with dear

went marketing with dear and he cooked steak for me hee

it was raining so plans to go fishing did not materialise

dear bought a little cake for me too lol and it was just eat and eat the whole time..

its been fun.. alittle too fast..

and its over before i know it..

but i'm glad for the company.

and dear found a job to work in the meantime.. its good and bad in a sense..

less time for me but more money for himself.

but i'm proud that he made the effort to do something while waiting for his school cause he promised to go TAiwan with me next year hee

My VSP

my dear colleagues today made me panicked, shocked, excited and so very happy today LOL

they made my dear boyfriend jealous and panicked too LOL

thanks so much .. its so sweet.. new doggie to doggie family.. hey i love dogs

2nd round at home

today went to book tickets for a short family getaway with mum then went to buy some sushi for tonight's dinner in addition to our pizza!





dear mum.. made my day~
and second one bought me a new bag just as i was contemplating getting one
and thus concluded my family celebration for me :)
family matters alot .. really.

with heartfelt gratitude

just wanna thank all who made the effort to join me in celebrating my birthday
its small and cosy but i hoped all enjoyed themselves too and thanks for the lovely presents and i hoped the gals liked their sweets heh
and the guys who liked their food & liqour

thanks!

sweets for the gals

not forgetting my dear

LAU PA SAT

first round!

Tonight! wait for pics~

mum gave me my first present of the year hahahah

new wallet~ i cant bear to use it yet >.<

some happiness notes

taken from the papers today

Our lives private and public, domestic and professional, has value only in proportion to the love we invest in them and find in them.

Anyone seeking salvation through a romantic relationship will be disappointed. With so many varities of love and so many legitimate objects of love, its a mistake to focus on one individual.

lust caution

finally got the watch the critically-aclaimed show.
its was.. slow yet intense and the "hyped" up sex scenes was such a disappointment, not that i purposedly want to see the scenes, just that it was so abrupt.
the most "patrotic" person was the most "gutless", all talk no action
i pity the "mak tai tai" the most.
she had to sacrifice the most too and had to endure on as "the mission had already started and there's no return"

during the show, you will understand why mr yee is so "violent" towards her due to his occupation and his skeptical nature.

and its so mesmerising to see their reactions and emotionally-charged eyes
i will always remember the last scene, whereby "mr yee" will sit on the bed and tears welling in his eyes.

3.5/5

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on anther note, i think i've better understand the boy and his game and his enthusiasm towards it.
its better to BE WITH HIM then to GO AGAINST it
hahahahha
save myself less trouble.

一人一半（合唱版）

一人一半 感情不散
一人一素故 感情才会久
时光累积 安静的泪滴
一心去追 爱那么可贵

这样的人 这样地等
无非是 等个回应眼神
为爱翻滚 不计伤痕
甘心为你一生都浮沉

这样的人 别笑我蠢
傻傻的 心痛也不觉疼
就算天冷 就算残忍
等你想起这没用的人

一人一半 感情不散
已经找到爱 为何要离开

时光累积 安静的泪滴
一心去追 爱那么可贵

这样的人 这样地等
无非是 等个回应眼神
为爱翻滚 不计伤痕
甘心为你一生都浮沉

这样的人 别笑我蠢
傻傻的 心痛也不觉疼
就算天冷 就算残忍
等你想起这没用的人

一人一半 感情不散
已经找到爱 为何要离开

maybe i think too much again

the boyfriend has been very patient with me, giving in to all my nonsensical thoughts again

maybe i should loosen up abit, enjoy life as it is, enjoy life with him as it is.

i might be doing comparisons or "stressing" him unconsciously when i talked to him casually about topics that has been revolving around me recently

in the end

we should just follow the pace that is comfortable for BOTH of us.

he never really interfere in what i do so i shant do it and restrict him to "that mentality of mine"

and like he said again

"what i think aint right doesnt mean it aint right"

i know he has his limits and he tries his best to make up for it with his actions and little gestures.

i should be glad of that... and I AM

ponderings

sometimes i wonder if i am really wrong to think the way i do

why do you just want to be like "everybody else"

and you'll say i'm unsatisfiable
i do not seek physical presence
i seek emotional support instead

and i wonder who needs the other more.

tired

I am tired from thinking, talking and "controlling"
Dont want to care anymore.

You do what you like.
i will never understand, maybe i never try to understand or i refuse to understand.
my understanding is not "attuned" to yours.

we are never on the same frequency on this.
i am not you
i do not want to be like you
i do not want to be you

it aint goning to work
i tried but i do not like it
i dont want to try anymore.
i do not like it
i do not support it
but i cannot say no to it.

i will just stand clear of it.

you and your gaming.

like you said, maybe what i do not like doesnt mean it's wrong.

What a Man Really Wants

http://www.couplescompany.com/advice/TOM/Man1.htm
In short, what a man really wants is validation

Validate Your Man

Here are several key points to remember, in trying to bring true love into your life and into the life or the man you choose:

Come to terms with the fact that you don't need anyone to be happy in your life. You may want someone very badly, but in the end you must come to accept the reality that you will always somehow survive if it doesn't happen and you will make the best of what life gives you.

Make up your mind that you will not ever tolerate being disrespected, disregarded, misused, abused, or used in any fashion whatsoever. You need not revile against someone who so treats you, but you definitely make your absence felt in their life when they do so.

Be reserved in the love you shower upon your man. You may bestow limited tokens of cherishing, but if they are not reciprocated in quantity and kind, back off or your love will become less and less appreciated and ultimately despised.

Learn to listen objectively, and to reflect feelings expressed by him without advising, criticizing, or trying to change him. Don't even offer too much sympathy, lest it be quickly taken for granted.

Don't be afraid to be without him for extended periods of time. When he is out of your life, make sure that your life is as happy and productive and fruitful as it ever is when he's around. At the same time, don't throw out a welcome mat that says "Walk On Me!!" the minute he starts coming back around. Show pleasure to see him again, but be restrained.

Conclusion

In essence, then, you have it in your power to calm your troubled man like a little boy in his mother's arms. Therein lies what a man really wants: a Woman who nurtures him but who he can look up to and knows won't take any of his guff.

Be caring, but be strong. Therein lies the key to fulfilling a man's heart. You may wonder why I'm so concerned about meeting the man's needs and not yours, but that's another article. If he isn't fulfilling your needs you're definitely choosing the wrong man.

But if you've got the right man and you become What He Really Wants, such a love must be clung to with all the strength you can muster. For such a love is attainable, but rare in this world of ours

Rotaract gathering

Shuyan, sharon and me

Boon Hong, jeff, yl, cheekeong

cosying up at Balcony Bar on the BED

candy and jeff

boonhong the silent drinker

chenjun the self proclaimed workaholic

my dear dear lookin red hahahah

Ice wine + a bucket of carlsberg At Balcony Bar

At the KTV pub

Friday's outing was the first rotaract gathering that i organised in years hahaha

Havent been meetin up so thought of using the PH prelude to gather and update each other.

Dinner was at The Vila'ge and all of us had a main course and waffles and crepes LOL

seems like everyone had a sweet tooth.

After dinner went to The Balcony to slack and we were soon cosying up on their "BEDS" as they ran out of proper tables to cater to my group.

We left the place around 10 and the 4 of us, Dear and I, Sharon and Chee Keong, went Boat quay for some KTV session as Sharon wanted to sing hahah

We found a nice cosy ktv pub and ordered a few jugs of beer while listening to other patrons and not to forget my Dear and sharon's singing.

Chee keong was telling me his desire to get married and settle down early.. i was shocked as he's only 25 and still looking for a nice gf.

He's "fast forwarding" his plans but i told him not to be haste lest he scares away the girls.

Its not a bad idea to settle early but that shouldnt be the only aim when looking for a relationship. Courtship and emotional attachment paves the journey while settling down is the midpoint and marriage life is contiuation of life's journey.

well maybe its just me..

And there's not point stressing myself by comparing my situation to others.

I've been listening to lots of "who and who getting married when is your turn" kinda questions from people around me.

I'll just continue the pace i am comfortable with and my dear is agreeable to that arrangement.

I just wanna be sure that we are really ready for it and not just empty talk or "because everyone else is doing it".

Maybe i am just too playful still hahahahah

I seem like the selfish gf again >.<

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Thanks to all who made the effort to join us for Rotaract gathering..
just wanted to see you all again after a year of "lying low"
hope they had as much fun as i did heh

Blue October

HATE ME


Into The Ocean

Of ploys, suspense, laughter and delight

Surprise item

Birthdaygal

Rocky Pizza..its 16" wide btw LOL

thanks to the birthday gal

we had a HEARTY meal

little red spots day

one day of inactivity is making my sanity run into overdrive.. not that i can help it
rashes was diagnosed as allergy due to "SOMETHING" which i do not even know of.
Been itching all over and reading forums the whole day.. kinda amused by some of the threads though.

about "whiny" gfs who kept complaining of their NS bfs' higher authority who were so MEAN had to give extra duties? ha? come on, instead of blaming the higher authority, should go about rewarding the bf for his efforts.. about "i wish my bf downgrade to be clerk so i can see him everyday" tsk tsk
have some backbone please.

few traits i cant stand about gals
-who whines
-who flirts
-who sponges

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and i seriously need to get a new hp.. the joystick is dying on me again.. not too bad for a phone that i bought for almost 2 years already
payday soon!

and dear's being more intiative nowadays seems he has more time now
gonna try new activities that he found for us! LOL

fishing next!
i like little fishes though LOL its fun to play with the rod.

bothered by rashes

calamine lotion is my constant companion now.
little red spots have been plaguin my arms and legs.. ever since i came back from east coast?
tsk tsk ..

its ... gettin ubearable

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looking forward to the gathering on friday ..
with people around me.

today is just like any other day.. sadly

East Coast outing!

i wanna go again!

go cycling, go take in the views, to people and dogs watching, just enjoyin the sea breeze, something for a change in this freaking hot spell

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and which one seems nicer? been thinking about gettin more dresses heh

Purple gemstone dress

Blue romper

Blue flutter sleeves

another feminist post

Do ur Bf Gives u allowance every month??? (CLick to read discussion)

I believe in having equal rights and say and also be part of decision-making in MY relationship.
I do not like "my bf should do this do that or decide himself" mentality, cause in the end it takes two hands to clap.

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And after listenin to so many instances of broken relationships told by colleagues, to stingy to revengeful to unfaithful to "too much ideals"
It has made me even more realistic and cautious, stepping up the ladder one step at a time, walking along the long winding road in front of us, one feet in front of another at a time.

Fairytales.. are just fairytales.. they exist only to fill up that void left by realistic world
there's no such thing as princess, prince charming and living in a castle.
it may or may not be applicable to others and i'm not imposing my train of thoughts on anyone

i am just cautioning myself.

Seemingly healthy and happy relationships can change suddenly without warning
even the "love" between both parties cannot resolve issues between them

BUT i have seen my share of relationships whereby BOTH parties are trying hard to make it work.
NOTE BOTH PARTIES.
you cant have one side laying the cement to make the relationship sturdy while the other just idle or having the wrong ideals or "visions" on how things should be.

"LOVE" aint that simple anymore.

and nope, amount of time together wont make a difference.

TCC 3 Oct (Halloween theme)

and i think i am fallin sick, was shivering the whole time i was at TCC.. i think i really cannot live WITHOUT my jacket, sharon was feelin my goosebumps too tsk tsk ..
hands and nose gone numb too -_-"