was readin a forum and one of the thread is " Do u ever regret goin into your current relationship?"
For me ... it's no...although sometimes when we had big quarrels in the past i did contemplating endin it but ...we hang on...love can be rekindle... love cannot be taken for granted and its MUST NOT be out of "habit" to be together ..if not that is considered companionship already
if one feels there's no more love and its just out of habit or convenience tat keeps the relationship goin ...there's no pt in keepin it ...the longer u drag the more both parties suffer and by the time it end...there's too much to regret
even though sometimes i envy ppl with bf's outside of NS or seein my friends gettin hitched and walkin down the aisle... i will tell myself.."i chose this path and will try my best to stick to walkin down it"
no point enyin so i always try to make do with wat i have...^.~
now dear's in NS i feel tat we cherish each other more esp during the short weekends we have together ... mummy thinks i'm spendin too much time with him ...BUT its the least i can do for him for now...i'll try to fetch him when he book out or send him when he book in ...although its abit heart-wrenchin to see him off...but i know he wans me and likes me to send him off so i dun mind the travelling the distance.. alone back home...
my dear's someone very loving and needs alot of attention ..haha sometimes when i talk to other guys and dun talk to him he'll sound irritated or will try to grab my attention haha i know he's just bein jealous ...
like me when he talks to other gals but then i tink i know alot of his female classmates already haha so i dun feel jealous anymore
my dear will msg me every mornin without fail after he wakes up or after breakfast when he has the time and will msg me throughout the day when he has the time ...he'll update me on his progess and trainin and i'll cheer him on ! i know he needs alot of emotional support now so tats wat i'm doin .. keep his spirits up let him know i'll support him
and if there are long breaks in the day he'll call me ...even if he doesnt talk alot on the phone its nice to hear his voice ~ makes me feel i'm still on his mind ... still part of his life ^^
dear just went for field camp...7 days without contact ...feels kinda wierd without hearin his voice ... on fri night durin admin time he called me and was on the phone for almost 1/2 hr ~ cause he wans to hear me if not next 7 days no contact ... must "accumulate" first he said haha
then on sat mornin before he left he called me around 5 + to say his goodbyes...haiz ... me heard his voice feel so sad and lonely already ... hopefully dear takes care of himself ..
so in the meantime i am catching up on my social life and forging more friendships
A person cannot do without FRIENDS too hee
not makin use of friends but sincerely trying to make friendships work out well ^^
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