i am... lost for words

J Status Roll Video ft. Rihanna & Shontelle

just got myself into reggae mood!
i LOVE THEIR HIP SWAYIN!

suffered from a small bout of food poisoning
argh and tml goin grandpa's place where he will cook buffet style..

have to control my food intake..
i lost weight from my bottom..only
i still cant manage to shed the weight from the upper half ARGH..
i think i look so triangular now LOL -_-" tsk tsk ..

thinking of watching.. THE SUNSHINE..

anyone interested?

heard a friend is set for AUSSIE for studies.. he's going straight into 3rd yr! so good right! one yr to get a degree.. envy envy.. but then again..
i still wish him all the best! heh

thinking of colouring my hair ....
to THIS

how's it?

dunno whether can get this colour anot anyway.. dyed my hair so many times .. NONE WORKED AT ALL

working hard to get a fairer complexion too..
just give me more time.. :P

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on a totally DIFFERENT
learnt of shuffling..
and then went to search for it
i admire those nifty footworks..LOL

SHUFFLING

edited ... refreshed ..

since i have the time
i am queuein for DONUT FACTORY later!
with a colleague who's been "addicted" to it like ME heh

its always good to have someone around ..
ARGH!! it was sold out the moment i got there..
oh well.. shall queue on another weekend.
went shopping with colleague.. bought some MARKS n SPencers biscuits and chocs in preparation for EASTER for my colleagues hahahah
maybe some will find its a waste of money..
just as long ppl around me are happy
i am happy :)

i think i got sucked into some NEGATIVE BLACKHOLE
have to pull myself out and stay out!


Prayer- Disturbed

soothing sounds for my soul

Garbage - The World Is Not Enough

The Cranberries- Daffodil Lament(live)

i just feel like an empty shell now..

had enough sleep.. or so i thought yet still not enough..
interrupted sleep or else fitful nights puntured with dreams or snippets of nightmares

what else will befall onto me before "they" decided to call it quits and leave me at peace?

must i resort to knockin myself out to get that rest i am craving now?!

what's wrong now?!

i hate myself for hanging around still... but i cant help it

funny thread..

from STOMP

free can read through...
definitions of TWIT ..causes and effects LOL

Is ur GF twit???

"Twit refes to a silly, annoying, ineffectual, and/or imbecilic person.Nowadays i see many singaporean girls especially schoolgirls turning into twits. Any of u experience ths kind of girls before? u know the type where even when they speak to u they act cute over excessively.they do it so much it irritates the hell out of u and u wish they just bugger off.eg they speak in this type of gibberish "Moi misch u" [meaning "i miss u"]."

LOL its getting so common out here..
i aint surprise .. i know some guys like that
some gals like doing that
some gals are BORN like that ..

so are u one or can u stand one?
some explanations from the guys in the thread

and there's even websites dedicated to "promoting the twits among us "
www.museum-of-twits.blogspot.com

LOL

oops i sound so mean ..
but then again
just as long as they dun irritate me i am fine with the twits around
its usual to see some twits here and there.. i aint despising poly students but i DO get to see MORE twits in POLY than in JC..

its either their command of english or their way of "attracting" attention to themselves..
some gals do it cause they think its cute or will "attract" guys to them .. or sound like some damsel in distress..

or else they wanna gain favours from the guys.. act like a damsel and guys will swarm over to show their "egoist" or "macho" side hahahhahaha

just my personal views ..

being cute is one thing .. ACTING CUTE is ANOTHER

i DO have galfrens who speaks like that BUT that's because its THEIR NATURE.. and i am alright with it heh

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Radiohead - Let Down

Transport, motorways and tramlines,
starting and then stopping,
taking off and landing,
the emptiest of feelings,
disappointed people, clinging on to bottles,
and when it comes it's so, so, disappointing.

Let down and hanging around,
crushed like a bug in the ground.
Let down and hanging around.

Shell smashed, juices flowing
wings twitch, legs are going,
don't get sentimental,
it always ends up drivel.
One day, I am gonna grow wings,
a chemical reaction,
hysterical and useless
hysterical and

let down and hanging around,
crushed like a bug in the ground.
Let down and hanging around.

Let down,
Let down,
Let down.

You know, you know where you are with,
you know where you are with,
floor collapsing, falling, bouncing back
and one day, I am gonna grow wings,
a chemical reaction, [You know where you are,]
hysterical and useless [you know where you are,]
hysterical and [you know where you are,]

let down and hanging around,
crushed like a bug in the ground.
Let down and hanging around.

my seduction style

woh i dun even know i'm THAT hahahahah

wanna try?
i have a strong sense of self BUT i dun find i am sweet LOL
oh yea drama is my forte
hahahah a

LUSTING FOR

MOZART CHOCOLATES!!

i tried those when i was in Europe and was so elated when i managed to find it here.. BUT its kinda costly..
so any kind soul wanna buy with me?

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and i finally received his call after 5 days outfield.. made me worry for some time but at least i have his assurance that everything's fine..
shall have to endue the second round of outfield soon
kinda heartpain to hear it but then he has to pull it through himself and he will .. as always :)

Finding the Sweet Spot..

coincidentally
the book that i am currently reading got featured in STRAITS TIMES today LOL

some quotes
-Discovering this often-hidden inclination fosters long-term career gratification
-too many ppl operate at quarter-spd, unsure of their place in the world, contributing too little and still feeling they have not come close to their potentioal. But when they find their "sweet spot", productivity explodes

and another book that aroused my interest

Daniel Pink-A whole new Mind

apologies

i apologise to jun for all the harsh words today.. realising i really DO take it too seriously..
cause in the end its HER life
and i wanna be there for her in times of trouble, happiness or sadness
i do not know why..
i just have the affinity for her.. no matter how many times she had "disappointed" me with her actions or behavious cause i realise..
i am gauging her by MY standards.. and not realising from HER pt of view..
i am NOT HER
i can only TELL her how i feel and she should know how to handle her own life

Maybe i aint much in her life
or YOUR life..

i do take it seriously and cherish it
no matter what happened in between.. cause i believe
a strong link no matter how distorted or shattered will stand the time..
unless she gave up on me first..

like everyone out there too..
i know i aint good with words
i aint perfect
i have my mistakes
but i'll learn
though i might disagree with you lots of times
please do not take it too heart
i just cant help it

i just need some assurance
that i am worthy to be your friend

and someone to lim kopi with :D

i am glad

cause i made ppl glad today
not that i am complaining about the queue :P

i am just exaggerating
and i DO have MORE free time than most ppl i know hahahah

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and tyler's complaining already oops sorry
i am reading your book
AND learning new crafts from a book i borrowed today..

i cant fix my attention to a single thing for a long stretch of time..
i'll learn please be patient

hmm... i like this from the book
my interpretation
"ppl who dont have passions dont struggle
they struggle cause they feel there's SOMETHING there..that blank urge.. THE CALL"

THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS

"It Ends Tonight"

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

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Why~?

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lazy sunday..
spent talking to mum the whole morning plus my daily indulgence of current affairs..
studying CIVIL SERVANTS' pay increment issue..
blah..
their theory..
"more pay=more competent governing and more contributions"
isnt that very superficial then?

afternoon prepared cold soba noodles to sooth myself in this seethingly warm weather..
still debating whether to go JP library to indulge..wanna borrow some self-improvement books ..
if you know me enough.. i do not really fancy fiction book maybe that explains my lack of imagination LOL
i prefer history or philosophy books or self-improvement books
something that i can relate to..hahahaha but still i find i'm not getting any smarter -_-" oops

another day....
the same old me

DOnuts!

contents of one of the boxes

my fav! double chocolate!

did a crazy thing today..

i ....QUEUED FOR 3 FREAKIN HRS TO GET THE DONUTS FROM DONUT FACTORY...
and to max out my efforts i bought 4 boxes LOL

worth the time?
WORTH IT.. heh especially when i saw the faces of the people i bought it for LOL
i am so damn proud of my patience

BUT... its not enough to satisfy my boredom...
argh..

oh yar i cut my fringe again..so how do i look? hahahah
the stylist said i looked cute.. i said i do not need the cuteness he just laughed
-_-" oops


bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..
bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..
someone ask me out please?
if not i think i go library tml
to curb my overactive mind ..
sigh...

"Beautiful Day"

The heart is a bloom
Shoots up through the stony ground
There's no room
No space to rent in this town

You're out of luck
And the reason that you had to care
The traffic is stuck
And you're not moving anywhere

You thought you'd found a friend
To take you out of this place
Someone you could lend a hand
In return for grace

It's a beautiful day
Sky falls, you feel like
It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away

You're on the road
But you've got no destination
You're in the mud
In the maze of her imagination

You love this town
Even if that doesn't ring true
You've been all over
And it's been all over you

It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
It's a beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Teach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

See the world in green and blue
See China right in front of you
See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the Bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light
And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
After the flood all the colors came out

It was a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
Beautiful day

Touch me
Take me to that other place
Reach me
I know I'm not a hopeless case

What you don't have you don't need it now
What you don't know you can feel it somehow
What you don't have you don't need it now
Don't need it now
Was a beautiful day

i aint in a good position to say much
i still hope u pick yourself up soon..
do not DONT KNOW about it..
U know..
just hang on..
it'll be over soon..

dun let yourself be a ticking time bomb..
dun force yourself BUT do not drag either..
U know alot of ppl care