Where I remember important events or happenings in my life
Saturday, March 31, 2007
suffered from a small bout of food poisoning argh and tml goin grandpa's place where he will cook buffet style..
have to control my food intake.. i lost weight from my bottom..only i still cant manage to shed the weight from the upper half ARGH.. i think i look so triangular now LOL -_-" tsk tsk ..
thinking of watching.. THE SUNSHINE..
anyone interested?
heard a friend is set for AUSSIE for studies.. he's going straight into 3rd yr! so good right! one yr to get a degree.. envy envy.. but then again.. i still wish him all the best! heh
thinking of colouring my hair .... to THIS
how's it? dunno whether can get this colour anot anyway.. dyed my hair so many times .. NONE WORKED AT ALL
working hard to get a fairer complexion too.. just give me more time.. :P
*************** on a totally DIFFERENT learnt of shuffling.. and then went to search for it i admire those nifty footworks..LOL
since i have the time i am queuein for DONUT FACTORY later! with a colleague who's been "addicted" to it like ME heh
its always good to have someone around .. ARGH!! it was sold out the moment i got there.. oh well.. shall queue on another weekend. went shopping with colleague.. bought some MARKS n SPencers biscuits and chocs in preparation for EASTER for my colleagues hahahah maybe some will find its a waste of money.. just as long ppl around me are happy i am happy :)
i think i got sucked into some NEGATIVE BLACKHOLE have to pull myself out and stay out!
"Twit refes to a silly, annoying, ineffectual, and/or imbecilic person.Nowadays i see many singaporean girls especially schoolgirls turning into twits. Any of u experience ths kind of girls before? u know the type where even when they speak to u they act cute over excessively.they do it so much it irritates the hell out of u and u wish they just bugger off.eg they speak in this type of gibberish "Moi misch u" [meaning "i miss u"]."
LOL its getting so common out here.. i aint surprise .. i know some guys like that some gals like doing that some gals are BORN like that ..
so are u one or can u stand one? some explanations from the guys in the thread
oops i sound so mean .. but then again just as long as they dun irritate me i am fine with the twits around its usual to see some twits here and there.. i aint despising poly students but i DO get to see MORE twits in POLY than in JC..
its either their command of english or their way of "attracting" attention to themselves.. some gals do it cause they think its cute or will "attract" guys to them .. or sound like some damsel in distress..
or else they wanna gain favours from the guys.. act like a damsel and guys will swarm over to show their "egoist" or "macho" side hahahhahaha
just my personal views ..
being cute is one thing .. ACTING CUTE is ANOTHER
i DO have galfrens who speaks like that BUT that's because its THEIR NATURE.. and i am alright with it heh
Transport, motorways and tramlines, starting and then stopping, taking off and landing, the emptiest of feelings, disappointed people, clinging on to bottles, and when it comes it's so, so, disappointing.
Let down and hanging around, crushed like a bug in the ground. Let down and hanging around.
Shell smashed, juices flowing wings twitch, legs are going, don't get sentimental, it always ends up drivel. One day, I am gonna grow wings, a chemical reaction, hysterical and useless hysterical and
let down and hanging around, crushed like a bug in the ground. Let down and hanging around.
Let down, Let down, Let down.
You know, you know where you are with, you know where you are with, floor collapsing, falling, bouncing back and one day, I am gonna grow wings, a chemical reaction, [You know where you are,] hysterical and useless [you know where you are,] hysterical and [you know where you are,]
let down and hanging around, crushed like a bug in the ground. Let down and hanging around.
i tried those when i was in Europe and was so elated when i managed to find it here.. BUT its kinda costly.. so any kind soul wanna buy with me?
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and i finally received his call after 5 days outfield.. made me worry for some time but at least i have his assurance that everything's fine.. shall have to endue the second round of outfield soon kinda heartpain to hear it but then he has to pull it through himself and he will .. as always :)
coincidentally the book that i am currently reading got featured in STRAITS TIMES today LOL
some quotes -Discovering this often-hidden inclination fosters long-term career gratification -too many ppl operate at quarter-spd, unsure of their place in the world, contributing too little and still feeling they have not come close to their potentioal. But when they find their "sweet spot", productivity explodes
i apologise to jun for all the harsh words today.. realising i really DO take it too seriously.. cause in the end its HER life and i wanna be there for her in times of trouble, happiness or sadness i do not know why.. i just have the affinity for her.. no matter how many times she had "disappointed" me with her actions or behavious cause i realise.. i am gauging her by MY standards.. and not realising from HER pt of view.. i am NOT HER i can only TELL her how i feel and she should know how to handle her own life
Maybe i aint much in her life or YOUR life..
i do take it seriously and cherish it no matter what happened in between.. cause i believe a strong link no matter how distorted or shattered will stand the time.. unless she gave up on me first..
like everyone out there too.. i know i aint good with words i aint perfect i have my mistakes but i'll learn though i might disagree with you lots of times please do not take it too heart i just cant help it
i just need some assurance that i am worthy to be your friend
and someone to lim kopi with :D
i am glad
cause i made ppl glad today not that i am complaining about the queue :P
i am just exaggerating and i DO have MORE free time than most ppl i know hahahah
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and tyler's complaining already oops sorry i am reading your book AND learning new crafts from a book i borrowed today..
i cant fix my attention to a single thing for a long stretch of time.. i'll learn please be patient
hmm... i like this from the book my interpretation "ppl who dont have passions dont struggle they struggle cause they feel there's SOMETHING there..that blank urge.. THE CALL"
Sunday, March 25, 2007
THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS
"It Ends Tonight"
Your subtleties They strangle me I can't explain myself at all. And all the wants And all the needs All I don't want to need at all.
The walls start breathing My mind's unweaving Maybe it's best you leave me alone. A weight is lifted On this evening I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light, It ends tonight It ends tonight.
A falling star Least I fall alone. I can't explain what you can't explain. You're finding things that you didn't know I look at you with such disdain
The walls start breathing My mind's unweaving Maybe it's best you leave me alone. A weight is lifted On this evening I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light It ends tonight, It ends tonight. Just a little insight won't make this right It's too late to fight It ends tonight, It ends tonight.
Now I'm on my own side It's better than being on your side It's my fault when you're blind It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside Now you're the first to know
When darkness turns to light It ends tonight, It ends tonight. Just a little insight won't make this right It's too late to fight It ends tonight, It ends
When darkness turns to light It ends tonight, It ends tonight. Just a little insight won't make this right It's too late to fight It ends tonight, It ends tonight.
Tonight Insight When darkness turns to light, It ends tonight.
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Why~?
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lazy sunday.. spent talking to mum the whole morning plus my daily indulgence of current affairs.. studying CIVIL SERVANTS' pay increment issue.. blah.. their theory.. "more pay=more competent governing and more contributions" isnt that very superficial then?
afternoon prepared cold soba noodles to sooth myself in this seethingly warm weather.. still debating whether to go JP library to indulge..wanna borrow some self-improvement books .. if you know me enough.. i do not really fancy fiction book maybe that explains my lack of imagination LOL i prefer history or philosophy books or self-improvement books something that i can relate to..hahahaha but still i find i'm not getting any smarter -_-" oops
contents of one of the boxes my fav! double chocolate!
did a crazy thing today..
i ....QUEUED FOR 3 FREAKIN HRS TO GET THE DONUTS FROM DONUT FACTORY... and to max out my efforts i bought4 boxes LOL
worth the time? WORTH IT.. heh especially when i saw the faces of the people i bought it for LOL i am so damn proud of my patience
BUT... its not enough to satisfy my boredom... argh..
oh yar i cut my fringe again..so how do i look? hahahah the stylist said i looked cute.. i said i do not need the cuteness he just laughed -_-" oops
bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored.. bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored..bored.. someone ask me out please? if not i think i go library tml to curb my overactive mind .. sigh...
"Beautiful Day"
The heart is a bloom Shoots up through the stony ground There's no room No space to rent in this town
You're out of luck And the reason that you had to care The traffic is stuck And you're not moving anywhere
You thought you'd found a friend To take you out of this place Someone you could lend a hand In return for grace
It's a beautiful day Sky falls, you feel like It's a beautiful day Don't let it get away
You're on the road But you've got no destination You're in the mud In the maze of her imagination
You love this town Even if that doesn't ring true You've been all over And it's been all over you
It's a beautiful day Don't let it get away It's a beautiful day
Touch me Take me to that other place Teach me I know I'm not a hopeless case
See the world in green and blue See China right in front of you See the canyons broken by cloud See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out See the Bedouin fires at night See the oil fields at first light And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth After the flood all the colors came out
It was a beautiful day Don't let it get away Beautiful day
Touch me Take me to that other place Reach me I know I'm not a hopeless case
What you don't have you don't need it now What you don't know you can feel it somehow What you don't have you don't need it now Don't need it now Was a beautiful day
Friday, March 23, 2007
i aint in a good position to say much i still hope u pick yourself up soon.. do not DONT KNOW about it.. U know.. just hang on.. it'll be over soon..
dun let yourself be a ticking time bomb.. dun force yourself BUT do not drag either.. U know alot of ppl care
We think our choice is "either...or", when "have it all" could bring us more.
What matters is not where you've been, nor how you'd play some future scene. It's not how you did what, or how, it's what you're choosing here and now.
"What you give out, you'll get" is true, but how and when's not up to you.
When one believes in what he'll do, intent plus faith makes dreams come true.
Optimism boosts your chances of finding happy circumstances.
The passion that you have inside is not a thing that you should hide.
Just let yourself be what you are. There's lots of Space, and you're one Star.
We would likely get more done, if we made work seem more like fun.
A better measure of success is not more wealth, but happiness.
Money's just a written score for time and effort spent before. We spend it like we haven't learned what we have paid per dollar earned.
A simple secret for success is demonstrating helpfulness.
To not "control" but just "allow" will often work out best somehow.
You'll just attract the help you need, when your intent's some worthy deed.
Remember, "What goes round, comes round" as sure as what goes up comes down. The deeds you do, both mean and kind, get done to you sometime, you'll find.
Success might make a late appearance, but it will come with perseverance.
Folks may find, when life is done, they most regret not having fun.
self photos~ her Azuki freeze with my Irish coffee and Margarita coffee LOL i know .. all liqour coffee .. cant help it :P
Pathfinder was ALRIGHT not really worth the hype or as much as i anticipated it to be.. though graphics still good.. kinda lackin in substance.. ALot of killing and gore and sheer willpower
That guy physically in taiwan, heart not in taiwan LOL but i am ever so glad to hear him or see his msgs for most days~ it meant i am always in his heart or on his mind though i reminded him of the cost he said its worth it.. and that really touched my heart and i like his attention too hee
though the distance made it disheartening and we also need more trust in each other i am glad we got over the first week
and now there's 4 more weeks to go! Ganbatte to US!
i am so in love with my guy~ and i like it keep it HOT
i am SO DISTRAUGHT after losing the WHOLE ENTRY i wrote about this article ..
so here goes draft 2..
causes of happiness - affection, zest, work and family causes of Unhappiness - boredom, envy, fatigue and fear of public opinion
IMPERSONAL INTEREST = THINGS WE DO FOR PLEASURE and not attached with responsibilities = wider perspective of the world =antidote to fatigue =keep a sense of proportion = counteracts SELF-ADSORPTION = reminds us there is much value in the world BESIDE US = a source of happiness
time spent on pleasurable activities is not time wasted, its time invested.
so if you think pursusing something that is not "of use" to you is a waste of time and money
Think again.
"Not only will it make you happier, it will also make you more productive"
and nothing will be done if you dun get started and find one that suits you do for the sake of liking it not for the sake of "Having to do it"
What is being in a relationship? Why did you get into a relationship? What did you get in a relationship? What did you do in a relationship? and lastly Are you worthy for the relationship?
My Love
Ain't another woman that can take your spot my-
If I wrote you a symphony, Just to say how much you mean to me (what would you do?) If I told you you were beautiful Would you date me on the regular (tell me, would you?) Well, baby I've been around the world But I ain't seen myself another girl (like you) This ring here represents my heart But there's just one thing I need from you (say "I do")
[Chorus] Yeah, because I can see us holding hands Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand I can see us on the countryside Sitting on the grass, laying side by side You could be my baby, let me make you my lady Girl, you amaze me Ain't gotta do nothing crazy See, all I want you to do is be my love (So don't give away) My love (So don't give away) My love (So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love (So don't give away) My love (So don't give away) My love (So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
Ooooh, girl My love My love
Now, if I wrote you a love note And made you smile with every word I wrote (what would you do?) Would that make you want to change your scene And wanna be the one on my team (tell me, would you?) See, what's the point of waiting anymore? Cause girl I've never been more sure (that baby, it's you) This ring here represents my heart And everything that you've been waiting for (just say "I do")
[Chorus] Yeah, because I can see us holding hands Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand I can see us on the countryside Sitting on the grass, laying side by side You could be my baby, let me make you my lady Girl, you amaze me Ain't gotta do nothing crazy See, all I want you to do is be my love (So don't give away) My love (So don't give away) My love (So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love (So don't give away) My love (So don't give away) My love (So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
Ooooh, girl My love My love
[T.I. talking] alrigh, itz time to get em J.T. i dont know what she's hesitating for man... [T.I.'s rap] Shorty, cool as a fan On the new once again Still has fan from Peru to Japan Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan But if you got a man, try to lose him if you can Cause the girls real wild throw their hands up high When they wanna come kick it wit a stand up guy You don't really wanna let a chance go by Because you ain't been seen wit a man so fly Friend so fly i can go fly Private, cause I handle my B.I. They call me candle guy, simply 'cause I am on fire I hate to have to cancel my vacation so you can't deny I'm patient, but I ain't gon try You don't come, I ain't gon die Hold up, what chu mean, you can't go why? Me and you boyfriend we ain't no tie You say you wanna kick it with an ace so high Baby, you decide that I ain't your guy Ain't gon lie ,I feel your space But forget your face, I swear I will St. Baths, Anguilla anywhere I chill Just bring wit me a pair, I will
[Chorus] I can see us holding hands Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand I can see us on the countryside Sitting on the grass, laying side by side You could be my baby, let me make you my lady Girl, you amaze me Ain't gotta do nothing crazy See, all I want you to do is be my love (Love) My love (Love) My love (Love) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love (Love) My love (Love) My love (Love) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
was just looking at TVMOBILE when travelling to work
the EMIRATES commercials never fail to bring a smile to my face
"WHen was the last time you did something for the first time"
cause life ..is to discover :)
it doesnt have to concern money it can be anything from friends to emotions
so what about you?
what new things have you discovered regarding.. your surroundings? your friends and families? your passions? etc
Monday, March 19, 2007
today was alright.. just did some maintenace and gotten some feedbacks its good to hear my "babies" are doing alright..
BUT still i aint feelin the satisfaction from the job am i being too slack? the job duties too slack? or the job isnt fulfillin? or should i embrace the job and look at it from another point of view?
SOMEONE said HE doesnt have job satisfaction cause HE AINT DOING MUCH
maybe i should do more rounds or wait till its official online and with more requests and jobs on the line i'll be more occupied and when i'm more occupied maybe i'll be more satisfied and have less time to worry about such redundant stuff cause its like knowing i'm wasting my time when i should be out there earnin my keeps or learning more
many will envy my job cause of its flexibility i aint complaining just that.. it aint enough for me.. but yet i aint doing anythin more.. i am contradicting myself .. i know.. as usual.. i havent found my passion or niche yet..
"Two student archetypes dominate: the specialist and the existentialist. Members of the first category know exactly what they want. Without taking note of anything else, these youngsters dash to the business faculty's booth. They ask the delighted officer to admit them to a BBA in accountancy and extra courses in derivatives.
In contrast, the existentialist, clueless about his future, wanders around until some staff member grabs him. To appear less awkward, he mumbles a supposedly intelligent question, such as: 'What exactly is business?'
Both approaches to career planning are problematic in view of the national objective to raise innovativeness and job satisfaction. They lead either to premature closure or endless drifting. It is therefore imperative for students to take corrective measures at an early stage. They need to be supported by those who have a stake in their future, including parents, politicians and educators.
Students should start with the end and reason backwards to what needs to be done now. They need to plan their lives, not only their careers."
Its like those savings plan, you have an estimated amount in your mind after a fixed period of time then you work your way BACKWARDS By saving an appropriate and proportional amount montly, you will be able to reach your end goal Though life choices and career aint that straightforward, what matters is you START WITH AN AIM
went out mum and sis, thought of using the vouchers but realised it was valid from sun-fri only LOL but anyway we already sat down so just proceeded to order the vouchers will be used on another day instead -_-"
and i got myself some self-pampering kits.. saw the review in HER WORLD i'm quite a sucker for mascara.. i love the way it opened my eyes heh
and i managed to buy another version of CHOYA~ sparkling juice woh and it's good hee
shall review about the KOSE mask after i use it
Saturday, March 17, 2007
i think i bother too much about others when they are not bothered about themselves shall save myself from all the troubles i dun even know why i get so agitated for..
are u just shutting yourself out? seein the world with tinted glasses and ignoring all the possible dangers or hurt?
i shall not say again i think i said all that i can be said maybe what i said just fell on deaf ears maybe what i said aint somethin you like to hear maybe what i said aint what u wan to listen maybe i should just listen and keep my mouth shut.. but i cant
its your life not mine i think i sound like dictating your life telling you what to do ..
you do watever you wan
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Happy Belated Birthday to HS
heh we never forget we just never tell u only wanted to give u a surprise we do care abt you hee wanted to get you sunflowers too seein you have been bombared with work and feelin under the weather but i hope the daisy will do for ya
hope you'll be cheery soon
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on another note i can never accomplish one of the action on my TO-DO list "shoppin ban" sigh.. but at least i tried to keep spending to the minimum :P
oh and Happy birthday tylertoo read that u had lots of fun LOL drink LOTS of water it helps with hangover
and i bought a dress online -_-" kinda into dresses now.. fuss-free i love V-cut and babydoll LOL cause i cant see my waistline -_-" which isnt nice in the first place lol and this glittery mascara.. as they said "eyes are window to your soul.. " i shall beautify my eyes to entice u to my world :P
(rejuvenation-2. to restore to a former state; make fresh or new again) (bonding- a close personal relationship that forms between people)
what's your love style? what's your relationship style?
like i said different couple has different workings..
some gals preferred to be loved some gals preferred to give all their love some gals compromise with the other half and share their love among themselves
so which category are you?
kinda weird when someone said i am "hardworking" in my relationship cause to me it sounds like "work" relationship cannot be measure nor does it have a definite value to weighing the efforts done
to me its just a simple theory i do whatever i like and what i like is to make him happy i know he does what he can to make me happy too its like a merry-go-round theory the harder u push the merry-go-round the faster it spins if there's no one pushing, it will eventually lose its momentum and stop
push=efforts done in this case if he cannot be the pushing force i will be the force if we both give it a push it will liken to giving relationship more momentum make it spin for longer period there's no such thing as "enough efforts" there's no limit on how fast or how long it can go i just feel that the more you give the more you will benefit from it all too
so .. saying goes.. Do not take things for granted what doesnt happen does not mean it will never happen what is not said doesnt mean that nothing's to be said
speaking of which..
today's the day my dear left me for Taiwan again for 5 weeks argh..
met him and his buddy and gf for dinner at RICE GARDEN at cuppage then went back to pack his stuff woke at 2am reached airport at 3am sent him off at 6+am unwillingly.. took the train back and reached workplace at 8am
and so.. i will learn to live life without him.. for now but he will always be with me
and for cecilia... your relationship style i conclude is like plasticine lol flexible yet can be moulded into definite shape can be together yet be different entities
heh thanks to cecilia something to light my spirits up~
You, you're such a big star to me You're everything I wanna be But you're stuck in a hole and I want you to get out I don't know what there is to see But I know it's time for you to leave We're all just pushing along Trying to figure it out, out, out.
All your anticipation pulls you down When you can have it all, you can have it all.
So come on, come on, get it on Don't know what you're waiting for Your time is coming don't be late, hey hey So come on See the light on your face Let it shine Just let it shine Let it shine. Stop being so hard on yourself It's not good for your health I know that you can change So clear your head ang come round You only have to open your eyes You might just get a big surprise And it may feel good and you might want to smile, smile, smile.
Don't you let your demons pull you down 'Cause you can have it all, you can have it all.
Hey let me know you You're all that matters to me Hey let me show you You're all that matters to me.
Hey let me love you You're all that matters to me Hey so come on yeah Shine all your light over me.
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my emotions rise and fall as rapidly as the tides.. it can be calm and gentle and it can be like the torrents within the blink of an eye or just be onset by some words.. i know it aint healthy but i'll try to contain myself its hard.. i'll try..
finally manage to get my new lean machine from the onslaught of salesmen and the wide array of machines on display..
HP PAVILION DESKTOP PC -Intel Pentium 2 DUO -19"inch -Windows Vista Premium -1GB Memory -250GB Hard drive -Optical Keyboard and mouse -15-1 reader -nVidia Geforce 7300 LE graphics card
and its SLEEK BLACK
big hole in pocket but worth the investment.. and so i shall wait for its arrival
bo bian i cant possible use my sis's laptop all the time but at least now i can say proudly "I'm a new owner too"
Sunday, March 11, 2007
i dun even know what should be said what shouldnt be said maybe i am too naive
i aint have a forgetful memory
i just wanted to forget what's meant to be forgotten remember what i want to remember
i SHOULDNT CARE HOW OTHERS WANNA INTERPRET MY WORDS ITS MY BLOG I DO WHAT I LIKE
Azabu sabo followed by OOYSTERS and today DONUT FACTORy his mum queued for more than 2 hrs for that.. yet i feel the weekends too short for me..
haven had enough..
the day of march 10 ended with a unhappy note.. its marks the day of the end of my little piggie.. but .. i'm sure he had a good life ... will miss the sounds and the funny faces it will made when its hungry..
out with jun on a gossip n food trip to esplanade makansutra sat beside DXO listenin to some of the crowd fav songs such as "chasin cars" heh free entertainment plus good friend beside how good can it get?
and PLS do NOT give in to that GAL BE ASSERTIVE she is CLEARLY INSULTIN U BUT DO NOT NEED TO DEGRADE YOURSELF BY ARGUIN WITH HER.. not worth your effort instead do what i suggested it works wonders .. the POWER AND INFLUENCE OF THE PERSONAL BLOG
Read QT's recent post on "What makes you YOU?" and also from the frequent brain washing commercials of the NAVY "If your life were a movie, what would it be?"
made me wonder about myself too.. i'm still half floating around with no anchor..
maybe i really need to go and read QT's book for me "What should i do with my life?" or did i set my expectations too high, too unrealistic? once you ventured out of your cocoon, its hard to fit back into the shell that once restrained all your fears..and hopes
maybe i should be more positive higher expectations meant more satisfactions when i actually accomplish it and by not being complacent meant more exploration and wider perspective
i realised i have been wearing my LEvis Red tab ALL THE TIME -_-" i need more jeans..
now i am LUSTIN over SKINNIES anyone any recommendations? <$100 please
somethin like this though not as high waisted
the other pair of levis cannot make it already .. and it's only 2 yrs old argh now my current 27 seems droopy or else my butt shrank.. again .. and i want more denim mini skirts and shorts but not to work lar LOL have to be covered up for work .. which is .. boring...
i wan a perkier butt leh .. someone teach moi i'll be grateful :P
and i finally realised who his friends were referrin to when they said i resemble kyoko fukuda.. thinking of it .. it aint a good thing .. should i cut my fringe too?
At first I was afraid, I was petrified When you said you had 10 inches, Lord I almost died! But I spent so many years waiting for a man that long That I grew strong, and I knew I could take you on...
But there you go, another lie, I was ready for a Big Mac and you've brought me a French Fry I should have known that it was bulls***, just a sad path Should have known that there was no Anaconda lurking in those pants!
I will survive! I will survive! Cos as long as I have batteries, My sex life, it will thrive!
I will always have good sex, With a handful of latex! I will survive! I will survive! Hey Hey!..
...It took all my self control not to laugh out loud, When I saw your little weiner standing tall and proud! But to hell with all your ego and to hell with all your needs Now I'm saving all my lovin' for a cordless multispeed!
I will survive! I will survive! Cos as long as I have batteries, My sex life, it will thrive!
I will always have good sex, With a handful of latex! I will survive! I will survive! Hey Hey!..
LOL cant wait to hear them sing!
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
another catchy tune i heard
and my MUST WATCH MOVIE OF THE MTH
300
A BLOODY BEAUTIFUL SHOW the way i like it "we will give them nothing but we will take from them EVERYTHING"
i feel.. my wings are being clipped somehow.. being clipped to reality being clipped to sense of "responsibility" being clipped to "social norms"
as much as i am a "rules abiding" person
i would LOVE to break a rule or two once in a while.. the excitement of going AGAINST something never fails to thrill me
the more you tell me what NOT to do.. the more i will WANT to try
temptation beckons me unexplored territory appeal to me
and so i have to restrain myself.. UNLESS .. only those who know will know
i'm always cautious.. till i tried something new and my gaze and attention will be held till i find my next toy or interest that appeal to my senses again
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
currently got hooked to this catchy tune~ hey i listen RnB too :P 50 Cent-In Da Club
Smack That
Monday, March 05, 2007
a good friend was late but i kept my patience and temper in check, cant be feeling as bad as her right now..
she came 45 mins later and talked to her till 9+ got to know the whole situation never said much, just analyse the whole situation and gave her my conclusions and she accepted my reasoning.. i never really blamed the other party just told her what i think and what i assume will be the next steps.. at least its better late than never.. to find out what he did behind her back two months.. the guy always reluctant to go out with her, to meet her, to bring her out to meet his folks or friends even refuse to reply her msgs and calls what kind of bf is this? an irresponsible one or a sly one with a hidden agenda..
its alright i'm always here and u want fun? i give u fun :) we shall have some gals' nights out ourselves LOL
i think i became more subtle already hahahah i thought i would lash out again, instead its better to keep calm and use my head instead of my heart for once
and so promised to bring her go places heh i think i have lots tricks up my sleeve yet and lots of things which she hasnt explore yet variety is good :D
next stop
MUSIC THE WAY I LIKE LIVE AND LOUD~
and for you i know i posted this before i hope you'll move along what's past is past even though its with lots of expectations, joy, heartache and disappointments i hope you'll just leave this episode behind you deserve better do not trample yourself down
"Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong Move along, move along like I know you do And even when your hope is gone Move along, move along just to make it through Move along Move along" ************
and i am itching to take pictures again argh i need a decent camera... need to wait for my next bonus to reward myself
whats worse than being dumped?
that will be -knowing from his ex that they have gotten back together FOR SOME TIME (aka two-timing) you and seeing their INTIMATE PICS ONLINE its like declaring to the WHOLE WORLD their love and making sure that she will see it -asking him for an explanation and he kept quiet
SILENCE MEANS CONSENT and therefore GUILTY AS CHARGED
such a bastard and when i thought they would be happily ever after he picks up his act and tried to be more responsive to her
looks can be deceiving all the sweet talkin amounts to nothing.. all the promises made are just empty lies
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and i cant help posting this angry post i cant help letting my emotions rule over me
if u make known your problem known to me i will try my best to console you, to offer u alternatives or solutions or be there for you i will not laugh it off or just keep quiet..
cause that's what friends are for..
i will help you when you are in need i will want you to help me when i am down too
have you done all your visiting? collected all your red packets? on the overall.. had fun? i had my share of fun and it wasnt enough to me as my nick goes.. "haven had enough" i like the cosyness of having lots of people around me, having my family around me no matter whether they are close or not..or regardless how often or rare i meet them cause .. THEY ARE FAMILY went to mum's side for visiting again at my grand-aunt's condo heh another reason to collect red packets and see those long forgotten cousins that i never really recognise lol
but its all fun and soon we'll warm up to one another
then tonight mum prepared steamboat and LOU HEI! hahaha second of the CNY period.. hmm i had thrice last year woh but its all for luck LOU HEI MORE=more luck :P
family togetherness.. doesnt need alot of money to maintain, it just need alittle more effort on everyone's side to sit down for a meal, to update one another on the happenings and just to gossip
and tonight for the occassion, mum prepared "TANG YUAN" hee WISHING ALL "TUAN TUAN YUAN YUAN, EN EN AI AI" with your family and loved ones..
there's no ideal relationship its a matter of how you see and handle the relationship and how much feelings and respect and also responsibility to the other party
there's no perfect gf as no one is perfect its a matter or living with his/her faults
BUT i believe in UPGRADING a relationship inclusive of the other party, knowledge, career, skills and character wise what i want the other party to be, i'll try my best to lead by example
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and i believe in self worth thats the most fundamental element to living do not belittle yourself you think you can make it, you WILL make IT
do not let others get in your way of accomplishments
and do not always think you can ride on the tailcoats of others aint it better to be on par or even outshine the other party?
cause you only have yourself to answer at the end of the day
Friday, March 02, 2007
I know your eyes in the morning sun I feel you touch me in the pouring rain And the moment that you wander far from me I wanna feel you in my arms again
And you come to me on a summer breeze Keep me warm in your love Then you softly leave And its me you need to show
How deep is your love? How deep is your love? I really meant to learn Cos were living in a world of fools Breaking us down when they All should let us be.
I believe in you You know the door to my very soul Youre the light in my deepest, darkest hour My savior when I fall
And you may not think I care for you When you know down inside That I really do
How deep is your love? How deep is your love? I really meant to learn Cos were living in a world of fools Breaking us down when they All should let us be.
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and HOW DEEP is YOUR love?
how do you show to the other half how much they meant to you? or do you assume that they will just know it and be grateful and content? its NOT a given right to be loved its a not a matter of whether you can or cannot give its a matter or whether you WANT to give or not and its only appropriate to show some appreciation for what others have done for you like that way you will say "thank you" if someone opened the door for you ... right?
when you want something you have to HOLD onto it nothing stays the same forever you may argue that since nothing stays forever than whats the point of giving so much? cause i believe ... by giving your best at least you can look back and end it with no regrets as you have already done your best to keep it intact
i do not believe in being stingy with affections or praises or encouragements or mpney matters for people around me be it friends, family and lovers..
everyone need some assurance and confidence boost every now and then
Why kids need sex education? Girl, 9, pregnant Case of Primary 3 pupil cited by counsellor at youth forum amid concerns about teen pregnancy
THE Primary 3 pupil was just nine years old, but she was already six months pregnant with a 14-year-old schoolmate's child. The memory of the distraught parents and child sitting in her NuLife Care and Counselling Services office in Little India three years ago still sticks in counsellor Sheena Jebal's mind.
The girl could well be the youngest pregnancy case in Singapore, judging by a Straits Times check with local hospitals, youth social workers, teen shelters and pregnancy helplines.
But though her case is extremely rare, it highlights ongoing concerns about youth pregnancy.
Figures on the ground indicate that thousands of teens are experimenting sexually, say youth social workers and counsellors.
Last year, Ms Jebal's centre alone came across at least 30 cases of teens having sex. The youngest male was about 12 and the youngest female about 13.
A Straits Times check with restructured hospitals here revealed that between 2000 and this year, the youngest female to give birth at KK Women's and Children's Hospital was 12 years old. The youngest at Singapore General Hospital was 14. The National University Hospital declined comment.
As required by law, they were reported to the police as cases of underage sex.
Ministry of Health figures for 2001 to 2005 show an average of around 1,500 teen abortions every year. In 2005, the exact figure was 1,279 and in 2004, the number was 1,341.
Nearly all the teens who aborted their babies in 2005 were between 15 and 19 years old and unmarried. Slightly more than half were Chinese and a third were Malay.
The figures go to the heart of a controversy over the issue of how early children should be exposed to sex education in schools.
Ms Jebal cited the example of the pregnant nine-year-old during a youth forum to counter the complaints of one participant, who felt her sister in Primary 4 was too young to start learning about sex.
Called 'Yes/No' Youth In Relationships, it was organised by Republic Polytechnic's Indian Cultural Group and Narpani Pearavai Youth Executive Committee last Saturday.
Ms Jebal said the nine-year-old had begun to experiment with sex with a schoolmate at home when her parents, both professionals, were at work.
Recounting the tense one-hour discussion she had with the family to The Straits Times, Ms Jebal said: 'Her parents taught her how to use a sanitary napkin, but didn't educate her about menstruation or sex.
'They felt she was too young to know at her age. There is no such thing as being too young to know,' said Ms Jebal.
Ms Tan Bee Joo of the Singapore Children's Society cited several areas of concern, including lack of adult supervision over the use of the Internet, where teens can easily access pornographic sites and 'meet' strangers online.
'It creates opportunities for children to chat with strangers, go on blind dates, sell their bodies for money to satisfy material wants,' she warned.
Also, many parents are not giving their children the right sexual knowledge or instilling proper moral values in them at a young age, she said.
Ms Tan, who is head of the society's Students Service Hub in Bukit Merah, said: 'We have many students asking many sexuality-related questions, which many adults would never have thought children at this age know.
'Children need to be taught to take responsibility for their own actions, but this should be accompanied by providing them with the right information.'
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another reason i feel its better to be open with such topics BEFORE they try to experiment on their own WITHOUT even knowing what it is
good friends(the few chionging kakis) good finger lickin food(Wala wala chicken wings!) good beer(HOEgarden!) good music(there's MUSE~) good conversations(my friend's in finance)
was a last minute decision to go WALA WALA at holland
how last min? msg came at 4+ called home at 5+ to cancel dinner reached Holland at 7+ he came at 8+ went in at 9+
-_-" oops cannot do too often in case mum not happy with my absence and for wasting food
but i'll know my limits and mum will just let me go and have some fun
my meetups with my dear are usually last min decisions due to his NS committements but we have learn to deal with it and am still learnin to work around it hahahahah
its a matter of compromising.. like if he can only meet me at 8 that's alright to me... i'll just shop around.. cause to me its the thoughts that count the thought of him WANTIN to meet me even for a few hrs touched me..as it meant crammin all his stuff in camp to squeeze some time out for me.. so i must make the effort to compile to his timing too..
relationship aint a barter nor is it a charity
its meant to compliment your life~ fulfill your emotional needs
