what ifs...

the happiness articles that i read recently will come in useful
i need to find my HAPPY TRIGGER

CHILL anyone?

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Headlights On Dark Roads

For once I want to be the car crash
Not always just the traffic jam
Hit me hard enough to wake me
And lead me wild to your dark roads

Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cause I'm so tired of all this fear

My tongue is lost, oh, I can't tell you
Please just see it in my eyes
I pull up thorns from our ripped bodies
And let the blood fall in my mouth

Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cause I'm so tired of all this fear

Headlights... before me
So beautiful, so clear
Reach out... and take it
Cause I'm so tired of all this fear

Seeking Success

We think our choice is "either...or",
when "have it all" could bring us more.

What matters is not where you've been,
nor how you'd play some future scene.
It's not how you did what, or how,
it's what you're choosing here and now.

"What you give out, you'll get" is true,
but how and when's not up to you.

When one believes in what he'll do,
intent plus faith makes dreams come true.

Optimism boosts your chances
of finding happy circumstances.

The passion that you have inside
is not a thing that you should hide.

Just let yourself be what you are.
There's lots of Space, and you're one Star.

We would likely get more done,
if we made work seem more like fun.

A better measure of success
is not more wealth, but happiness.

Money's just a written score
for time and effort spent before.
We spend it like we haven't learned
what we have paid per dollar earned.

A simple secret for success
is demonstrating helpfulness.

To not "control" but just "allow"
will often work out best somehow.

You'll just attract the help you need,
when your intent's some worthy deed.

Remember, "What goes round, comes round"
as sure as what goes up comes down.
The deeds you do, both mean and kind,
get done to you sometime, you'll find.

Success might make a late appearance,
but it will come with perseverance.

Folks may find, when life is done,
they most regret not having fun.

TCCing with SHaron

self photos~

her Azuki freeze

with my Irish coffee

and Margarita coffee LOL
i know ..
all liqour coffee .. cant help it :P

Pathfinder was ALRIGHT
not really worth the hype or as much as i anticipated it to be..
though graphics still good.. kinda lackin in substance..
ALot of killing and gore
and sheer willpower

my guy

That guy
physically in taiwan, heart not in taiwan LOL
but i am ever so glad to hear him or see his msgs for most days~
it meant i am always in his heart or on his mind
though i reminded him of the cost
he said its worth it.. and that really touched my heart
and i like his attention too hee

though the distance made it disheartening and we also need more trust in each other
i am glad we got over the first week

and now there's 4 more weeks to go!
Ganbatte to US!

i am so in love with my guy~
and i like it keep it HOT

want to be happy? Inject fun in your life

i am SO DISTRAUGHT after losing the WHOLE ENTRY i wrote about this article ..

so here goes draft 2..

causes of happiness - affection, zest, work and family
causes of Unhappiness - boredom, envy, fatigue and fear of public opinion

IMPERSONAL INTEREST
= THINGS WE DO FOR PLEASURE and not attached with responsibilities
= wider perspective of the world
=antidote to fatigue
=keep a sense of proportion
= counteracts SELF-ADSORPTION
= reminds us there is much value in the world BESIDE US
= a source of happiness

time spent on pleasurable activities is not time wasted, its time invested.

so if you think pursusing something that is not "of use" to you is a waste of time and money

Think again.

"Not only will it make you happier, it will also make you more productive"

and nothing will be done if you dun get started and find one that suits you
do for the sake of liking it not for the sake of "Having to do it"

somethin to ponder

What is being in a relationship?
Why did you get into a relationship?
What did you get in a relationship?
What did you do in a relationship?
and lastly
Are you worthy for the relationship?









My Love

Ain't another woman that can take your spot my-

If I wrote you a symphony,
Just to say how much you mean to me (what would you do?)
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular (tell me, would you?)
Well, baby I've been around the world
But I ain't seen myself another girl (like you)
This ring here represents my heart
But there's just one thing I need from you (say "I do")

[Chorus]
Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Ooooh, girl
My love
My love

Now, if I wrote you a love note
And made you smile with every word I wrote (what would you do?)
Would that make you want to change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team (tell me, would you?)
See, what's the point of waiting anymore?
Cause girl I've never been more sure (that baby, it's you)
This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you've been waiting for (just say "I do")

[Chorus]
Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Ooooh, girl
My love
My love

[T.I. talking]
alrigh, itz time to get em J.T.
i dont know what she's hesitating for man...
[T.I.'s rap]
Shorty, cool as a fan
On the new once again
Still has fan from Peru to Japan
Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan
But if you got a man, try to lose him if you can
Cause the girls real wild throw their hands up high
When they wanna come kick it wit a stand up guy
You don't really wanna let a chance go by
Because you ain't been seen wit a man so fly
Friend so fly i can go fly
Private, cause I handle my B.I.
They call me candle guy, simply 'cause I am on fire
I hate to have to cancel my vacation so you can't deny
I'm patient, but I ain't gon try
You don't come, I ain't gon die
Hold up, what chu mean, you can't go why?
Me and you boyfriend we ain't no tie
You say you wanna kick it with an ace so high
Baby, you decide that I ain't your guy
Ain't gon lie ,I feel your space
But forget your face, I swear I will
St. Baths, Anguilla anywhere I chill
Just bring wit me a pair, I will

[Chorus]
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(Love) My love
(Love) My love
(Love) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(Love) My love
(Love) My love
(Love) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Ooooh, girl
My love

somethin to ponder

was just looking at TVMOBILE when travelling to work

the EMIRATES commercials never fail to bring a smile to my face

"WHen was the last time you did something for the first time"

cause life ..is to discover :)

it doesnt have to concern money
it can be anything from friends to emotions

so what about you?

what new things have you discovered regarding..
your surroundings?
your friends and families?
your passions?
etc

today was alright.. just did some maintenace and gotten some feedbacks
its good to hear my "babies" are doing alright..

BUT still i aint feelin the satisfaction from the job
am i being too slack?
the job duties too slack?
or the job isnt fulfillin?
or should i embrace the job and look at it from another point of view?

SOMEONE said HE doesnt have job satisfaction cause HE AINT DOING MUCH

maybe i should do more rounds or wait till its official online
and with more requests and jobs on the line
i'll be more occupied
and when i'm more occupied
maybe i'll be more satisfied and have less time to worry about such redundant stuff
cause
its like knowing i'm wasting my time when i should be out there earnin my keeps or learning more

many will envy my job cause of its flexibility
i aint complaining
just that..
it aint enough for me..
but yet i aint doing anythin more..
i am contradicting myself .. i know.. as usual..
i havent found my passion or niche yet..

maybe its time to intiate a GENERAL MEETING soon

i dont say much doesnt mean i have nothin to say

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first ramblings

taken from MR WANG's BLOG
read under this heading

Mar 15, 2007

On Life, Work & Study

my fav exerpt

"Two student archetypes dominate: the specialist and the existentialist. Members of the first category know exactly what they want. Without taking note of anything else, these youngsters dash to the business faculty's booth. They ask the delighted officer to admit them to a BBA in accountancy and extra courses in derivatives.

In contrast, the existentialist, clueless about his future, wanders around until some staff member grabs him. To appear less awkward, he mumbles a supposedly intelligent question, such as: 'What exactly is business?'

Both approaches to career planning are problematic in view of the national objective to raise innovativeness and job satisfaction. They lead either to premature closure or endless drifting. It is therefore imperative for students to take corrective measures at an early stage. They need to be supported by those who have a stake in their future, including parents, politicians and educators.

Students should start with the end and reason backwards to what needs to be done now. They need to plan their lives, not only their careers."

Its like those savings plan, you have an estimated amount in your mind after a fixed period of time then you work your way BACKWARDS
By saving an appropriate and proportional amount montly, you will be able to reach your end goal
Though life choices and career aint that straightforward, what matters is you START WITH AN AIM

Billy Bomber's!

went out mum and sis, thought of using the vouchers but realised it was valid from sun-fri only LOL
but anyway we already sat down so just proceeded to order
the vouchers will be used on another day instead -_-"

and i got myself some self-pampering kits..
saw the review in HER WORLD
i'm quite a sucker for mascara.. i love the way it opened my eyes heh

and i managed to buy another version
of CHOYA~ sparkling juice woh and it's good hee

shall review about the KOSE mask after i use it

i think i bother too much about others when they are not bothered about themselves
shall save myself from all the troubles
i dun even know why i get so agitated for..

are u just shutting yourself out?
seein the world with tinted glasses and ignoring all the possible dangers or hurt?

i shall not say again
i think i said all that i can be said
maybe what i said just fell on deaf ears
maybe what i said aint somethin you like to hear
maybe what i said aint what u wan to listen
maybe i should just listen and keep my mouth shut.. but i cant

its your life not mine
i think i sound like dictating your life telling you what to do ..

you do watever you wan

Happy Belated Birthday to HS

heh we never forget
we just never tell u only
wanted to give u a surprise
we do care abt you
hee
wanted to get you sunflowers too seein you have been bombared with work and feelin under the weather but i hope the daisy will do for ya

hope you'll be cheery soon

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on another note i can never accomplish one of the action on my TO-DO list
"shoppin ban" sigh..
but at least i tried to keep spending to the minimum :P

oh and Happy birthday tyler too
read that u had lots of fun LOL
drink LOTS of water it helps with hangover

and i bought a dress online -_-"
kinda into dresses now.. fuss-free

i love V-cut and babydoll LOL cause i cant see my waistline -_-" which isnt nice in the first place lol

and this glittery mascara..
as they said
"eyes are window to your soul.. "
i shall beautify my eyes to entice u to my world :P

Left on a jet plane

was reading cecilia's tagboard again :P

what's love rejuvenation?
what's love bonding?

(rejuvenation-2. to restore to a former state; make fresh or new again)
(bonding- a close personal relationship that forms between people)

what's your love style?
what's your relationship style?

like i said
different couple has different workings..

some gals preferred to be loved
some gals preferred to give all their love
some gals compromise with the other half and share their love among themselves

so which category are you?

kinda weird when someone said i am "hardworking" in my relationship
cause to me it sounds like "work"
relationship cannot be measure nor does it have a definite value to weighing the efforts done

to me its just a simple theory
i do whatever i like
and what i like is to make him happy
i know he does what he can to make me happy too
its like a merry-go-round theory
the harder u push the merry-go-round
the faster it spins
if there's no one pushing, it will eventually lose its momentum and stop

push=efforts done in this case
if he cannot be the pushing force
i will be the force
if we both give it a push
it will liken to giving relationship more momentum make it spin for longer period
there's no such thing as "enough efforts"
there's no limit on how fast or how long it can go
i just feel that
the more you give
the more you will benefit from it all too

so .. saying goes..
Do not take things for granted
what doesnt happen does not mean it will never happen
what is not said doesnt mean that nothing's to be said

speaking of which..

today's the day my dear left me for Taiwan again
for 5 weeks argh..

met him and his buddy and gf for dinner at RICE GARDEN at cuppage
then went back to pack his stuff
woke at 2am
reached airport at 3am
sent him off at 6+am
unwillingly..
took the train back and reached workplace at 8am

and so..
i will learn to live life without him.. for now
but he will always be with me

and for cecilia... your relationship style i conclude is like plasticine lol
flexible yet can be moulded into definite shape
can be together yet be different entities

shine -take that!

heh thanks to cecilia
something to light my spirits up~


You, you're such a big star to me
You're everything I wanna be
But you're stuck in a hole and I want you to get out
I don't know what there is to see
But I know it's time for you to leave
We're all just pushing along
Trying to figure it out, out, out.

All your anticipation pulls you down
When you can have it all, you can have it all.

So come on, come on, get it on
Don't know what you're waiting for
Your time is coming don't be late, hey hey
So come on
See the light on your face
Let it shine
Just let it shine
Let it shine.
Stop being so hard on yourself
It's not good for your health
I know that you can change
So clear your head ang come round
You only have to open your eyes
You might just get a big surprise
And it may feel good and you might want to smile, smile, smile.

Don't you let your demons pull you down
'Cause you can have it all, you can have it all.

Hey let me know you
You're all that matters to me
Hey let me show you
You're all that matters to me.

Hey let me love you
You're all that matters to me
Hey so come on yeah
Shine all your light over me.

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my emotions rise and fall as rapidly as the tides..
it can be calm and gentle and it can be like the torrents within the blink of an eye or just be onset by some words..
i know it aint healthy
but i'll try to contain myself
its hard..
i'll try..

i need some light
so do u and everyone else :)

new lean machine

finally manage to get my new lean machine from the onslaught of salesmen and the wide array of machines on display..



HP PAVILION DESKTOP PC
-Intel Pentium 2 DUO
-19"inch
-Windows Vista Premium
-1GB Memory
-250GB Hard drive
-Optical Keyboard and mouse
-15-1 reader
-nVidia Geforce 7300 LE graphics card

and its SLEEK BLACK

big hole in pocket but worth the investment..
and so i shall wait for its arrival

bo bian
i cant possible use my sis's laptop all the time
but at least now i can say proudly
"I'm a new owner too"

i dun even know what should be said what shouldnt be said
maybe i am too naive

i aint have a forgetful memory

i just wanted to forget what's meant to be forgotten
remember what i want to remember

i SHOULDNT CARE HOW OTHERS WANNA INTERPRET MY WORDS
ITS MY BLOG
I DO WHAT I LIKE

my weekends

at ease

in the light

HOEGARDEN "FORBIDDEN FRUIT"

Belgian "POT OF MUSSELS"


Azabu sabo followed by OOYSTERS and today DONUT FACTORy
his mum queued for more than 2 hrs for that..
yet i feel the weekends too short for me..

haven had enough..

the day of march 10 ended with a unhappy note..
its marks the day of the end of my little piggie..
but ..
i'm sure he had a good life ...
will miss the sounds and the funny faces it will made when its hungry..

makan sutra

out with jun on a gossip n food trip to esplanade
makansutra
sat beside DXO listenin to some of the crowd fav songs such as "chasin cars"
heh
free entertainment plus good friend beside
how good can it get?

and PLS
do NOT give in to that GAL
BE ASSERTIVE
she is CLEARLY INSULTIN U
BUT DO NOT NEED TO DEGRADE YOURSELF BY ARGUIN WITH HER..
not worth your effort
instead
do what i suggested
it works wonders ..
the POWER AND INFLUENCE OF THE PERSONAL BLOG