked and talked ..
abt relationships and future abt jobs and finances ..
its been good.

and so it shall be it

Breaking Free

decided the previous post and vid sounds depressing
leaving aint a bad thing after all

all the best ALFRED
bon voyage and take care in thailand

and thanks to my dear HS for introducing this to me

heh



there's no sky that we cant reach

PS with SHaron

out with sharon
two vain gals
heh
we're youthful wat

My CHemical Romance-THe ghost of u

MY NEW OBESESSION

was out with colleague when she brought to attention abt this band
heard some of the songs..

i LIKE ~

sigh.. eyebags coming out ..

been havin late nights this whole week which ended almost 11-12
but i'm not complainin heh
feels good to be busy

MON- accompany dear to hospital
TUE- TCCing with colleague
WED- new creations
THU- buy present with sharon
FRI- go gai gai with MZ?
SAT- CHALET~!
SUN- go shop mummy's present

hee

another late night

and it results in this two pieces and i have new tinkerbells!

somethin to perk me up on a draggy afternoon !
LOL

full blast the vol

if u are my friend
u will know i can be critical with my words .. esp words of advice

though i aint no saint or aint u
but this is wat i feel ..

and i hope u take into consideration

for my bro
if u are readin this..
u are my friend tats why i stand on your side
and give u pointers on wat u can do
BUT
seriously i have this to say

TREAT THIS AS A LESSON
use this experience wisely and DO NOT REPEAT AGAIN

your gf is so quiet and humble and patient and SHE DOESNT TALK BACK
where can u find a gal like tat?
watever u do she follows
watever mean things u do she take it
watever mean words u say she swallow it down

and SHE KNEW ABT YOUR OTHER PARTY and she took it as well
even calmly ask u to choose

and now she's gone
cause U DUN EVEN KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE HER after she GAVE U ANOTHER CHANCE
its no use tellin her how much u care for her etc how much u did
wat u did
SHE DID MORE FOR U

and she DID CONSIDER THE TIME TOGETHER with u
and SHE DID NOT TREAT IT LIGHTLY
come on
4 yrs plus is long enough
she just had enough
let her be
give her the freedom
give her a new lease of life
DO NOT BLAME THE OTHER GUY
he was there for her when u were so mean to her
he didnt brainwash her
why cant u think that he's her support when u try to bring her down?
she's quiet by nature and will still be
just tat now she's resolute abt her decision

its too late to keep talkin abt the past
its THE PAST

watever had been done IS DONE
pls LOOK FORWARD
now u are single
just take this moment to enjoy singlehood
enjoy your freedom
relaz
why hurry to be attach again
u are ONLY 22!
wats the hurry?
u wanna get married asap?
why not get together your finances first then start to date?

dun be vengeful
dun feel regretful
its not all lost

it had been a good journey together for the two of u

why fear singlehood?
there's so many singles out there
they are still livin their lives

go out with your friends
find some hobbies
dun have to watch tv all the time or just listen music
play games or somethin

or else u can go back sch and help out SU ..

there are tons of things to do

its a matter of FINDIN WAT u wan to do

TCC

vids for the day

SOmebody to love
after hearin from the "HAPPY FEET" ad

and
i watched NANA the movie LOL

can i just walk on..

new works .. take a look~