ramblings..

Read QT's recent post on "What makes you YOU?"
and also from the frequent brain washing commercials of the NAVY
"If your life were a movie, what would it be?"

made me wonder about myself too..
i'm still half floating around with no anchor..

maybe i really need to go and read QT's book for me
"What should i do with my life?"
or did i set my expectations too high, too unrealistic?
once you ventured out of your cocoon, its hard to fit back into the shell that once restrained all your fears..and hopes

maybe i should be more positive
higher expectations meant more satisfactions when i actually accomplish it
and by not being complacent meant more exploration and wider perspective

:P

anyone game for ..

SHOPPING?

i realised i have been wearing my LEvis Red tab ALL THE TIME -_-"
i need more jeans..

now i am LUSTIN over SKINNIES
anyone any recommendations?
<$100 please

somethin like this though not as high waisted


the other pair of levis cannot make it already .. and it's only 2 yrs old argh
now my current 27 seems droopy or else my butt shrank.. again ..
and i want more denim mini skirts and shorts
but not to work lar LOL
have to be covered up for work .. which is .. boring...

i wan a perkier butt leh .. someone teach moi
i'll be grateful :P

and i finally realised who his friends were referrin to when they said i resemble kyoko fukuda..
thinking of it .. it aint a good thing ..
should i cut my fringe too?

I will survive-Unexpected version

At first I was afraid, I was petrified
When you said you had 10 inches, Lord I almost died!
But I spent so many years waiting for a man that long
That I grew strong, and I knew I could take you on...

But there you go, another lie,
I was ready for a Big Mac and you've brought me a French Fry
I should have known that it was bulls***, just a sad path
Should have known that there was no Anaconda lurking in those pants!

I will survive!
I will survive!
Cos as long as I have batteries,
My sex life, it will thrive!

I will always have good sex,
With a handful of latex!
I will survive!
I will survive!
Hey Hey!..

...It took all my self control not to laugh out loud,
When I saw your little weiner standing tall and proud!
But to hell with all your ego and to hell with all your needs
Now I'm saving all my lovin' for a cordless multispeed!

I will survive!
I will survive!
Cos as long as I have batteries,
My sex life, it will thrive!

I will always have good sex,
With a handful of latex!
I will survive!
I will survive!
Hey Hey!..


LOL
cant wait to hear them sing!

another catchy tune i heard


and my MUST WATCH MOVIE OF THE MTH

300


A BLOODY BEAUTIFUL SHOW
the way i like it
"we will give them nothing but we will take from them EVERYTHING"

next MUST WATCH
PATHFINDER

Clipped

i feel.. my wings are being clipped somehow..
being clipped to reality
being clipped to sense of "responsibility"
being clipped to "social norms"

as much as i am a "rules abiding" person

i would LOVE to break a rule or two once in a while..
the excitement of going AGAINST something never fails to thrill me

the more you tell me what NOT to do..
the more i will WANT to try

temptation beckons me
unexplored territory appeal to me

and so i have to restrain myself..
UNLESS .. only those who know will know

i'm always cautious.. till i tried something new and my gaze and attention will be held till i find my next toy or interest that appeal to my senses again

currently got hooked to this catchy tune~
hey i listen RnB too :P
50 Cent-In Da Club


Smack That

a good friend was late but i kept my patience and temper in check, cant be feeling as bad as her right now..

she came 45 mins later and talked to her till 9+
got to know the whole situation
never said much, just analyse the whole situation and gave her my conclusions and she accepted my reasoning..
i never really blamed the other party
just told her what i think and what i assume will be the next steps..
at least its better late than never.. to find out what he did behind her back
two months..
the guy always reluctant to go out with her, to meet her, to bring her out to meet his folks or friends
even refuse to reply her msgs and calls
what kind of bf is this?
an irresponsible one or a sly one with a hidden agenda..

its alright
i'm always here
and u want fun?
i give u fun :)
we shall have some gals' nights out ourselves LOL

i think i became more subtle already hahahah
i thought i would lash out again, instead its better to keep calm and use my head instead of my heart for once

and so
promised to bring her go places
heh i think i have lots tricks up my sleeve yet
and lots of things which she hasnt explore yet
variety is good
:D



next stop

MUSIC THE WAY I LIKE
LIVE AND LOUD~

and for you
i know i posted this before
i hope you'll move along
what's past is past
even though its with lots of expectations, joy, heartache and disappointments
i hope you'll just leave this episode behind
you deserve better
do not trample yourself down


"Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along"
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and i am itching to take pictures again
argh
i need a decent camera...
need to wait for my next bonus to reward myself

whats worse than being dumped?

that will be
-knowing from his ex that they have gotten back together FOR SOME TIME (aka two-timing) you and seeing their INTIMATE PICS ONLINE
its like declaring to the WHOLE WORLD their love and making sure that she will see it
-asking him for an explanation and he kept quiet

SILENCE MEANS CONSENT
and therefore
GUILTY AS CHARGED

such a bastard
and when i thought they would be happily ever after he picks up his act and tried to be more responsive to her

looks can be deceiving
all the sweet talkin amounts to nothing..
all the promises made are just empty lies

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and i cant help posting this angry post
i cant help letting my emotions rule over me

if u make known your problem known to me
i will try my best to console you, to offer u alternatives or solutions
or be there for you
i will not laugh it off or just keep quiet..

cause that's what friends are for..

i will help you when you are in need
i will want you to help me when i am down too

the last day of CNY

have you done all your visiting? collected all your red packets?
on the overall.. had fun?
i had my share of fun and it wasnt enough to me
as my nick goes.. "haven had enough"
i like the cosyness of having lots of people around me, having my family around me
no matter whether they are close or not..or regardless how often or rare i meet them
cause ..
THEY ARE FAMILY
went to mum's side for visiting again at my grand-aunt's condo
heh another reason to collect red packets and see those long forgotten cousins that i never really recognise lol

but its all fun and soon we'll warm up to one another

then tonight mum prepared steamboat and LOU HEI! hahaha
second of the CNY period.. hmm i had thrice last year woh but its all for luck
LOU HEI MORE=more luck :P

family togetherness..
doesnt need alot of money to maintain, it just need alittle more effort on everyone's side
to sit down for a meal, to update one another on the happenings and just to gossip

and tonight
for the occassion, mum prepared "TANG YUAN"
hee
WISHING ALL "TUAN TUAN YUAN YUAN, EN EN AI AI" with your family and loved ones..


and for extra information
read THIS

night night everyone

there's no ideal relationship
its a matter of how you see and handle the relationship
and how much feelings and respect and also responsibility to the other party

there's no perfect gf as no one is perfect
its a matter or living with his/her faults

BUT i believe in UPGRADING a relationship
inclusive of the other party, knowledge, career, skills and character wise
what i want the other party to be, i'll try my best to lead by example

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and i believe in self worth
thats the most fundamental element to living
do not belittle yourself
you think you can make it, you WILL make IT

do not let others get in your way of accomplishments

and do not always think you can ride on the tailcoats of others
aint it better to be on par or even outshine the other party?

cause you only have yourself to answer at the end of the day

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love
Then you softly leave
And its me you need to show

How deep is your love?
How deep is your love?
I really meant to learn
Cos were living in a world of fools
Breaking us down when they
All should let us be.

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
Youre the light in my deepest, darkest hour
My savior when I fall

And you may not think I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do

How deep is your love?
How deep is your love?
I really meant to learn
Cos were living in a world of fools
Breaking us down when they
All should let us be.

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and HOW DEEP is YOUR love?

how do you show to the other half how much they meant to you?
or do you assume that they will just know it and be grateful and content?
its NOT a given right to be loved
its a not a matter of whether you can or cannot give
its a matter or whether you WANT to give or not
and its only appropriate to show some appreciation for what others have done for you like that way you will say "thank you" if someone opened the door for you ...
right?

when you want something
you have to HOLD onto it
nothing stays the same forever
you may argue that since nothing stays forever than whats the point of giving so much?
cause i believe ... by giving your best
at least you can look back and end it with no regrets as you have already done your best to keep it intact

i do not believe in being stingy with affections or praises or encouragements or mpney matters for people around me
be it friends, family and lovers..

everyone need some assurance and confidence boost every now and then

what goes around comes around :)

i'm shocked

Why kids need sex education?
Girl, 9, pregnant
Case of Primary 3 pupil cited by counsellor at youth forum amid concerns about teen pregnancy


THE Primary 3 pupil was just nine years old, but she was already six months pregnant with a 14-year-old schoolmate's child.
The memory of the distraught parents and child sitting in her NuLife Care and Counselling Services office in Little India three years ago still sticks in counsellor Sheena Jebal's mind.

The girl could well be the youngest pregnancy case in Singapore, judging by a Straits Times check with local hospitals, youth social workers, teen shelters and pregnancy helplines.

But though her case is extremely rare, it highlights ongoing concerns about youth pregnancy.

Figures on the ground indicate that thousands of teens are experimenting sexually, say youth social workers and counsellors.

Last year, Ms Jebal's centre alone came across at least 30 cases of teens having sex. The youngest male was about 12 and the youngest female about 13.

A Straits Times check with restructured hospitals here revealed that between 2000 and this year, the youngest female to give birth at KK Women's and Children's Hospital was 12 years old. The youngest at Singapore General Hospital was 14. The National University Hospital declined comment.

As required by law, they were reported to the police as cases of underage sex.

Ministry of Health figures for 2001 to 2005 show an average of around 1,500 teen abortions every year. In 2005, the exact figure was 1,279 and in 2004, the number was 1,341.

Nearly all the teens who aborted their babies in 2005 were between 15 and 19 years old and unmarried. Slightly more than half were Chinese and a third were Malay.

The figures go to the heart of a controversy over the issue of how early children should be exposed to sex education in schools.

Ms Jebal cited the example of the pregnant nine-year-old during a youth forum to counter the complaints of one participant, who felt her sister in Primary 4 was too young to start learning about sex.

Called 'Yes/No' Youth In Relationships, it was organised by Republic Polytechnic's Indian Cultural Group and Narpani Pearavai Youth Executive Committee last Saturday.

Ms Jebal said the nine-year-old had begun to experiment with sex with a schoolmate at home when her parents, both professionals, were at work.

Recounting the tense one-hour discussion she had with the family to The Straits Times, Ms Jebal said: 'Her parents taught her how to use a sanitary napkin, but didn't educate her about menstruation or sex.

'They felt she was too young to know at her age. There is no such thing as being too young to know,' said Ms Jebal.

Ms Tan Bee Joo of the Singapore Children's Society cited several areas of concern, including lack of adult supervision over the use of the Internet, where teens can easily access pornographic sites and 'meet' strangers online.

'It creates opportunities for children to chat with strangers, go on blind dates, sell their bodies for money to satisfy material wants,' she warned.

Also, many parents are not giving their children the right sexual knowledge or instilling proper moral values in them at a young age, she said.

Ms Tan, who is head of the society's Students Service Hub in Bukit Merah, said: 'We have many students asking many sexuality-related questions, which many adults would never have thought children at this age know.

'Children need to be taught to take responsibility for their own actions, but this should be accompanied by providing them with the right information.'

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another reason i feel its better to be open with such topics BEFORE they try to experiment on their own WITHOUT even knowing what it is

good things in life

what constitutes a good night's out?

good friends(the few chionging kakis)
good finger lickin food(Wala wala chicken wings!)
good beer(HOEgarden!)
good music(there's MUSE~)
good conversations(my friend's in finance)

was a last minute decision to go WALA WALA at holland

how last min?
msg came at 4+
called home at 5+ to cancel dinner
reached Holland at 7+
he came at 8+
went in at 9+

-_-" oops cannot do too often in case mum not happy with my absence and for wasting food

but i'll know my limits and mum will just let me go and have some fun

my meetups with my dear are usually last min decisions due to his NS committements but we have learn to deal with it and am still learnin to work around it hahahahah

its a matter of compromising..
like if he can only meet me at 8
that's alright to me... i'll just shop around.. cause to me its the thoughts that count
the thought of him WANTIN to meet me even for a few hrs touched me..as it meant crammin all his stuff in camp to squeeze some time out for me..
so i must make the effort to compile to his timing too..

relationship aint a barter
nor is it a charity

its meant to compliment your life~ fulfill your emotional needs

ramblings

sometimes..

not all that are countable MUST be counted
not everythin comes with a price
nor things that comes with a price are worthy

sometimes.. ppl do not need to set such clear boundaries..
its ok to be "blurred" under certain circumstances
not everything must have a "return" policy

sometimes its OK to give WITHOUT expecting any returns..
sometimes its the ACT itself and not the actual item that is more worthy
sometimes the item itself without the ACT might not seem as worthy

its good to plan far
BUT sometimes its better to leave some allowances for OTHER developements

afterall

we are logical, rational YET emotional beings..
and the future is uncertain

:)

how to write a resignation letter

Just Follow Law

Watched the movie last night after dinner at SOup Restuarant.


highly recommend the Samsui CHicken with comes with lettuce and cucumbers and their speciality ginger sauce.
i am not a seafood fan but since dad loves it so ordered tofu prawns for him which is cooked in chilli sauce similar to those of chilli crab hahaha

back to the topic..

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JUST FOLLOW LAW

pic from the official website
do not misuse..
this is for my own personal reference

Its about two civil servants with vast backgrounds and qualifications and different approaches to how things should be done..

after they exchanged bodies then they realised the kind of "troubles" each original character faced and the kind of effects their decisions brought about.


They became more understanding, more compassionate for either character and tried to resolve the predicaments faced by the individual previously and also the whole department



Some of the scenes were hilarious, etc the "BLACK N WHITE" and the "arrow shooting" parts


HOWEVER it does hold some truth in it..

With the various levels above you, you cant afford to make mistake and you have to gain many approvals before you can actually carry out some decision or action .. and to PREVENT some levels from misinterpreting your actions or to make sure your actions are being kept in the "KNOW", people will CC and BCC to various people.


IN CASE some of the superiors say "i did not know about that" and thus will try to push their responsibilties away leaving you to fend for yourself if it goes awry.

The movie also taught values like "Filial Piety"
By giving your parents money aint enough to qualify for "Filial Piety".
Ask yourself, when's the last time you sat down to really talk to them or listen to their worries and concerns or just to make some small talk or plain gossiping?
When was the last time you did something for them beside giving them allowances?
What parents want aint just fufilling their material needs, they have their emotional needs too.
Sometimes what they need is just someone to be there to listen to them...or just having a proper dinner together AS a family.

oh another thing that the movie taught.
"learning is a neverending process"
that's my signature sign-off in my email.
Always keep yourself updated, either in general affairs or your qualifications.
SPore has been importing so many foreign talent and its a matter of time whereby i THINK alot of industries will be runneth over by them.
THe caused the public to have its fears and thats why the government has been placing empasis on priorities on "its own people" when it comes to welfare and jobs to quell their fears recently.

Overall.. i like it.
Shall give it 3.5/5

now i should go back to pondering over what i want to do with my life..
i'm still lost for a heading..
and i have been saying that for the past months..
and i hate the predicament i am in.

ST JAMES!

made my maiden trip to ST JAMES!
will definitely go there again!
there are various themed rooms with various genres of music to suit your musical inclinations LOL

went in at 10+ came out at 3+ and i reached home at 5+
slept till 10+.. i tink i gonna concuss soon hahahahha
hey but i'm still sober when i left the room
just some harmless beer lol
went into BOILER ROOM which played LIVE music with the band playin to the likes of christina aguilera and they played "tainted love" and Pussycat dolls hahhahaha
now beer's gettin alittle boring..
cocktails or mixers anyone?
On the overall ..
i like~ the ST JAMES

and the crowd's quite tame heh
i wanna try the other rooms too!

any kakis interested?

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on another note
went tampines for kel's housewarmin..
no distance is too far to visit an old friend :P
we're the privileged few to his place too hahahahah
then it was to visit dear's army superior's place for potluck..
i think i click with some of his friends already ..
its always good to mingle and talk .. and learn along the way.. i dun like being a vase :)
like this i know what he's been doing and what he's like when he's with his friends..
i feel more of being part of his life..
call me nosy but i'm always curious hahahhahaa

after st james went serangoon with some of his friends for teochew porridge then went back to his place for the night .. logically speakin, his place is nearer mah -_-"

and this morn went dim sum with his family .. feelin.. FULL... my porridge from "this morning"
still not digested yet it seems..

booked tickets for a movie to treat my parents .. seems like they kinda bored at home hahahah

shall review the show afterwards..
have a enjoyable weekend! or what's left of it :)

and foodie pic ~

POTLUCK!

the long forgotten past

maybe i have irked a few people with my previous post..

i do not mean to condemn what others do ..

its what i feel and how i see things to be..

anyway ..

a friend exclaimed that i lost weight again .. i am always so glad to hear it...

why do i wanna do that? self discipline myself to control my diet, my food intake and to forgo some stuff i used to love?

cause i wanna prove others wrong..

i wish the gal who declared to me last time that "yar lor you're so fat .. u should feel like dying"

can see me NOW

i remember with a vengeance

maybe i should be like "rui xi" in hana kimi

carry an old pic to remind myself LOL

and for your eyes only

i promise to show u my prom pic .. blurry though

and now u know why i did not wan to attend poly's prom

i still shudders at the thoughts on how i looked for the last prom ..

now i can just look at my old pics and laugh at myself ...

lesson learnt

there's no ugly women, just lazy women

i am not declarin that i look fabulous or fantastic now..

i just wanna prove to ppl that

ppl can change.. do not CONDEMN ppl to be in a certain state forever..

be it looks or studies or characters..

its your day

or should i said
it WAS your day ..

just wanna wish u a BELATED happy 24th birthday ~
i'm not a person who can think of pranks -_-" i think i too honest for it LOL or else too boring for it so we tot of somethin more practical for the foodie Freak.. oops
u said so yourself :P the one that kept munchin.. without puttin on weight .. argh *envy* LOL

hope u're be blessed with all things bright and cheery this year~
and takin this opportunity to thank u for

-listenin to my rantings
-bearin with my animated gestures
-givin me insights
-givin me advice
-showing me concern
and
just being there :)

and as i said i dun like to talk on msn LOL
i prefer to just stand up to look at your pretty rosy face and talk
more personal..

and

sorry for being a bore at times or else being too self-absorbed -_-"
and for havin to do my share of the duties when i'm away doin my lab
hope i aint givin u any trouble

shall look forward to havin u around
it sure brightens the mood up~

and dun let unhappiness daunt u or distract your peace
we just do our part and get what we deserve .. no thanks to someone

[Love Letter] Bae Seul Gi Bokko Dance

if u play AUDITION
i think u will find the dance steps familiar LOL
now i am seriously suspectin that AUDITION dance steps are from HER



and there are 9 episodes in all
enjoy !



i wanna see REAL LIFE~! its be fun :P